| birthday girl

"dayeon you know i'm not a birthday person right?" y/n chuckled, walking past the living, scoffing as she rolled her eyes and went to the kitchen, opening the fridge. "b-but still! it doesn't make sense! am i not your girlfriend?" dayeon yelled as she walked into the kitchen, her eyes watching as her lover chugs a drink and closes the fridge.

"why are you making it such a big deal? dayeon, i was busy alright? i got home late, sorry. stop acting like a child already." y/n groaned, placing the glass on the sink before putting her hands on the counter and leaning in.

"acting like a child? but i waited for you all day long! i told my friends to not worry because— because i was only waiting for you!" dayeon retorted, her feet thumping on the tiled floor of the shared house as she made her way behind y/n.

y/n sighed. "goddamit dayeon, aren't you an adult already?" y/n faced the other girl, glaring. dayeon shivered, feeling the coldness under the dim light inside y/n's eyes piercing through her.

dayeon grumbled, frustrated. "you too! and you still don't know how to just, just make time or effort for me!" dayeon answered, biting her lip as she tried to stop the urge to breakdown and cry.

but y/n scratched the back of her head. "you want me to just leave my responsibility because of your silly birthday? dayeon, stop that already." y/n asked, facing dayeon and walking towards her.

dayeon's tears started to fall as she felt the weighted presence of y/n in front of her, dayeon didn't expect this, she looked forward to her birthday and hoped y/n would be there and it was already midnight when she came, even her friends doubted y/n's presence and told her to give it up.

dayeon just couldn't.

there was so many signs in front of her, signs to stop her stupidness and the never-ending blindness, dayeon ignored those because she believed the only person who understood her was y/n.

she believed that no one would love her the way y/n does.

but why is dayeon right here, standing and crying in the middle of the kitchen, asking for attention and seeking validation.

dayeon deserved better but of course she couldn't see her worth after almost getting dumped by a million worth of lies coated with sugar and dipped in sweetness.

it was so sweet it blinded her.

that time hikaru told her to let y/n off and just break away from her because to hikaru, y/n never cared, didn't care at all.

that time y/n promised to introduce dayeon to her friends but dropped her as soon as the met, acted like dayeon wasn't there, let dayeon fall off from the conversation like she wasn't there, at all.

this day, dayeon's birthday, was suppose to be the time dayeon actually introduces y/n with her friends, face to face, but it seemed like y/n didn't want to.

why didn't she want to?

"b-but i expected you to be here with me..." dayeon muttered, wiping her tears as she sobbed.

"i can't be here with you all the time, understand?" y/n stated, voice firm as she held a hand on dayeon's shoulder, holding it firmly.

"i don't get it, i don't get it why you couldn't be here for me." dayeon muttered, her sobs coming out broken. "i don't understand why you would let go of my hand when i'm with you and your friends, i don't get it why you want to distance away from my friends— and i don't understand why you would forget me." dayeon continued to ramble.

y/n grip got tighter.

"stop making up theories, i told you i'm sorry. stop bringing that up dayeon, i'm stressed and tired now." y/n stated before placing both of her hands on dayeon's shoulder, sustaining her in that position.

with her head low, dayeon sobbed.

"dayeon, you know i love you right? whatever you're saying is just a huge misunderstanding, so get over it." y/n stated, hands cupping dayeon's cheeks and forcing her to look up eyes to eyes with her.

"got it?"

dayeon nodded. "yes."

after that, dayeon soon is finally starting to realize slowly, but that process was too slow that everytime y/n shows a little appreciation, affection, that ice that grows inside dayeon's heart and the resentment she feels melts down.

maybe she was a coward? afraid of facing the truth and finally acknowledging how she never ever benefitted in this relationship and she just made herself look stupid.

some months after, dayeon sat on the sofa of the shared house alone, waiting for the same person.

it was already pass 11pm, she didn't know why she was still there hoping and waiting, it's funny, stupid, absurd and ridiculous, even if you use different words the meaning was the same.

dayeon was the laughable one.

"dayeon, just leave y/n, she's not bringing anything good in your life except for problems after problems and lies after lies! dayeon you are better than this." dayeon recalls hikaru saying that sentence, dayeon thought she was listening, but the message and the whole point dashes pass to her brain and comes out to the other side of her ear.

she still couldn't understand.

what was it today?

november 1.

ah, xingqiao's birthday.

oh, that's why.

she's probably somewhere with cai bing and xingqiao and her friends celebrating.

was y/n actually a birthday person, or was she the person she claimed to not enjoy birthday parties?

it's all clear now.

dayeon stood up, heavy feeling in her chest as she breathes it out hoping it'll go away, and no it did not.

her shoulders slumped, dayeon walked upstairs, heaving soft sobs as tears fell in her eyes.

and she laid in the bed, peculiarly tired, her phone vibrated in the wooden furniture of their nightstand, alarming her thoughts as she picked it up.

dayeon hesitated to check the two messages sent to her by y/n.

yet she did.

y/n <3.

hey dayeon, sorry.

i'm gonna be late tonight,
go sleep already.
seen 12:32am.

dayeon sets her phone down, facing the other way where y/n used to sleep beside her.

tears falling non-stop like a flow of a river.

well if it isn't the consequences of her own action.

with a heavy heart, conflicted mind, dayeon closed her eyes, hoping sleep would help ease the pain in her heart.

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