fluff and angst || History

❝i moved on but i still remember a thing or two❞

hanayo sighed, holding her milk tea in hand, the night was rather chilly, cold, that it made her regret drinking a cold drink at a cold night, as much as she wants to go home already, she still wanted to walk and spend her time in the sidewalk, thinking what could've happen or what could've been still having someone on her side. hanayo didn't realized good ones exist when she lost one, and the sickening bullshit on her heart was still there, wanting those smooth hands hold hers while walking. sure she and hitomi already moved on to newer things but they still have a history, that hunts hanayo.

there was no way hanayo could reach the train station while walking like turtle, thinking about those images of hitomi's eyes, there was so many mistakes she made, learning that her moves before wasn't good enough to make hitomi stay. of course, they were just in middle school that time, infatuation was a trend, staying by each others side, hitomi could only realized she wasn't in love. 

hanayo haven't seen hitomi for the last 2 years they were apart, she was alone, that time hitomi asked for a hug, hanayo was tired, learning from her mistakes, ain't that what the adults do? sadly, she was hearing a lot of news about hitomi after the girl left japan, but of course, hanayo wanted a change, which includes hitomi not being with her, oh god, she tried carrying the pride she had on her shoulders.

those months that passed without hitomi, hanayo heard a news about hitomi having a korean girlfriend in korea, at first, hanayo didn't give a damn, she had her pride up, there as no way she could give up, bet the fact that she didn't have someone to brighten her day. 

there was no other people who knew hitomi better than hanayo does, even how hitomi looks like in her wrinkled tee, hanayo could bet it that hitomi's girlfriend doesn't even know hitomi's secrets, those thoughts ate her up that she had to leave japan to korea.

still, in her stay here in korea for already 11 months, she only have seen hitomi at a party, nako hosted, it was a bomb and when hanayo's eyes settled in hitomi's, feels like the world stop, that's when hanayo thought, it wouldn't hurt if they give it another try.

but that chaewon came and ruined everything, chaewon instantly pulled hitomi and took her away from hanayo's view, she didn't even had the time to talk to hitomi, but those eyes of hitomi would be enough to give her nostalgia.

those thoughts became the way for her to reach the train station unconsciously, she stopped as soon as she saw a blonde haired small girl, holding the same drink as her, waiting for the upcoming train, the dress she was wearing was uncontrollably perfect for her, but it suits the girl more in a wrinkled shirt of hanayo. her hair was different than what hanayo saw that night at the party, and when they were still together, her cheeks was not like before, hanayo probably missed hitomi a lot.

hanayo took steps towards, scanning hitomi as she walked towards the girl.

"hey." hanayo's low voice made hitomi look up to the girl, hitomi's eyes were still the same, it still hides all those memories of them, good or bad.

"hi hanayo." after hearing the squeaky voice, hanayo smiled at the smaller girl, she knew she shouldn't be doing this, but can you blame hr? she wants to take what's originally hers since she realized hitomi's worth on her life.

"are you going home alone?" she might sound like she was ready to steal hitomi from chaewon, but she didn't care, did she?

hitomi didn't answered, she as contemplating, but she had no choice, she wanted this too don't she? of course hanayo had grown so much and she was more attractive now.

"yes, why?" hitomi finally had the guts to answer, even if it was the shortest. hanayo only stared at the girl in front of her.

"i don't wanna go home alone," hanayo pouted and held a smile at hitomi, hanayo wasn't impressed, hitomi wouldn't even recall their past, because if that chaewon knew about her, chaewon must explode.

"go home with me." it wasn't a option, it was a demand, because even if hitomi doesn't want to go with hanayo. she had no choice.

then, a train stopped in front of them as if it's on cue.

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"stay here with me." hanayo commanded, her eyes set at hitomi's. hitomi sighed, hsaking her head, refusing hanayo's demands, she couldn't also let her pride go, hanayo took hitomi's hands, there weren't so many people at the train, to be honest, there were the only people there.

"i can't hanayo." hitomi stated, her words firm, shit, once again hanayo had the wrong move.

"just for one day, please let me take my time." hanayo stated, her hold on hitomi's hand grew tighter, and it was wrong but hitomi herself didn't want to let go, does it also count as cheating?

hitomi sighed, losing. "yes, fine. but only this once." even if hitomi's tome was also demanding, hanayo was sure hitomi can't refuse her.

the train stopped.

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"you see, you're clothes aren't comfortable enough to make you sleep." hanayo stated, her eyes trailing on her clothes.

hanayo stretched her arms for hitomi to reach the clothes in her hands, it was a sweatpants and oversized t-shirt, hitomi had to recall the same clothes she always wear whenever they're alone in a house.

"fine." hitomi went to the bathroom and changed clothes, leaving her dress in the corner of the room.

hanayo scanned the girl in the oversized t-shirt, her lips tugged in a small smile the girl rather looked so cute and hot at the same time.

"here, hitomi." hanayo pulled hitomi at the bed, both of them falling on it, if hitomi ended up having sex with her ex it will be shit out called cheating, and if they just sleep, if you understand it you might not consider it as cheating.

hanayo stared at hitomi's faced, moving a bit of the blonde strand on the back of hitomi's ear.

it's wrong, just wrong.

"what do you think are you doing?" hitomi questioned hanayo, her brows arching.

hanayo shrugged, hands snaking down to hitomi's waist, pulling her close.

"if your girlfriend asked you where have you been tell her you slept in your friend's house," hanayo paused and leaned a bit closer to hitomi, and shit, it was wrong but hitomi felt butterflies flying on her stomach, she felt her face flush.

"or tell her you slept with your ex." hanayo mumbled, her hot breath fanning hitomi's pale face.

"w-wha-" hitomi couldn't finish her sentence, when a plump lips pushed itself to hers, it was soft, it tasted like chaewon's lips, but it was sweeter.

"yeah, let's try this once again."