S. Youngeun × Y. Jia (Kep1er/GP999)

| jia in the restroom


youngeun where the hell are you?


jia sat on the toilet of a restroom inside a cubicle, her mind empty as she graced upon the thought of where youngeun might be. now, how is she going to get through the night? how the hell is she going through the loud noises booming in every corners of the school, it was loud, and not something she loved, every speakers booms with noises she couldn't take.


god, i want to go home.


but how? if jia can't get through the big ocean of students partying around the school grounds, if she can't take the loud music or the awkwardness of having to exit out of the crowd, how the hell is she suppose to go home?


there's no exit.


either if jia stays inside until the end of the party or she disappears and never be seen again, no one will notice, no one will care, because after all who cares for a loser like her?


a creeper hiding in the cubicles, waiting for the ferocious, loud and the biggest party of fall to end.


jia hides behind the walls of the restroom, because her best friend kind of left her alone and didn't come back. so she sat there in the toilet, thinking through her life decisions and why she believed youngeun would be there for her the whole time.


it hurt, maybe more than what it sounded like, it hurts a lot.


maybe it was better this way, it is better to just fake pee than to stand there in the middle of the crowd under the bright blinding lights awkwardly, pretending to check a text on her phone, it was better than to force herself to fit in a place she doesn't belong to.


perhaps, youngeun did fit in that circle, and she can't.


youngeun was so cool, can easily just slip inside like she fits and be friends with everyone, while it wasn't the same for jia.


because everything was better when she was a half of a pair, everything was fine when it's only her and youngeun.


while she was the other half of a pair, there was no problems and no wrongs, no sadness and no faults.


and through no fault of jia, there was no other half to youngeun but her.


but now it's just jia inside a restroom, because youngeun clearly didn't need the other half of a pair, she was better there with all other people.


and just forget how long it's been, until the party isn't over it's just jia inside a restroom waiting for the end of it all, until it's time to leave.


no one can come in.


and she's just there fiddling with her phone as she softly grieves the lost of her other pair.


she's flying solo.


it's funny, because while jia was hiding, there was youngeun outside, ignoring all the histories, the memories and everything they have shared.


and one day jia will get replaced.


memories are all erased.


jua imagines a youngeun with another half of a cooler jia, a better one who can communicate and knows how to act in a party, a one who cares for her reputation.


through the walls jia hears a drunk girl singing a whitney song.


"i wanna dance with somebody!"


though usually, she'll laugh at it, now her feelings sinks as she thinks about who will she laugh with everytime they hear drunk girls around, how is she suppose to make fun of them when youngeun isn't even there.


now there's no one who can laugh with her, because it's just her hiding in the cubicle.


and she regrets showing up, smelling drunk kids around.


jia chokes back all the tears, her sobs as she shivers, waiting for the end of the night till her face is finally dry and  tears are gone.


then she'll just blame it on the dust in her eye or the dizzy feeling of hearing the noise outside.


clink!


knock!


she hears the sound of glasses and the door of the restroom banging, and her chest tightens up as pressure builds by, and there were shouts ringing from the outside.


the party soon is over.


and jia mentally rejoices, as the knot in her chest loosens up and she breathes heavily and stood up, smiling ear to ear to the thought of finally getting our of this hellhole.


it sucks youngeun left her alone, in a battlezone of the teenagers masked up as the biggest party of fall, halloween.


now the pressure inside her chest feels like blowing up, and jia's mistakes flashes before her eyes as she opened the door of the cubicle and splashed her face with water and she breathes heavily, like she ran a kilometer.


finally, a better place to breath.


jia walks through the door but she realized the knocking was now gone.


so she backed up, back again to face the mirror and yearn for the past, yet she saw the present. her eyes was red and visible prints of dried tears were on her face. it was so clear and there was no denying it.


she's at a party, and the most saddest sight.


jia exits the restroom, what a heinous night, jia wishes she stayed home, just watched tv or she wished she was never born.


jia was just yoon jia, a loner, the one rides a bus to school, god she's such a loser.


the jia who people think they know.


the jia all by herself.


jia finally reaches the exit of the school ground smiling to herself as she laughs and puts a hand on her temple sighing, choking out a sob.


what a mess.


and there she was, youngeun sitting on the ground near a tree, hugging her knees.


what an awesome party, jia was so glad she came.


"what's up?" jia approached youngeun, who looked up with a frown before she stood up.


"j-jia!" youngeun yelled, her face red and her eyes red. "i've been looking for you." youngeun muttered. before sighing and choking out a cry.


"same, here, i thought you left me behind." jia stated, her squinted eyes looking at youngeun. "sorry! i thought it'll all work out, but it didn't! i couldn't stand there without you." youngeun stammered, rubbing her face.


jia sighed. "i was at the bathroom like always." youngeun hummed, and they stood there in silence. "i wish i was there for you, sorry, after i was left her outside, i couldn't go back again." youngeun pursed her lips, before placing both hands on jia's shoulder.


"you're the only friend i need!" she stated, eyes looking over jia's.


"and i'm very i left you there alone." she continued.


jia nodded. "yeah, it's all cool, i just want to go home."


youngeun laughs, brushing off her clothes. "let's go!"


being a half of a pair will always be better than just a half, jia realizes.








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