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"she's an idiot! hsin wei i hate her!" y/n facepalms with both her hands, the impact of the slap made sounds that made hsin wei flinch, imagining the pain it gave y/n. "y/n, but you've said that so many times already— and there you are crying over her again." hsin wei sighed, she tried to count how many times this encounter had happened, her fingers can't even catch up, she's certainly sure this isn't any deja vu, this is seriously like the 10th time y/n went to her and cried over how much of an idiot or how much she hates and wants to leave ruiqi; yet none of those seem to be true, she comes back and then hurts herself again, cry then come back.

hasn't she learned her lesson yet?

y/n flinched— hsin wei had her point, she was right, maybe she was stupid for that, maybe she was just a qualified idiot as much as ruiqi was. y/n would be mad over ruiqi, run away, cry over her, runs back to ruiqi, then trips, hurting herself.

god, this girl never even learned her lesson. honestly, it was a bit embarrassing to admit, but to her part— it was so hard. letting go of ruiqi was like deciding if you want to kill yourself or no, a bit dramatic but that was the truth; no girl would ever want to be in her situation but it was inevitable, because it was the consequences of getting a girlfriend like ruiqi.

"whatever! i'm so tired of handling her all the time, then her ignoring me because she was jealous, look at that childish idiot." y/n tried to fight it, tried to fight the urge to go back to ruiqi and cuddle up again with her, the urge was there.

oh ruiqi would probably be frowning and sad right now, just like a cute puppy—

y/n shook those thoughts and scoffed.

no she looks like a dog!

hsin wei leaned over y/n and patted her back, trying not to push her and wake her up from her stupidness, for sure this girl would wobble up again as soon as ruiqi apologizes to her.

but that was the good thing, this must have been just a cause of her mood swing wasn't it? ruiqi has told a lot of story about how y/n would often be mad for no reason, hsin wei thought it was stupid.

"do you want to know where she is right now?" hsin wei asked, looking over her friend who's currently sighing loudly that it vibrates on her hands. y/n pulls away from her hands and looked at hsin wei, hesitating whether to say yes or no.

"yes or...?" hsin wei waits, making sure her best friend gets to decide properly, because she's bad at it and this is the only chance she gets.

y/n thinks, over and over again, to what happened, what ruiqi did, her actions, yale— who apparently the reason why ruiqi got jealous.

she's definitely not in the mood to know whatever the fuck that asshole is doing right now, she's probably out there drinking with her friends.

but at the same time— if she was indeed drinking then, who would take her home? who would take care of her? oh poor ruiqi, she's probably heating up right now and so tired, and y/n's not there to take care of her and aid her.

y/n shook her head, hell nah, that girl— isn't she already 21? that idiot could probably take care of herself, and oh her friends, y/n would definitely sue those idiots.

"no, she better learn her lessons too, i hate her for being so much of a jealous ball." y/n looked away with a huff, there was once again hesitance, she doesn't know if she made the right choice or not, she was worried but at the same time she needed alone time.

"great, okay y/n make sure you don't regret it later okay?" hsin wei stated, putting her phone back at her pockets, watching over her friend who is currently trying to go back every pages of her life and if she made the right decision, she doesn't know really.

maybe if she just wait until ruiqi calls.

right, maybe she should.

"nope, i don't okay? okay maybe a little bit, she makes me worried over how stupid she is." y/n admitted, gulping mindlessly as she waits for hsin wei to do a facepalm—

aaand she did of course she would.

"see? but of course you would rather wait for her to call right?" hsin wei stood up and went to the kitchen to get tea for the two of them, it was already night, almost 10pm and it was the curfew for yeseo and the other minors.

"yeah, how did you know?" y/n sighed, rubbing her palms over her thighs. hsin wei laughed a little, this happened so many times, no way hsin wei would forget y/n's style. "many reasons y/n." hsin wei answers from the kitchen, echoing, as her voice reaches y/n.

for sure ruiqi is somewhere with xiaoting, wenzhe and cai bing.— this needs to reach yurina and yujin, hat's for sure.

hsin wei would take a little bit of time, y/n thinks. y/n immediately reached for her phone and tried to contact yurina.

it took some seconds before the phone was answered, but it wasn't yurina who picked up the phone— apparently, it was youngeun who did.

"hello?" youngeun's voice was heard from the other line, there was a bit of shuffling heard, it looks like youngeun was standing up from the bed. "where's yurina?" y/n asked, standing up as she made her way outside.

there was silence, until another shuffling was heard, like someone was passing the phone or something. "y/n? why did you call?" yurina's soft voice rang, from the other line, y/n can hear no xiaoting present, it was youngeun and sounds of television ringing in the background. y/n cleared her throat. "is xiaoting there?" y/n asked, looking around the dark surrounding, looking for nothing.

"xiaoting? no she's not here, it's only me and youngeun." yurina answered ever so lightly, faint sounds of laughter from youngeun was heard, before yurina continued. "if you're wondering, she went out with wenzhe, ruiqi and the others, do you want to know—" before yurina finished her question, y/n had already spoken.

"no, i was just wondering if ruiqi went with them." from the other line, y/n could probably imagine yurina frowning in a worried way, thinking— "what's wrong? did you fight?" y/n clicked her tongue, that question was inevitable she knows, but she was hoping to at least avoid it.

"no, j-just a little bit of misunderstanding, by the way, tell her i hate her." y/n couldn't help it, whenever she feels out of the mood, her mouth speaks for her,

but apparently, her actions speak louder, no matter how 'i hate yous' are muttered out of her mouth, it's always 'i love yous' that always come out from her action.

in the end she'll probably come back open arms.

yurina laughs from the other line, meanwhile youngeun bursts out of laughter. "ok, if you say so— just texts me if you wanna know? love you, take care." yurina chuckled, y/n was always so predictable, it's funny and cute.

"yes, love you too and take care." y/n replied, before cutting of the call and going back to the house, seeing hsin wei watching on the tv.

hsin wei faces y/n, smiling. "what's up?"

y/n rolled her eyes and frowned. "nothing." hsin wei responded with a giggle, tapping her thighs as she let her laugh die down slowly. "hope you didn't call her." hsin wei stated.

"no, i was wondering if she was with her friends." y/n hated admitting her weakness over ruiqi, like a teenager fawning over the campus crush, it was hard to contain feelings for someone as good looking as ruiqi, maybe it was that but if that was that, y/n might have as well punch her pretty face.

"suuuree..." hsin wei laughed, shaking her head as she continued watching tv. y/n pouted, huffing before taking a sit next to hsin wei on the sofa. there, she took one cup of tea and tried to pry over the thoughts of ruiqi on her head.

"what do you plan on doing now?" hsin wei asked, putting down her cup as she glanced over for a look towards her friend. y/n looks down on her tea, contemplating, she looks up back to hsin wei and decided to sip her tea before placing it on the table.

"well, i'll just stay here for a couple minutes then go home." y/n answered, that was a good choice right? not like it would hurt to make sure ruiqi is already home sleeping before she gets there. hsin wei nodded, standing up again. "let's cook something." y/n smiled, nodding her head as she followed hsin wei to the kitchen.

"you look knocked out ruiqi." wenzhe laughs as xiaoting checks up on her friend who was literally leaning on the table and is asleep.

"....where...." after a few minutes, ruiqi was mumbling something, catching the other's attention. ruiqi slams her fist on the table before rising up and sitting up, leaning on the sofa. "where is y/n?!" ruiqi shouts, her face red and she's literally so drunk. yaning looks at everyone, confused.

"what? she's not here." yaning replied, putting a hand on ruiqi's shoulder. wenzhe leans over and points over ruiqi. "you should go home already and apologize to her! you're knocked out!" wenzhe scolded, crossing her arms on her chest, as she heard ruiqi scoffing and scratching her head.

"but she's mad at me." ruiqi sighed, fishing over her phone in the pockets of her jeans. wenzhe sighed, reaching over and smacking ruiqi's head. "you idiot, just go home okay, she would be so mad seeing you like that." wenzhe scolded for the second time, the smack made ruiqi a little better.

"yeah and plus, you can just call her right now and apologize like you always do, for sure that girl would give up and get you." xiaoting stated, laughing over the fact that no matter how idiotic ruiqi can be, y/n is the only person who take turns to take care of her.

"and, don't worry i'll take you to the train station." yaning stated. "you should take her now." wenzhe commanded, fixing her clothes as she stood up. yaning nodded, taking the note before standing up to.

ruiqi was still sitting, looking at y/n's contact number with a sigh.

"you can call her later, yaning should be able to take you at the train station." xiaoting stated as she stood up too and pulled ruiqi up.

.....

the train station wasn't that packed, in fact it looked like there was only a few people, yaning looked over the time 11:34pm, she wonders, where can y/n be right now?

ruiqi was standing next to her, tipsy yet a little sober than before, she looked like she can go home by herself already, still holding onto her phone. as soon as the train opened she told ruiqi to enter inside. bidding goodbye, ruiqi entered and sat at the empty seat.

she stared at her phone again, trying to gain all the courage to call y/n.

it was already so dark the only thing y/n can see were lights from buildings,  after eating dinner with hsin wei, she was asked if she wanted to stay the night, but she refused, hoping she could see ruiqi for the night.

and now she's at the train station, has no idea where ruiqi is or if she had gotten home already, but she hoped she was safe and sound. y/n sighed, and thought, maybe she should've just went and took ruiqi.

entering the train, it seems to be empty, it was so silent, she really felt alone by that time and scared at the same time.

.....

ruiqi got off the train, dusting off her clothes, looking around before she reached for her phone again in her pockets. "y/n..." she mumbles, dialing the phone number.

there was a long ringing, before the phone got picked up.

"ruiqi?" ruiqi sighed as soon as she heard the coaxing voice, from the other line, it feels like y/n is alone. "y/n, where are you?" ruiqi asked, heaving a breath as she looked around the empty train station.

ruiqi could hear a small 'oh' coming from y/n, before she answered. "train. ruiqi what about you—" before y/n could even finish her sentence ruiqi was already speaking. "y/n i'm sorry... please go home with me." there was silence, after a second or two, y/n sighed. "yes of course babe, but where are you?" y/n asked, a warm feeling swarming over her chest.

"at the train station—" a buzzing of train was heard from ruiqi's line, they were hearing the same thing, from y/n's phone line and ruiqi's. there was a shuffling of doors, the train opened and y/n was standing there, her phone on hand.

y/n could see ruiqi not so far from her, stepping out, in her eyes, she spots ruiqi looking side to side before facing behind her. "ruiqi."

a drunk ruiqi holding her phone on her ears, y/n ended the call and puts her phone on her bag, before walking towards the tipsy-sober ruiqi who was pouting.

"y/n...." she was greeted by a hug, y/n winced, ruiqi smells like alcohol, but instead of getting mad over it, y/n raised a hand and puts it over ruiqi's blue hair.

"yes i'm here." y/n stated, smiling as she sees ruiqi purring like a cat.

"let's go home please." ruiqi mumbled over y/n's shoulder. "yes because you smell bad." y/n was scared to admit it, but she felt like a teenager, weak knees and face red from the feeling of ruiqi's huddled over her. "love you." ruiqi grumbled, tightening her grip towards the latter.

y/n giggled. "i love you too."