angst || ATTACHED

it felt weird, sihyeon knew it was, she shouldn't be falling in love over (y/n), the one who has a crush with her friend, yiren, it bothers her since the two like each other, and she doesn't have a right to get in between them.

she was just your seatmate, nothing more, the two of you had just 2 months of being seatmates, sihyeon was the first one to know you like yiren, the first one who saw your conversation with yiren, the one who helped you with yiren, those days she stayed with you, she grew attached, she never knew you can be this fun.

the first day, she had decided to seat besides yiren, since the arrangement of seats weren't final, she never knew she would end up sitting besides you, because your teacher's getting all shitty she decided to change the sitting arrangement.

the first day the two of you had sat beside each other, the two of you weren't that comfortable, she never sat beside you before when the two of you first became classmates, the two of you weren't that even fond at each other.

sihyeon had always tell yiren what you were like as a seatmate, the first day was normal she was just whispering things to you, and you would whisper back, until the second day, you started to get a little bit talkative to her, a little bit nice.

she like your attitude, you were fun, and it continued, until she saw a picture of chaewon in your bag, the girl you liked before. sihyeon found it funny, one time when you were gone, she showed it to her friends, and yiren found you cute.

one time, when you knew she spilled the beans about your stupid little feelings for chaewon, she didn't know that feelings were gone, you already admired yiren that time, secretely, the both of you had been messaging each other, not even telling it to your friends nor yiren's.

you once passed sihyeon a note, that wasn't actually for her, it was for yiren, when she read it, she never thought you liked yiren, so it was such a wonder, last time yiren was just laughing at your little feelings for chaewon and now, she was talking to you.

later at 9pm,

sihyeon didn't understand the meaning, maybe just small talks at night, but she still doesn't get it, yiren shouldn't be hanging out with someone not so close to her, nor her friends.

when sihyeon passed it to yiren, she saw a smile crept up to yiren's lips while reading the small note, thanking sihyeon about the little favor.

until one time she saw the back of your math notebook, a small note but it meant such big meaning.

i like you wang yiren.

sihyeon had to cover her mouth, shocked.

at that time, she tried not spilling it, but she can't.

she immediately told yoorim about it.

then the news started spreading the whole classroom, you didn't mind it, because yiren knew it herself that you liked her, and she likes you, but the two of you aren't official.

time lasted, you enjoyed being with sihyeon as seatmates, she enjoyed being with you, copying each other's assignments, helping each other, you're just pissed off she can't get enough teasing you with yiren.

then,

yiren told her about something, your messages weren't like before, and as sihyeon reads it with your phone, she herself had noticed it, she didn't know how would she feel.

yiren told her that you were being a bitch, making her all jealous by hanging out with lia a lot, with other girls, including minju, the girl besides you and sihyeon.

yiren wouldn't admit it, but, she herself could see you getting attached with sihyeon, getting all nice, you yourself couldn't admit you hated changing seats and getting seperated with sihyeon.

yiren wouldn't tell sihyeon how she feels jealous about you and sihyeon's closeness, she couldn't tell it to her friends.

then one time, you told sihyeon to send a note to yiren, which she agreed with, sihyeon couldn't open it since she wasn't ready to read it.

when she gave it to yiren, yiren didn't know what was it all about, until she read it along with their friends.

hey yiren,
i shouldn't be telling you this but,
when everyone knew about my feelings,
i couldn't handle but let you know that,
i'm trying to stop it,
i'm ready to forget you.

yiren couldn't help but panic, and sihyeon could see it, she felt sad for yiren, but yoorim and the other three girls only laughed at yiren, seeing yiren get panicked over someone was just cute and hillarious, they had to make yiren calm down a bit.

yoorim had to remind yiren that you wouldn't let yourself forget yiren,

in fact she was right, you just wanted to fake like you didn't like her anymore, as if you really still liked yiren that time, you just couldn't understand what you feel.

mia gave you messages and threatened you that if you hurt yiren she'll kill you.

the next day you had to tell sihyeon about that, sihyeon laughed about it and even threatened you too.

now, you two had to change seat arrangement since the first quarter of the school year had ended, sihyeon hugged you and that's when an issue about the two of you springed.

you felt the feeling of missing her as your seatmate, you also had to admit you'll miss her.

seeing yiren and sihyeon so close, it hurts your brain because you couldn't make up your feelings, slowly and slowly, you liked being with sihyeon, that time where your teacher in history had gave a group project, you were in a group with sihyeon.

the project was so hard that all of you had to go home late everyday, and then, that one time you asked her to come home with you, since the both of you had the same way home, yiren didn't know that it continued all the way as the project finished.

sihyeon finally realized she likes you, and then she realized she shouldn't like you.

everyday she thinks of you, she didn't want to admit she likes you, she was, she was scared she'll might hurt yiren.

today was different, she now have decided to tell you what she feels, she wanted to forget her feelings by letting herself know you like yiren more, she already told you to meet her at the nearest coffee shop.

"so what do wanna tell me?" you asked, leaning at you palm, eyes staring at hers, you missed this, you missed staring at her eyes.

"i'm just saying this because, because i wanted to clear things out," sihyeon paused, looking away.

"what do you want to clear out?" you asked, still not taking your eyes off away of her.

"i like you, since we were seatmates. i didn't know it but i realized it, and now i'm telling you this because i wanted to tell you i'm ready to clear my feelings out. i want to know what you feel so i can clear things now. i don't want to hurt yiren because she's my friend, and i don't want our friendship to end because of this." sihyeon explained, feeling her heart beat hurt, as if it's about to burst out.

"i, i don't want to hurt yiren too." sihyeon felt hurt, but she stared at you, smiling. at least, she felt relieved tjay she wouldn't hurt yiren.

"that's all, thanks for answering me (y/n)." even when her heart hurts, she still had the strength to tell you her thanks, and stood up before bowing and leaving you.

and still now you don't know what really it is, you don't know who do you really wanted.

you're attached to sihyeon like a glue, and there's no solution to seperate you to her.