ok? i guess
—angst

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"y/n!" a pair of hands came on contact with y/n's shoulder making the girl shriek in shock, looking at her back, was a girl she has known for so long, jungeun. "hey! you surprised me!" y/n stated, pointing at jungeun, jungeun shrugged it off and laughed, sitting beside her friend. y/n in embarrassment, looked away and continued what she was doing in the table. "shhh..." a firm sound came from the librarian as her eyes behind the thick glasses glared at y/n at jungeun.

"what do you want?" y/n asked in a rather hushed and soft voice, jungeun took her time and looked around to see if anyone is watching. "hey, so you heard the rumors right?" jungeun whispered, y/n stops on what she was doing, remembering everything she heard from her roommates, it hurt, it's been so long ever since she started to have a liking for jungeun, it's not even liking anymore, she's in love.

when the news broke in her, she couldn't keep the pain inside, no one knew about what she feels and at this rate, she didn't want anyone to know, not even jungeun.

"y-yeah, what about it?" y/n asked, firmly gripping her pen from the anxiety she was feeling, she wish it wasn't true. "well, those are true— but i don't want them to know, there must be some kind of thing we can do to take those rumors away." y/n glanced at jungeun, sighing, and then letting her pen go.

"those are not rumors if it's true..." jungeun was surprised with what y/n said, nodding her head. "well, i don't want them to think different of me just because i had a boyfriend while studying at an all girls' school and i also don't want my family to know, i'll be dead." jungeun answered firmly.

"what will you do?" y/n asked, eyes staring at jungeun's waiting for an answer. jungeun leaned on her chair, staring at nowhere, feeling y/n's heavy stare pierce through her. "are you willing to help me?"

y/n gulped, nodding. "yeah."

"my family doesn't trust anyone except for you, so...please pretend that you're my girlfriend." feeling like all fhe weight has been passed to her, y/n sunk on her chair and had her mouth agape, why her?

"why does it have to be me?" y/n asked, biting her lips, fighting the urge to burst into tears.

"because— you're the only one i trust."

me, trust.

why do i feel like this is so wrong?

it's not me who she should trust.

"sure."

jungeun pulled y/n in a hug, the tightest hug y/n had ever have in her life.

it felt warm.

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"hey are you okay?" y/n shot up awake, as she heard a familiar voice ringing through her ears, it was jungeun's, today she's going to introduce herself as jungeun's girlfriend, and for some reason, even if it's fake, y/n felt happy.

"yeah, just nervous." y/n mumbled, looking down at her lap as the taxi their riding stops.

"don't worry it'll be fine!

the two of you went outside the taxi as she paid for the fair, a hand grab yours, pulling you into the door of their house, and before you knew it, she opened the door and took you inside.

there you saw her parents, her dad sitting on the couch reading his newspapers, her mom cooking.

"oh— isn't that y/n?" her mom asked, settling her apron down as she walks up to you, jungeun's father brought down his newspaper, looking at you. "yeah, i thought you're gonna introduce us to a new person?"

jungeun smiled at them, feeling like this was somewhat real, y/n was smiling shyly, her face heating up as she feels the warm feeling of jungeun's hand wrapped in hers.

"hi." y/n waved and bowed.

jungeun lets go of y/n's hand, clasping her hands, as if everything is real.

"yeah! y/n is my girlfriend!" jungeun said and glanced at y/n.

"that's great!" in unison, jungeun's parents yelled.

▼・ᴥ・▼

"how long are we going to keep this up?" y/n asked, today, jungeun's bf asked jungeun in a date but because of what they are doing y/n had to come to back them up.

this seriously suck.

"don't worry, this is the last time, tomorrow we're not a thing anymore." jungeun stated, stopping from her tracks as y/n follows.

"by the way, he's here." y/n looks up to see jungeun's boyfriend coming uo to them with a smile.

such a nice guy.

nothing compared to me.

"hey thanks! i owe you a lot!" jungeun's boyfriend chime, as they held hands.

"that's nothing." y/n mutters, seeing them leave.

ʕ´•ᴥ•'ʔ

"so you and jungeun broke up?" one of y/n's roommate, heejin, asked, tilting her head to y/n who was brushing her teeth, after y/n gargled. y/n stared at her reflection in the mirror, sighing.

as if we were actually a thing—

"yeah, maybe things aren't just meant to be." y/n muttered earning a weak nod from her kind roommate. "that's right."

i wish it was just me.

for real.