| teenage dilemma

"what?! you're dropping out of highschool seriously?" y/n asked, a shock look on her face as she held on her bag and walked sideways with her best friend, y/n couldn't believe, as soon as she met jiwon inside their classroom she was shocked to see jiwon with a blonde hair, announcing that tomorrow she'll drop out.

jiwon did not know what came into her mind, but she was decided she'll drop out. jiwon scratched her cheeks, laughing sheepishly as she averted her eyes to her friend.

"well, i too was kind of shocked, but hey, it's not like we wouldn't see each other again." jiwon replied, her lips upturned into a teasing curve, deep dimples showing near her lips.

y/n sighed and puts a palm on her forehead, confused. "yeah, but- what's with the sudden announcement that you're gonna drop out, i was so shocked." y/n dramatically gasped, earning a laugh from the taller girl.

"aww, is it because you will miss me?" jiwon teased, smiling. y/n rolled her eyes, scoffing. "no, it's just that you looked absolutely stupid there, what are you planning to do now?" y/n asked, facing her friend, to which jiwon chuckled and shrugged.

"that's something i don't know myself, we'll see i guess." in fact, jiwon knew what was about to happen to her, just a few weeks the entertainment she was training at announced her debut, the first thing she did was dye her hair blonde and think of dropping out of school.

of course, y/n had no idea about this, she only knew jiwon was a trainee.

but she guessed either way, y/n would be happy for her no matter what, it was kinda weird, she didn't know if she'll be happy or sad, if she debuts, her dream as an idol will be true, and at the same time she'll never see y/n again every single day.

it was so confusing, so hard to accept.

she was already there, who is she to quit?

the sudden change in jiwon's expression bothered y/n, causing her to glance at the taller girl and ask.

"oi, is there a problem? regretting aren't we?" y/n snickered, nudging the sides of the taller girl, while jiwon rolled her eyes and chuckled.

"absolutely not! i never change my mind and plus i have a clear decision making ability." jiwon retorted, earning a slap on the shoulder and a laugh from the latter.

"ok but not with your hair! i hope you get bald!" y/n yelled before running off, which annoyed jiwon as she chased for the other girl, grumbling.

"hey you! come back! take back what you said!" jiwon yelled running as fast as she can.

and she thought, if she debuts and gets busy, will she be able to do this again?

she doesn't ever know.

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just finished training with the members of ive, she hasn't been announced yet, but she was kind of nervous because she was next after wonyoung and she knows y/n is probably oblivious about this whole stuff.

jiwon sat down on the floor, clutching a water bottle as she lets her mind wander off somewhere else, her eyes on the squeaky clean floor of the dance room.

"something the matter there?" a voice rang on her ears, her eyes met with a pair of shoes and she looked up to meet yujin's eyes, looking down at her with a smile.

jiwon stared at her, before shaking her head. "u-uh no, i was just tired." she answered, trying to match the smile given to her.

yujin nodded, shrugging as she turned away, but before walking off, she tried to catch a glimpse of the younger member, then deciding it'll be better to leave her alone for sometime.

jiwon leaned on the wall, her eyes watching over other members having their own small world, rei practicing by herself, gaeul and hyunseo practice together- wonyoung and yujin talking to each other.

even though her presence was with the members her mind wandered away from them as she breathes heavily and let herself think of y/n and whatever she was doing right now- is she thinking of her too?

no that's impossible.

and then her profile was finally posted in every social media platform their group owned, she saw everything.

but she was waiting for y/n to say something to her.

while reading the tweets, comments reactions from people her phone rang, y/n's contact number and picture felt big on the screen as she hesitated whether she would answer or not.

nevertheless she did as she sat up from her bed, heaving small breaths.

"j-jiwon!" y/n voice boomed over the speaker of jiwon's phone, y/n coughed realizing her sudden intrusion of jiwon's ears.

"god, my bad- i-i saw your pictures everywhere! why didn't you tell me you were going to debut as an idol and with yujin and wonyoung!" there a squeal in the end of y/n's sentence, shuffling of bed was hear, jiwon assumed she was jumping or messing with her bed.

"because it's supposed to be a secret, no one has to know." jiwon answered, compelled, yet she smiled.

"even your dearest best friend?"

jiwon laughed.

"unfortunately, yes." jiwon was oddly waiting for y/n to say that she's proud, hoping that she would at least hear it.

"that's so awesome! so you decided to drop out because you knew you were gonna be successful! jiwon you're oddly funny!" there was a laugh from the other line, jiwon assumed y/n bursted out of laughter.

"what can i do? i'm going to have a work and i'll just end up having to absent for days too." jiwon shrugged, she then heard a hum.

"you do have a point, jiwon i'm so happy for you! and... extremely proud!" jiwon smiled at the thought, holding her phone against her ears.

"but don't forget me if you ever become big! or i will be sad!" y/n from the other line stated, and jiwon could already picture the pout on her lips.

so jiwon laughed.

"of course not, why would i?" jiwon asked, because honestly- why would she forget y/n?

y/n sighed. "i don't know, i just thought that y'know? i can't explain it for some reason." y/n replied.

jiwon nodded. "i understand, but of course, you should know that i won't forget you, ever. and you, if i get famous and we're far away, will you forget me?" jiwon asked, flopping on her bed with a huff.

"of course not! i would not!" jiwon laughed, hearing the very strong disagreement on y/n's voice.

"geez, you're probably tired aren't ya? don't worry i'll end the call you can rest if you want! love you!" y/n laughed, jiwon wanted to object, but what is she going to say anyway?

so she huffed and said: "sure, you better rest too... and yeah i love you too." jiwon's voice trailed, before the call stops and she realized y/n had already hung up.

jiwon sighed, mind conflicted as she let positive thoughts seep in her brain, but it seems like the sudden fear of them fading away from each other scared her.

because this was her first time, she had no idea and doesn't know how to handle such responsibility.

"i wish you were here with me." jiwon muttered, before huffing and adjusting her position, reluctantly closing her eyes.

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go read my other books, this is a threat, lol just kidding...

i think all members of ive are so pretty