Torn Apart (Nahyuta Sahdmadhi x Reader)

A/N: This chapter has mentions and scenes of arguing and the like. Please skip this if that might trigger you. During SoJ's events, so spoilers!

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The news of Dhurke's arrest reached me quickly, but only through Nahyuta's words. We had been together for quite some time, but I knew that deep down, he didn't want to prosecute his father. He was putting up a front, a facade. Anything to keep the queen from seeing his true feelings about all of this.

But he couldn't fool me.

And that's where all of this began. We were currently in the room Nahyuta used as a study within the palace. I was trying to get him to talk to me about what was going on, but he was being stubborn as ever. I huffed. "Nahyuta, I know that you don't want to do this. Dhurke's your father. Surely you don't want to be the reason he's-" Nahyuta cut me off. "My duty comes first above all. You should know that better than anyone."

I shook my head. "You are human, just like everyone else. I love you and I only want to-" He spoke, his sharp tone making me flinch. "Fix me? I can assure you that there is nothing you can do for me." I took a deep breath. "You're right. I couldn't fix you." He tried to speak. "I-" I cut him off, shooting him a glare. "You're right. I shouldn't have tried to." Nahyuta stood up and made his way over to me. "(Y/n), you know there's more to this case than just my father. And I can't let that stop me from carrying out my duty."

He tried to grab my hand, but I pulled it out of his grasp. "Your pride is what you're concerned about! Is 'you're right' really all you want to hear right now?" Nahyuta's gaze softened. "My love, I just want you to understand. My duties come first." I snapped at him. "Well, you're right!" I looked at the ring on my finger. It was a promise ring I had received from Nahyuta months prior. I narrowed my eyes as I looked at Nahyuta. "I should've walked away faster! Should've known you would only break my heart after...I was already in love..."

Nahyuta's face fell. "Y-You don't mean that. I know you don't." I turned away from him. "Nahyuta, you refuse to open up to me and I can only think that you don't trust me. I've beared my heart to you more times than I can count, but you continue to put up these walls. It makes me feel like...you don't want me." It was quiet for a few seconds, then, he finally spoke. "You're right. You aren't good enough." I turned around to face him.

Even he seemed shocked by his words. All at once, it felt like something had snapped in me. "I'm not good enough? I kissed your scars even after you hurt me! And I held your hand even when you f*cking burned me! Do you even understand how embarrassing that was?!" We had been in an argument like this before and candle wax had been spilt, leaving me with a scar.

He clutched his prayer beads. "To stay with someone who hates you? You've made that perfectly clear." I huffed. "Because I hoped that things would get better! That maybe my love would change you."

Nahyuta hesitated. "...But it didn't-" I cut him off. "And it won't! Because maybe...you're the one beyond repair. But there is still someone for me out there who will treat me so nice you'll wish that you did!" Tears slowly dripped down my face. "And for someone so smart, you're so f*cking stupid to think that I'm really that dumb." Nahyuta reached out for me. "(Y/n)..." I walked towards the door. "I love you...but I'm done." I opened the door and left the room, but this time...

I didn't look back.