"we're too damn sober, for mistakes like this."

i've never been so completely sober yet feel so fucked up. especially over you. i don't understand why i feel like this because there's no reason, but writing about you, completely sober and aware of my words is more terrifying than being shitfaced and barely remembering what i sent the night before. i feel like i'm missing something. but i'm probably just hysterical, right? for why? i don't know.