'awake'
holding my legs close to my chest
the slap
the pain from the left side of my face
stinging and burning

"go to sleep"
i can't.

lip bleeding
and faded bruises on my legs.

no, i don't want you to go,
i never wanted you to.
just stay.
stay.

tell me the things,
that we both know are lies.
tell me anyway,
i couldn't care less.

while i wrap the blanket around myself,
i've kept the ocean bottled up in my eyes,
salty drops force their way out.

they've forced their way out,
and they won't stop.

i can't push the emotions down anymore,
they always seem to find their way out.

i'm angry
and hurt
and weak.

i need something
i'm not sure what i need.
the small pieces of me are crumbling down.

i think i need sleep.
i think i need to rid myself of my sickness.
i think i don't know what i need.

that's enough.
i want to sleep, badly.
but i lack the ability to do so.
so i'm awake.