I laughed, "__________~ You're being shy again~ You know you can talk to me~"

Her (e/c) eyes shined. Her skin smooth like fresh milk. She was beautiful.

"Hikaru?" there was a knock at the door. It was Kaoru.

I turned my head and called, "Just a second!"

I turned back to ____________, "Today's going to be the day I finally get to talk to you right~?"

She didn't say anything. I smiled and kissed the photo paper, "I promise it'll be the most memorable moment of our lives!"

I fell back on the bed and stared at the ceiling. I asked to have this room modeled after her very own room. (Information bought from Kyoya.) Everything was nicer though, and much more stylish. The bed was a queen sized bed and across from it was a closet. A closet with three locks on it.

Around my neck was the key.

Inside that closet was filled with simply ____________. Pictures of her doing everything: shopping, working, drinking coffee in the morning. Pieces of her were displayed lovingly. From the pencil she dropped, to the top cover of the package of paper she was opening.

She was the most beautiful and kind girl I had ever seen. Slightly shy. Soft and gentle.... She was an angel....

I held the yearbook picture of her close to my chest. Smiling I said,"I love you __________....."

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"Ah! _____________! Pleasure seeing you again~!" I said, smiling.

_____________ was being pulled by her friends over to our table. Her two friends pushed her on the couch and ran off. I told them that I'd give them an extra long session if they brought ____________ to me.

"Hey Hikaru...." she said looking anywhere except for at me.

"Hello~ What are you doing here~?"

"My friends dragged me here...." she blushed.

"Well why don't we talk? They did pay this session for you~"

"Yeah..... I don't know why they want me to come here...."

My heart sank a bit, "Does this place bore you?"

"No one could be bored at this place," she smiled. "It's just that we see each other everyday..... Couldn't we talk then, rather than spend money to talk now?"

She was so cute.... I smiled at her, "Here, though, it's private~ We can talk about many things without being overheard by unwanted eavesdroppers~"

I stood up and moved swiftly next to her, "Tell me __________~ What do you want to talk about~?"

She blushed a bit. She stared at me for a little while before she looked away and stuttered out, "E-Excuse me...."

She stood up and walked quickly out of the Host Club.

"Hikaru? What was that about-?" said Kaoru behind me. I stood up and went after the angelic student, leaving Kaoru wondering.

'I shouldn't have pushed her.... It was going so well! I ruined EVERYTHING. Now she'll never marry me, now she'll never have children with me. We won't grow old together..... FUCK.'

I bumped into someone and stumbled back a bit. __________ was standing there.

Here was my chance.

"____________, I'm really sorry! Please come back to the club! W-We can start over! We can talk about anything you like-!"

"Hikaru, you scare me," she said over my voice.

I stopped talking, "What?"

'I scare her.....?'

"Y-Your eyes..... The things you say.... They're....frightening.... Like you would kill someone.... I'm sorry.... I should...." she turned to start walking.

I grabbed her hand and held it between mine. She smelled so good and her hands were soft like velvet. I kissed her fingertips.

"Only if it was for you...." I said.

Her eyes widened, "Wh....What?"

"____________, I'd do anything for you!" I said. I felt like I was on fire. Everything just came tumbling out of my mouth. "I love you! I've loved you ever since we were in middle school! I've always wanted to be near you _____________! I want us to live together! Just the two of us!"

"What are you talking about?! We hardly speak to each other now! You don't know a thing about me! This is just some sick joke you're pulling on me!" she cried. She yanked her hand away, "I don't want to talk to you ever again...."

I watched wide eyed as she walked away. My teeth grit, "You bitch...."

She kept walking. I raised my head up and forced a smile. The air around me became thin and I struggled to breathe. Before I knew what I was doing, I ran up behind ___________ and pushed her down the stairs.

She hit the final step and a sickening crack could be heard. I gaped at the horror I committed and ran from the scene.

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"I don't.... remember anything...." you said, looking up at the doctor. "Wh-Why am I here?"

"Ms. _____________, you fell down a flight of stairs at your school. You hit your head and broke your leg. You are very lucky to be alive. Tell me, what's the last thing you remember clearly?"

"I-I.... was studying for an exam.... No, it was just a large test.... For science.... The chapter was about DNA...."

"We'll find out when that was and we'll get back to you as soon as possible."

The doctor left after scribbling something on his clipboard. You leaned back, the monitor beeping slowly. You really almost died? Surely if that happened, you would remember your life flashing before your eyes.

Suddenly, you remembered something. It was falling down..... You remember falling down and hitting your head.

You remembered being pushed.

But you couldn't remember who pushed you. Everything else between falling and that day when you were studying, you couldn't remember.

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It was like a miracle occurred. ___________ lost her memory. She couldn't remember what the awful thing I did to her was.

I smiled and put my elbow on her shoulder, "Hey ___________~"

She looked up at me, "Hey Hikaru...."

"Ah! You were able to tell the difference!"

"Yeah...."

"How are you?"

She sighed, "Apparently I'm missing 8 weeks of my memory...."

My heart skipped, I felt a bit of guilt but smiled, realizing that she wouldn't remember two months of her life. However, my spirits lifted when I reassured myself that I would spend every next second with her.

I patted her head, lovingly, and smiled, "I'm sure you'll remember~!"

I really hoped she wouldn't.

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I set down some tea in front of her, while in the Host Club, "So! What did you want to see me about ___________~?"

I saw her face and felt anger overcome me. Her eyes were drooped to the floor. Her face puffy. She had been crying.

'I will find the fucker who did this and slice his fucking throat....'

"Hikaru.... I remembered....."

My heart skipped a beat, "What?"

"I thought we were friends Hikaru....Even though I don't remember all of it..... I know....I know it was you....You pushed me down those stairs!" she cried, standing up.

'I.....made _________ upset......?'

A cracked smile twitched on my face. My eyes sunk and felt empty. I stood up slowly and put my hand on the table to balance myself.

"___________....." I whispered. "......I'm sorry....."

"Why Hikaru....? WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO ME?!" she cried.

The entire attention of the host club was pushed onto _____________ and me. My weight shifted onto the table more. My fingertips brushed the item I was looking for and held it in my hand. I looked up, into her eyes, "I'm....sorry...."

'If anyone ever hurts ___________..... They deserve to die....'

The item in my hand became slick with sweat.

'Even.... Even if that person is me....'

I raised the knife in the air and stabbed myself in the stomach. Red.... Flowing from my body were droplets of red.

Someone could have screamed. I'm not really sure. My eyes were fixed on ____________ who was frozen in shock. I hit the ground and smiled up at her, "I....I love you...."

She kneeled next to me, hands shaking and body frantic. She pulled the knife out and pushed down on my wound. I raised my hand and brushed her cheek, leaving streaks of my blood to drip down her skin.

"I love you...."

In my last moments of consciousness, I truly noticed how beautiful ___________ was.... Especially with her face painted in my red blood....