"Are you sure _______? I don't like heights....."

"Yes, I'm sure! Come on, Mattie!" you grabbed the Canadian's hand and dragged him to the roller coaster.

"It's not as bad as it seems!" you laughed.

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"See it wasn't that bad!"

Matthew clung to you, "L-Let's not do that again _____....."

You laughed.

"Hey little bro!" called Alfred. Matthew turned his head and sighed.

Alfred ran up to you guys and laughed, "I didn't know you were going to go to the boardwalk fair today!"

"Y-Yeah, we were....."

"Awesome! Mind if I join ya!"

You smiled, "Why not? But you have to buy lunch~!"

"Aww.....Alright! Shall we milady~?" sang Alfred holding out his arm. You hooked your arm with his and smiled.

You two burst out laughing and Matthew laughed softly behind you two.

"Hehehe! S-So what should we ride next?"

"Why don't we ride the Ferris Wheel~?! It's the tallest Ferris Wheel in the state!"

"Sounds like fun but the line's a little long, don't you think? Let's eat first!"

"O-Okay.....I'm cool with anything....."

You smiled at Matthew, "What do you want to eat Mattie~?"

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You stared in horror.

"Oh my god....." said the girl you were with.

In the compartment above you, Matthew and Alfred were supposed to be sitting side-by-side, chatting like the awesome brothers they were.

But now, Alfred was face down on the boardwalk, blood dripping between the planks.

Only two people were allowed to be in a compartment together so this girl and you decided to go in together.

"ALFRED!!" you screamed.

The ride was shut down and you stared at Alfred's body on the ground.

He was dead.

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You watched as Alfred's coffin was lowered into the ground. Tears slowly moved down your face.

"Alfred......"

Matthew placed a hand on your shoulder. You turned to him and he smiled shakily.

You hugged him and sobbed.

He hugged you closer.

No words needed to be exchanged. This moment was too heavy to have any light words break it.

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You knocked on Matthew's door, "Mattie boy! Are you up?!"

Arthur opened the door and seemed taken aback, "Oh, _______. I didn't expect you to be visiting so soon after....."

"Ah well.....I wanted to see if he wanted to get something to eat with me....."

"I think he's still asleep but you can go wake him up, love. I've got somewhere to be!"

"Another date with Francis?" you teased, smirking.

He blushed, "N-No!"

You laughed and he moved quickly away from the house to see Francis's car pull up in front of the house. He slapped a confused Francis and moved into the car.

You turned back into the dark house. You moved through to Mattie's room and knocked on his door, "Mattie.....?"

When he didn't answer, you opened the door to go shake him awake. You opened the door and saw he wasn't inside. You heard water running and you smiled.

You then started digging around in Matthew's room because it wasn't like he would be mad.

Then you came across a box that said "DO NOT OPEN." Of course, you opened it.

It was a diary. You read the first entry:

xxx-xxx-xxx

I can't stop thinking about ______. I keep fantasizing touching her and abusing her. Is this wrong of me?

You widened your eyes and flipped through until you came across the day of Alfred's death. Your eyes widened to see the whole page just covered in rough scribbles.

Underneath the lines, you could see your name written over and over again.

"You weren't supposed to see that ______...."

You jumped and turned around to see Matt holding a hockey stick. His hair was still wet but now he was wearing a red sweatshirt and blue jeans.

"Mattie! I-"

"Alfred died because of me."

You didn't say anything, you just stared wide-eyed.

"He died because I was jealous ______."
"N-No! I don't believe you did that!"

There was silence as he lifted the hockey stick over his head and said quietly, "Are you sure ______?"