"Do you feel better now? "Taehyung asked and Jungkook pretended that the softness of his husband's husky voice didn't wash over him.He glared at him, despite his intention to remain colly calm.
"Better ?Not quite yet. You think slapping you is enough. Kim Taehyung you are despicable "Jungkook 's voice vibrated violently.
"I'm really sorry "said Taehyung weakly and looked genuinely pained.
The next thing that Taehyung did made Jungkook want to punch him right in the face in public.
He kissed him. Freaking kissed him. Jungkook couldn't believe that he hadn't screamed yet. His eyes were wide as big saucers.
Before Jungkook could react Taehyung pulled away and looked into Jungkook 's dazed eyes before walking back to the elevators.That was when Jungkook was able to breath.
He couldn't believe that Taehyung had created a scene and just left him there. They would be the gossip of the day.All eyes were on him and it made him wonder why no one was looking at Taehyung.
Out of frustration Jungkook strode out of the hospital. Hoseok couldn't hide his amusement as he sat near the front desk.
"What just happened? "asked the accountant.
"You wouldn't understand. Anyways just do what he said because he and the director are close in a way you wouldn't understand "
"Are they a thing? '
"Who knows. ?Just go back to work "Hoseok laughed as he went to the elevator.
Jungkook got into the car and slammed the door in anger. It made the twins startled .
"Who made you mad ,Papa? "Min ho asked.
"Can you believe what he did? '
"Who?"
"Your. .."Jungkook paused when he realized that he was about to betray himself to his sons.
"Nevermind .Who wants to go to grandma's? "he asked instead .
"Yay.How long are we staying? "
"As long as you want. Let's drive home and have lunch before I drop you off okay "
"It's cool. Minie let's stay for a while and play with uncle's baby okay "
"Two days? "
"Yes "
It was without a doubt that Taehyung made Jungkook fret himself but it was also true that the kiss that he gave him ignited the feels he had thought were long dead.He didn't know that he would miss Taehyung 's touch that much. Jungkook thought he was driving himself crazy just by thinking about Taehyung .
Over the years he was constantly astonished by how much he wanted to wake up with him everyday, to fall into bed wearily every night, doing mundane things like setting the alarm clock and groaning when it went off the next morning. Jungkook longed for that normality because he had been sharing it with Taehyung when they were still together.
"Just shake it off.He is fucking with your brain .That's what he does.He is Kim Taehyung the same man who only thinks about himself. A spineless manipulative snake "Jungkook mumbled.
"Papa who are you talking to?"
"No one "Jungkook shrugged
After getting back in Seoul after dropping the twins off at his parent's an idea stroke him.
He parked his car outside the street and fished his phone out of his pocket .
Jungkook
Hyung, is Taehyung still at work?
Jimin
He left for home a while ago.I had an inkling that you are the reason why he suddenly got sick.
Jungkook.
I didn't do anything to him.
Jimin
You literally slapped a grown up ass man twice on the same cheek.
Jungkook
He kissed me in public so we are even.
Jimin
You wouldn't know this but the people who didn't know you are suddenly interested in you. The hospital website is only about the two of you. What a comeback Jungkook.
Jungkook
I didn't plan it.I just had an adrenaline rush.
Jimin
Do you feel bad now.
Jungkook
No ,I don't. Not at all.
Jimin
So why are you suddenly asking about him.
Jungkook
He owes me something. Do you know if he changed his address or not?
Jimin
He hasn't. If you do go there don't rush to conclusions.
Jungkook
Is there something I shouldn't see?He has a girlfriend dosent he?
Jimin
I won't tell you 😆
Jungkook
Okay, you don't have to tell him.
Jimin
Just don't stab him.
Jungkook
Is it really that serious. Frankly Hyung I don't care about whatever you are talking about because nothing about him affects me anymore.
Jimin
Okay, I gotta to to work.
Jungkook sighed heavily as he started the ignition of his car. Whatever Jimin was talking about Jungkook was sure he wasn't going to be fazed by it because he and Taehyung had splitted in every sense.
He started having second thoughts when he was about to turn the last corner to the house where he and Taehyung used to live.
"Okay, Jungkook you are now completely out of your mind. Have some shame. You have just slapped the poor man. No no.Just shake it off. I'm not afraid of his. I didn't do anything wrong. I got this "Jungkook mumbled. Whenever he would get nervous Jungkook would talk to himself. Old habits die hard.
In ten minutes he was in front of that same mahogany door. It was more shiny than what it was back when he lived there. There he was at the door, wearing a pair of black jeans and unsure expression .
Eventually he rang the doorbell and made out that someone was coming over because of the footsteps.
A beautiful girl opened the door and Jungkook 's face hardened at the unwelcomed sight. The woman was caring a small baby in her arms and the baby smiled at Jungkook with the cutest smile he had ever seen.
"Hie, is Taehyung home? "asked Jungkook.
"Please do come in"the girl said politely as she moved back into the hall so Jungkook could get in.He was ushered into the living room. Everything had changed accept their wedding portraits on the wall.
"He is in the study shall I call him down? "she asked.
"No , thank you. I will go there myself "Jungkook said as he wondered if this was what Jimin was talking about.
Jungkook didn't even bother knocking at the door. When he opened the door Taehyung was standing near the book shelves.He couldn't move, he kept staring at the younger, drinking him in after all this time.
Jungkook went and made himself comfortable on the couch. They both stared at each other wordlessy.
"Say something "Jungkook muttered don't keep staring at me like that ."The look in Taehyung had changed. His face was thinner like he had been working too hard in the gym.
"Hello "Taehyung said as he went to sit on the couch but felt too unsure to move close to Jungkook. What if he went to him and he shoved him away. He couldn't bear that. A lone tear swelled up in one eye and he jabbed it impatiently.
"I let myself in.I'm sorry if I intruded "
Taehyung didn't say anything as he continued to stare at the younger.
"I'm going to cut to the chase Taehyung "Jungkook said as he reached for something in his pocket and produced a contact card.
"This is my lawyer's number and his name "
Confusion reigned in Taehyung 's mind "What is this for? "
"I'm suing you for divorce and 6 years worth of child maintenance.You are welcome to have paternity tests "he deadpan.
"Jungkook. ..I.."
"What? Are you going to give excuses again? "
"It's not like that Jungkook. I will do whatever you want. I just want to see them if that's okay with you"
"I'm afraid that it's impossible. Who knows what you will do to them "
"Jungkook. ..Please trust me. I have changed "
"I'm no fool Taehyung "
"Just listen to me will you? "
"I won't justify whatever I did. I'm heartbroken because you left me and I couldn't stop thinking about you and how we could have done things differently if you had come back "he ran out of steam and words .
Jungkook was still watching, his face unreadable.
"You left me no choice. What else could I have done, Taehyung. Tell me. ?Despite everything .. I.... still love you but I love my children even more "he smiled, a weak little smile.
Taehyung 's breath stilled. Jungkook had confessed that he still loved him after everything .
"I wasn't good enough, there was this hole inside of me, this emptiness and I had to hide it "Taehyung closed his eyes, as if he could see what he was talking about and only then could he describe it."You are a good person, Jungkook and you don't understand what's like not to be one. "
"Taehyung. .
"No let me explain. That's what I see inside me :this gaping hole,this nothingness .It not like I didn't want to have children with you. It was everything i had ever wanted but I felt felt afraid. Just looking at my parents made me feel like I could never be a good parent. I didn't want our children to grow up like me. I was too much of a coward. "
"Why didn't you tell me any of this. I could have helped "
"At that time you couldn't understand. I didn't want anyone to know about it.I thought you would think less of me "
"Taehyung. ...I thought I meant a lot to you more than that "
Taehyung opened his eyes and looked ashamed "I do love you, you know that? "he moved closer and interlaced his fingers with Jungkook.
"I thought you did but now I don't know anymore "
"Please don't say that "he whispered.
"Do you release the damage that happened just because you couldn't tell me. Our. .no my children had to grow up without you. I thought you were a monster Taehyung.I blamed you for everything. Only if you could look me in the eye."