"Do you  feel  better  now? "Taehyung asked and Jungkook pretended that the  softness of his husband's husky  voice  didn't wash  over  him.He  glared at him, despite his intention to remain colly calm.

"Better  ?Not  quite yet. You  think  slapping  you  is enough. Kim Taehyung you are despicable "Jungkook 's voice  vibrated violently.

"I'm really sorry "said Taehyung weakly and looked genuinely pained.

The  next thing  that  Taehyung  did  made Jungkook want  to punch  him  right  in the  face  in public.

He  kissed him. Freaking kissed him. Jungkook couldn't believe  that he hadn't  screamed  yet. His eyes  were  wide as big saucers.

Before Jungkook  could  react Taehyung  pulled  away and looked into Jungkook 's dazed eyes before walking back  to the  elevators.That  was  when Jungkook was  able  to breath.

He  couldn't believe that Taehyung  had  created a scene and just  left  him  there. They would be the  gossip  of the  day.All eyes were  on him and it made  him wonder why no one was looking at Taehyung.

Out of  frustration Jungkook  strode  out of the hospital. Hoseok  couldn't  hide  his  amusement as he  sat near  the  front desk.

"What  just  happened? "asked the  accountant.

"You  wouldn't  understand. Anyways  just  do what  he said  because he and  the  director  are  close in a way you wouldn't  understand "

"Are  they  a thing? '

"Who knows. ?Just  go back  to work "Hoseok laughed as he went  to the  elevator.

Jungkook  got into  the  car and slammed  the  door  in anger. It made  the  twins startled .

"Who made you  mad ,Papa? "Min ho asked.

"Can  you believe what  he did? '

"Who?"

"Your. .."Jungkook  paused when he realized that he was about  to betray himself to his  sons.

"Nevermind .Who wants to go to grandma's? "he asked instead .

"Yay.How long are we staying? "

"As long as you  want. Let's  drive home  and have lunch before  I drop  you  off okay "

"It's  cool. Minie  let's  stay for a while and  play with uncle's baby  okay "

"Two days? "

"Yes "

It was without a doubt that Taehyung made Jungkook fret himself but it was also true  that  the kiss that he gave him ignited the feels he had thought were  long  dead.He didn't know that he would miss Taehyung 's  touch  that much. Jungkook thought he was driving himself crazy just by thinking about Taehyung .

Over the years he was constantly astonished  by how much he wanted to wake up with him everyday, to fall into bed wearily every night, doing  mundane things like setting the alarm clock and groaning when it went  off the next morning. Jungkook longed for that normality because  he had been sharing it with Taehyung  when they were still together. 

"Just shake it off.He is fucking with your brain .That's what  he  does.He is Kim Taehyung the  same  man who  only thinks about himself. A spineless manipulative snake "Jungkook mumbled.

"Papa who are you talking  to?"

"No one "Jungkook shrugged

After getting back in Seoul after dropping  the twins off at his parent's  an idea stroke  him.

He parked his car outside the street and fished his phone out of his  pocket .

Jungkook
Hyung, is Taehyung  still at work?
Jimin
He  left for home a while  ago.I had an inkling that you are the reason why  he  suddenly got sick.

Jungkook.
I didn't do anything to him.

Jimin
You literally slapped a grown up ass man twice  on the same cheek.

Jungkook
He  kissed me  in public so we are  even.

Jimin
You wouldn't know this but the people who didn't know  you  are  suddenly  interested in you. The  hospital website is only about  the  two of you. What a comeback Jungkook.

Jungkook
I didn't plan  it.I just had an adrenaline rush.

Jimin
Do you feel  bad now.

Jungkook
No ,I  don't. Not  at all.

Jimin
So why  are you suddenly asking about  him.

Jungkook
He  owes me  something. Do you  know if he changed his  address  or not?

Jimin
He  hasn't. If you do  go there don't  rush to conclusions.

Jungkook
Is there something I shouldn't  see?He  has a girlfriend dosent  he?

Jimin
I won't  tell  you 😆

Jungkook
Okay, you don't have  to tell him.

Jimin
Just don't stab him.

Jungkook
Is it really that serious. Frankly  Hyung I don't care  about whatever you are talking about because nothing about him affects me  anymore.

Jimin
Okay, I gotta to to work.

Jungkook  sighed  heavily as he started the  ignition of his car. Whatever Jimin was  talking about Jungkook was sure he wasn't going to be fazed by it because he and Taehyung  had splitted in every sense.

He started having second thoughts when he was about to turn  the last corner to the house where he and Taehyung used to live.

"Okay, Jungkook you are now completely out of your mind. Have some shame. You have just slapped the poor man. No no.Just shake it off. I'm  not afraid of his. I didn't do anything  wrong. I got  this "Jungkook mumbled. Whenever he would get nervous Jungkook would talk to himself. Old habits die hard.

In ten minutes he was in front of that same mahogany door. It was more shiny  than what it was back when he lived there. There he was at the  door, wearing a pair of black jeans and  unsure expression .

Eventually he  rang the doorbell and made out that  someone was  coming over because of the  footsteps.

A beautiful girl opened the  door and Jungkook 's face hardened at the unwelcomed sight. The woman was  caring  a small baby  in her arms and the baby smiled at Jungkook with the cutest  smile he had ever seen.

"Hie, is Taehyung home? "asked Jungkook.

"Please  do come in"the girl said politely as she moved back  into  the hall so Jungkook could get  in.He  was ushered into  the living  room. Everything had  changed accept  their wedding portraits on the wall.

"He is in the study shall  I call  him  down? "she asked.

"No , thank you. I will go there myself "Jungkook said as he wondered if this was what Jimin was  talking  about.

Jungkook didn't even bother knocking  at the door. When he  opened the door Taehyung was  standing  near  the  book shelves.He couldn't  move, he kept staring at the younger, drinking him  in after all this time.

Jungkook went and made himself comfortable on the couch. They both stared at each other wordlessy.

"Say something  "Jungkook muttered  don't  keep staring at me like that  ."The  look in Taehyung had changed. His face was thinner like he had been working too hard in the gym.

"Hello "Taehyung  said as he went to sit on the couch but  felt  too unsure to move close to Jungkook. What if he went to him and he shoved him  away. He couldn't bear that. A lone tear swelled up in one eye and he jabbed it impatiently.

"I let myself in.I'm sorry if I intruded "

Taehyung didn't say anything as he continued to stare at the younger.

"I'm going to cut to the chase Taehyung "Jungkook said as he reached for something in his pocket and produced a contact card.

"This is my  lawyer's number and his name "

Confusion reigned in Taehyung 's mind "What is this for? "

"I'm suing you for divorce and  6 years worth  of child maintenance.You are welcome to have paternity tests  "he deadpan.

"Jungkook. ..I.."

"What? Are  you going to give excuses again? "

"It's not  like that Jungkook. I will do whatever  you want. I just want to see them if that's okay with you"

"I'm afraid that it's impossible. Who knows what you will do to them "

"Jungkook. ..Please trust me. I have  changed "

"I'm no fool Taehyung "

"Just listen to me will you? "

"I won't justify whatever I did. I'm heartbroken because you left  me and  I couldn't stop thinking about you and how we could have done things differently if you had come back "he ran out of steam and words .

Jungkook was still watching, his face unreadable.

"You left me no choice. What else could  I have done, Taehyung. Tell me. ?Despite everything .. I.... still love you but I love my children even more "he  smiled, a weak little smile.

Taehyung 's breath stilled. Jungkook had confessed that  he still loved him after everything  .

"I wasn't good enough, there was this hole inside of me, this emptiness and I had to hide it "Taehyung closed his eyes, as if he could see what he was talking about and only then could he describe it."You are a good person, Jungkook and you don't understand what's like not to be one. "

"Taehyung. .

"No let me explain. That's what I see inside me :this gaping hole,this nothingness .It not like I didn't want to have children with you. It was everything i had ever wanted but I felt felt afraid. Just looking at my parents made me  feel  like  I could never be a good parent. I didn't want our children to grow up like me. I was too much of a coward. "

"Why  didn't you tell me any of this. I could have helped "

"At that time  you  couldn't understand. I didn't want anyone  to know about it.I  thought you would think less of me "

"Taehyung. ...I  thought I meant a lot to you more than that "

Taehyung opened his eyes and looked ashamed "I do love you, you know that? "he moved closer and interlaced his fingers with Jungkook.

"I thought  you did but  now I don't know anymore "

"Please don't say  that "he whispered.

"Do you release the damage that happened just because you couldn't tell me. Our. .no my children had  to grow up without  you. I thought you were a monster Taehyung.I  blamed  you for everything. Only if you could  look me in the eye."