"No, it's not supposed to go in there." I stop in my tracks with Riley, becasue of those words that Becca just said. I am standing in the hallway in front of Becca's half open bedroom door. Not so sure if I dare to go in now.

"What is going on?" Riley whisper confused, but also wrinkle her nose.

"I don't..."

"Yes it is!" Olivia argue, and I have to lay my hand over my mouth and nose to keep my laugh away. I let go of Riley's hand and put mine over her mouth too, to stop the laugh that was coming out of her. She turns to me annoyed.

"Hush." I whisper and she nods annoyed as she takes my hand away from her face.

"No, it's not, Oli. It's too narrow." Becca argue and I can't barely keep my mouth shut. Riley buries her face in my arm as she holds onto it. She can't stop laughing, quietly.

"Why do you have to be such a pessimist?" Olivia asks irritated by her girlfriend.

"Because you can't seem to see that it is not going to fit!" Becca shouts and I burst out in laughter.

"What the hell?" Becca say and open the door fully. She looks at me with fire in her eyes and it makes me laugh even more. Riley is still holding my arm, struggling to keep her laugh away as well.

"What are you two doing?" I ask and take the happy tears away from my eyes.

"We were just..." Becca's cheeks are so red right now, but I can see Oliva, trying to hide her chuckles.

"We were placing her books in this bookshelf and the last book can't seem to fit." Olive explains. Becca turns around to her fast, and it makes Olive smile innocently to her girl.

"Calm down." Olivia says as she steps behind Becca, laying her arms around her and give her a sweet kiss on the cheek. Becca wrinkle her nose, still annoyed about what is going on.

"What's going on?" I jump of Hannah's voice coming from behind me.

"Dammit Hannah!" I shout in anger as I look at her, but she just smiles to me, so proud. I roll my eyes as we all step into the room. 

I sit down in this two-seated couch with my girl next to me. She rests her head on my shoulder and I lay my arm around her.

"So what do you guys want to do?" Olive asks. She is on the bed with Becca lying with her torso over Olive's back.

"I want," I lay my hand under Riley's chin and put my lips on hers.

"To kiss my girl." I smile.

We decided to watch a movie, but Riley she is lying above me studying my face with her hands. It feels so nice that I can concentrate on the movie.

"You are so soft." She whispers, making me smile.

"So are you." I whisper back and lean up to kiss her forehead. I wrap my arms around her as she rests her cheek onto my shoulder. Hiding her face in my neck. 

Feeling her breath on my skin. I start to brush her hair, loving how silky it is. The tiredness creeps on me, because of Riley's light breathing. I close my eyes, but open them back up with a smile as my girl kiss my neck.

"What do you want for Christmas?" Riley asks, taking me off guard. It's less than a week to holiday and Riley invited me to celebrate Christmas with her and her family. 

I haven't answered it yet, because I am always at home with my parents. Never have I ever been with one of my girlfriends at Christmas, but this is Riley. It's different with her. 

I want to be with her all the time and she is going to leave to her grandmothers. So she is going to be gone for a while if I don't come along. It's difficult to choose between my parents and my girl.

"Drew?" Riley calls my name, making me wake up from my thoughts.

"Yeah?"

"I asked you something." She chuckles low and I roll my eyes of myself.

"Um, I don't know," I shrug.

"There is only one thing I want." I smile as I brush her hair away from her cheek.

"And what is that?" She wonders, moving her fingers on the side of my neck so softly it almost tickles.

"You know what I want." I tell her and kiss her on the top of her head.

"No, I don't." She says, sounding confused and I sigh.

"I don't want to talk about it know, because you get upset every time and I don't want this night to be ruined." I explain and look at the TV screen watching the movie that I should actually have paid attention to, but my girl stole it. Like she always does.

"Oh." She just says and both of us just go back to silence. Still, I am disappointed that she can't show me her eyes. It's been almost three months we have been together and she won't let me see.

Three months is not that much, but I just want to look at them, because I know they are beautiful. Even though she says not. Someone as pretty as her just need to have gorgeous eyes.

"Have you deiced yet? If you want to come?" Riley asks, and I just shrug.

"Babe," She whines as she lay completely over me cupping my cheeks.

"I'm sorry." Riley says, stroking my cheeks with her thumbs. I close my eyes with a big sigh.

"It doesn't matter." I tell her and move my face out of her hands.

"I'm sorry, Drew." She says again, but I just shake my head.

"No, my answer is no." I tell and watch her chew on her lower lip. Then she sits up above me, and then nod lightly.

"Where are you going?" I ask as she moves off me and move slowly to the door.

"Where is the bathroom?" She asks.

"You just walk out the door to the right and the first door to the left." Becca explain. Riley nods as she keeps on moving her legs out the door.

"Did you just fuck up again?" Hannah ask as she looks at me. I just roll my eyes and turn my back to them all. Don't want to talk to anyone right now. 

I close my eyes and just wait until I have calmed myself down. It's been a little while since Riley walked to the bathroom. I sigh as I get out of the couch on my way to find her.

"Riley?" I knock on the door, but no one answers.

"Babe?" I try to open the door, but it's locked.

"Open the door, please." I beg.

"No." She cries and I feel my heart drop to the floor.

"Baby, please?" I plead.

"NO!" She shouted and I move back after she just kicked or hit the door. I stand here shocked and clench my teeth in anger. I hurt her. A lot. I step forward again and lean my forehead on the door.

"I'm sorry." I say, but I can't hear her voice or anything.

"Please open the door, Riley." I beg again, biting my lower lip, trying to suppress my tears. I dry my face with my sleeve and look for Becca in her room. They are all looking at the movie that is on.

"Do you have another key to the bathroom?" I ask. All of them watches me confused.

"Just answer." I say annoyed.

"Yeah, we have one extra in case my little brother would lock himself in," I roll my eyes, waiting impatiently.

"I'll get it." She says as she gets out of the bed. I wait for her in front of the bathroom door for Becca to come with the damn key.

"Here you go." She smiles, but seems worried as well as she hands it over to me. I take it and unlock the door. Riley is sitting on the floor with her knees up and her face buried in her arms. I shut the door and move over to Riley.

"Riley." I take her arms, but she shakes me off.

"Babe, I'm sorry." I say as I grab her ankles, forcing her legs to fall down and I drag her into my lap.

"I'm sorry." I repeat, holding her tightly in my arms. Listening to her crying with her face buried in my neck. She is not wearing her sunglasses so I can feel the tears on my skin. Then she mumbles something, but I can't hear it.

"What?" I ask lightly and stroke her in the hair.

"I-I..." She stops as she moves back to lean her forehead on my temple.

"It's okay. Just calm down." I whisper, but she shakes her head.

"I d-don't..."

"Babe," I cup her cheeks moving her back to look at her and take away the tears on her cheeks. She keeps her eyes closed.

"You need to breathe." I tell her and she does.

"I-I don't want you-you see me." She sobs, making me so confused.

"W-why not?" I ask, feeling my heart beat so fast of nervousness.

"B-because I can't see you." She cries. I lay my hand over my face as I feel my own tears come out of my eyes. I chew on my lower lip as I reach for air.

"Riley," I lean my forehead on hers as I cup her face.

"You don't need to see me." I tell her, but she shakes her head.

"But I really, really want to." She cries, holding onto my T-shirt on my back, tightly. I close my eyes in agony, by watching and listening to my girl cry in pain. It's like thousands of tears is coming out of my eyes and on down my face.

"Riley, I-I am so sorry, but..." I sniff and take a big breath.

"There is nothing I can do about it. If I could, then I would have, baby, but I can't. I'm so sorry." I say taking her back into my arms holding her for dear life.

"It's all I want, Drew." She sobs with her face in my neck.

"I can understand that." I cry and move back to kiss her temple. I can't remember that I have ever been so heart broken before. 

I might have watched some of the other girls I was with cry, but it didn't feel like this like at all. This is hurting me so much. I can barely breath, my heart is beating too fast. My eyes can't stop creating tears and I wish more than anything to make my girl happy again. 

We sit like this comforting each other in our embrace. I can't let her go not after what just happened.