It's been over a week since I started college. I really like it. My roommate might be a little messy. Her things are still flowing around, but I just look past it. I don't want to be an ass about it. She might get it cleaned up after a while.

I texted Riley many times and call her two, maybe three times a day. She is not okay. I can tell. It's not easy going to school alone. I started collage and our friends started college. She has no one there and I feel guilt for that. 

I left her alone and I can't see her until the weekends. A big part of me wish I didn't leave, but I needed to. Didn't I?

Every day, like now, I lay in bed thinking if I made the right decision. It's frustrating how bad I feel.

"Are you okay?" Amber asks me after she just came out of the bathroom.

"Yeah." I nod and rub my tired eyes.

"There is a party today. You want to come?" Amber asks nicely, but I decline. It's Thursday, I have school and I am travelling home tomorrow. I couldn't have done it anyways, because I think I feel more guilty than I already do.

I watch Amber getting ready and then slip out the door in a rush. We are on the way to be friends. She is kind. There isn't a party going without her asking me if I want to come. I always say no. I just can't do that. I want to, because getting friends here has been hard and meeting people while being drunk is easier. There is no way Riley would let me. I find it cute, but a little bit annoying.

I pick up my phone and smile as I see who is calling me.

"Hi, baby." I grin.

"Hi, Drew." Riley chuckles. I love when she laughs. I miss that beautiful girl.

"Are you okay?" I wonder. Just need to make sure she is fine.

"I'm okay. Are you?" She asks.

"Yeah. I miss you though." I say and she tells me she misses me too. Riley tells me about her day and like always it's not much. Just going to school, going home to do homework and read or listen to music. 

She sounds bored and a little unhappy. I try my best to cheer her up, but I fail every time. Which makes me feel awful. I'm the worst girlfriend in the history.

"Are you going to sleep soon?" I wonder, because I can hear it in her voice that she is tired.

"Yeah, I am lying in bed right now." She says and I smile the reminder of how warm and lovely it is to lay in the same bed with her. I can't wait to go home. This is going to last for some few years and when I am done. Then she is most likely going to college, but I would move with her of course. So it would not be the same.

"You will come home tomorrow, right?" Riley asks worried.

"Of course I am." I promise her.

"Can't let you stay in that bed alone much longer." I say and I hear Riley laugh softly.

"Yeah, this bed really misses your cute butt." She tells me and now I am the one laughing.

"I miss it too." I smile the brightest I have done all day.

We keep on talking about our days, school and tease each other, just the way we love it. Every day before bed, we talk until we go to sleep. Sometimes it gets very late, but it doesn't matter.

"Babe?" I say after I just told her something funny that happened in my class, but she didn't answer.

"Riley?" I call her name, but still no answer back.

"Did you fall asleep?" I smile.

"I guess me talking is very boring." I chuckle, even though she can't hear me.

"I love you, Riley. Love you so much. Sleep well." 

Hey, Dreamers! 

Tomorrow my girl and I will go to Portugal, her home country. She has been her with me for 3 months now, in this cold snowy/rainy Norway.

I just finished my exams/ education and I passed, luckily! It feels good to be done with it all! So now I'm gonna take 3-4 months of vacation. Lots of time to sleep, play games, write and of course spend time with my girl and her family/friends. 

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