21. I need you

I couldn't sleep after what I did to Riley. It's two in the middle of the night and I drove over to her house, just to have something to do.


Now I am just wondering what to do. I was thinking about calling her, but she would probably freak out if I did. Riley's window is open and I have been thinking about to climb up the tree and jump on the roof. Then step in the window. 


I sound desperate, which is true. I just want to apologize to her, because she didn't give me the chance to do it. I sigh and hit my head on the steering wheel. Can't believe I am doing this. 


I step out of the car, and walk over to the tree and start climbing. My hands are already freezing cold as I move down onto the roof. I walk, slowly and carefully over to the window, so I won't slip or wake someone up. 


Then I open the window s bit more and sit down on the frame, taking off my shoes. So they won't make too much noise when I put my feet on the floor. 


I watch Riley, she is sleeping in her bed with her back to me. Just hope she would not be angry with me. If she will, then all hell would break loose. 


My feet hit the floor as I step down and I tip toe over to her bed. She is still sleeping and I smile, of the beautiful view. I lay down behind her quietly and wrap my arm around her. Which makes her jump.


"It's me. I'm sorry." I whisper and kiss the top of her head.


"What are you doing here?" She asks annoyed. I sigh as I hold her tighter.


"I'm sorry." I repeat.


"Drew," she breathes as she turns around. I cup her cheek, but she takes my hand of her skin.


"I'm still angry... How did you come in?" She asks confused.


"I-I came in the window." I say quietly a little embarrassed that I am so desperate to just be here with her, which would't be me few months ago. 


"You did what?" She asks stunned, but still a little angry.


"I just want to say I am sorry for being such..."


"An asshole?" She finishes and I sigh.


"You know what," I move out of the bed.


"If you can't accept my apology, then I just leave." I say hurt and frustrated as I find my shoes again to take them back on.


"Drew," Riley sighs and I can hear her get out of the bed, but I don't care.


"Drew." I feel her touch on my back. Then she locks me with her arms around my waist. I take a deep breathe to calm myself down.


"I'm sorry." She says, leaning her forehead on my back.


"Riley," I take her hands and turn around to her.


"I care for you more than anything and I'm sorry if I ask too much, but god, how much I like you," I cup her cheeks.


"I want you more than I have ever wanted anything," I kiss her forehead.


"You make me feel something that I don't understand." I say as I lean my forehead on hers.


"I need you." I admit to her, watching a tear go down her cheek. I use my thumb to brush it away. Riley sniffs as she wraps her arms around me, her face buried in my shoulder. I hold my crying girl in my arms, tightly.


"I'm sorry." She mumbles on my sweater.


"No, it's my fault." I say and move us to the bed and lay down.


"You are so beautiful, Riley," I smile as I brush her hair behind her ear.


"Most beautiful girl I have ever seen." I whisper as I lean my forehead on hers. I wrap my arm around her and kiss her on the nose. She snorts of that, and I love that smile that came on her face.


"Goodnight dimples." I smile as I plant a kiss on her forehead.


"Goodnight," She yawn as she moves down to rest her cheek onto my chest. I close my eyes as I hold her in my arms.


"My love." My eyes snap wide open as I feel my heart speed up. Great, I came here to apologize to clear my mind so I could sleep  and be here with this beautiful girl, then she says that. 


How I am supposed to sleep now and why did she say that? Dose she love me or did she just say that, because she is very tired. Oh, god, this is going to be a very long night, but at least I am not lonely. I smile and kiss the top of her head.



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