Nick and I lay in his bed trying to catch our breath. I feel beads of sweat run down my neck and back. I feel Nicks heart beat slowly go back it's regular pace. He tightens his hold on me as I snuggle closer into his side. As if I could get any closer. I fix the blankets so they are hiding every thing the needs to be hidden, although I don't really see the point because we've seen each other naked more than once. I guess I still get self conscious once we are done.

We are both quiet for a long time. This time was our first time in about a week and a half. Finding alone time was our biggest issue, given the fact that we are teenagers. It's not like we can just leave the house and go out to hook up. Both of our parents ask all of the right questions to get us squirming with guilt. The only reason we got to have sex this time was because Nicks parents took his little sisters to see some new animated movie that recently came out. Adding dinner to the two hour movie gave us a time frame of three or four hours. Yes, that was more than enough time but it is nice to have that alone time we so desperately want.

I can't help but think back to the conversation I had with my mom not too long ago. I accidentally blurted out that my and Nicks relationship had moved into the sexual phase one day when we were in the car on our way to the mall. At first my mom was pissed that I gave my virginity away at seventeen. After a very long talk in which I had to reassure her several times that each time we did it we used protection and were extremely careful. I also threw Xander under the bus by pointing out he lost his virginity at sixteen and had a pregnancy scare after that. I didn't want to say it but my mom was freaking out.

Sure, I understand where she was coming from but there shouldn't be a double standard when it came to siblings and when they have sex. Each child should be treated the same in this particular situation. My mom was still mad but knew there was nothing to change what had already happened. Now when I go hang out with Nick my mom gives me a look that says 'be careful'. To ease her mind I tell her that we don't sleep together every single time we hang out. It wasn't a total lie but she needed peace of mind.

Nick shifts so I scoot over to give him more room to do whatever he needs to do. I see him reach over to his night stand and pick up his phone. He hits the home button and then sets it back down. He fixed his pillows so they are straight instead of down on the mattress then he sits up against them. I guess he is done cuddling.

"We still have a little over an hour before my family comes home." He informs me stretching out his arms.

I nod and mimic his position. "Want to watch something on tv?" I ask.

"No." He shakes his head.

I sigh and get up trying to hide my body with the sheet the best I can. I locate my underwear and his shirt quickly putting them on. I make my way to his bathroom to pee and wash my hands. I take in my appearance, my perfectly curled hair is now messy and my lips are still swollen from all the kissing. I notice there is also a small hickey at the base of my neck and can't help but chuckle. My boyfriend is an animal in the sack. I find a hair tie that I know I have left on his sink and pull my hair up into a ponytail. I then take a sniff of Nicks shirt, it still smells just like him, minty. I don't think I will ever tire of that scent.

I take one last calming breath then open the door. I walk back out into his room and see him still sitting in the same position except this time he has his phone in his hand.

Nick hears me coming out of the bathroom and looks up. I don't miss the way his eyes rake over my body starting at my toes then going all the way up to my roots. Even though we've already had sex that little action causes my body to heat up all over again. I shudder then make my way back over to the bed. I ignore Nicks smirk, he knows he's once again affected me.

"You got dressed, I'm bummed." He pouts setting his phone back down.

I breathe a laugh and get back into the bed under the covers. My foot makes contact with his thigh and I feel fabric instead of skin which tells me he put his boxers back on.

"So did you." I counter.

I lay my head on his shoulder and he automatically plants a kiss there. I smile at the sweet action. I honestly don't think I will ever get tired of him or his actions. I love him too much for my own good. I am obsessed and addicted to him and his insanely hot body he has. Flashes of what we recently did come back to me and it has me wanting to go there all over again. I don't want us to be that couple who only has sex once they break that barrier but I can't help it. Like I said, now that I've had a taste, I don't ever want to stop.

I wonder if he feels the same way as I do. He tells me all the time that he can't keep his hands off of me. Like right now, he has moved his hand to my bare thigh underneath the covers and is drawing circles. I also feel him kiss my head every few seconds. I know it's a loving affection and I am sure it's because he is as addicted to me as I am him. Nick Ross is like a drug that I can not kick and frankly I don't want to kick it. I would shout it from the rooftops that I am in love with him and am addicted to having him any way I can.

I tense up when I feel his hand go higher near a very intimate part. All too quickly his hand slides back down to the middle of my thigh. Huh. I guess he sensed my hesitation. My thigh was warm from his touch and all of sudden it's no longer there. I frown then I feel him out his arm around my shoulders to pull me close to his side. His fingers start rubbing my arm leaving a trail of goosebumps in their wake.

Seriously. How can I be this horny? Dam teenage hormones.

I groan and move to straddle him. Nicks breath hitches at my action. I just bite my lip then lean down to kiss him. His hands immediately go to my waist to pull me closer to him. I moan at the sensation of our lower areas moving against one another. I place my hands on his neck to deepen the kiss then they find their way to his hair which was already messy from earlier.

Nick pulls back first leaving me to pout. "Did you not get enough earlier?" He teases me.

"Yes. But you rubbing my thigh and arm has me gotten very horny again." I mumble. I was still having a problem telling him exactly what I wanted when it came to us making love. I was getting more brave but it was still difficult for me.

Nick, on the other hand, had no problem expressing exactly what he wanted or was going to do to me. I envied his confidence. Anytime I came close to trying it I always get embarrassed because no one talks like that in public. If they do it's during whispered conversations. Nick is so confident he has even whispered those little forbidden things during school hours or during a dinner with our friends or families. And every time he does I get all flushed and I'm sure someone has noticed by now.

Nick grasps my chin to make me look up at him, "Cheerleader." He says softly. "Don't be scared or embarrassed to tell me what you want. Communication works in every aspect of a relationship. I love you and nothing you say will turn me off of you. Trust me."

His words put me at ease and I know he is right. I do lack confidence in this aspect and I do have trouble communicating when we have sex. If he asks if something feels good I just nod or if I want him to do a certain thing I usually just grab his head and put it where I want pleasure. I want us to connect in every way possible and in order for that to happen I need to make sure I'm doing my part. It can't just be Nick who is giving, I have to be willing to give as well. Maybe I should try now.

I take a deep breath and slowly release it. "Batman." I whisper. Nick looks at me waiting patiently for me to continue. "I want you -us- to have sex again. I am shaking with need and it's a need only you can fulfill. So please give it to me, the way you know I love. I love you and I love when we have sex. Please." I say in a very low voice but I know he's heard every word because his grip on my waist tightens with each word.

"How do you want it?" He asks in a husky voice. Oh God.

"Rough. But please don't hurt me. I won't mind being sore just make sure I'll be able to walk tomorrow." I tell him with all of the confidence I muster up.

Nick smiles at me then kisses me hard and flips us so my back is on the mattress and he is hovering over me with the look of want in his eyes. I feel his hands at the hem of the shirt and it's gone in an instant as is my underwear and his boxers.

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"What is up with you? You're walking like a penguin." Lacey asks me as we walk through town.

I roll my eyes. "No reason."

Lacey scoffs, "Still a terrible liar, Tay." She mumbles under breath. "You and Mr.Mysterious went to hard didn't you."

I gasp at her assumption. "Lacey Lodge! How dare you assume something so vulgar."

Lacey laughs at my innocence. "Give it up, Tay. I'm right and you know it. Hell I knew it even before I asked."

"Then why did you ask me?" I question.

"Duh. I wanted you to confirm it. I know we agreed to keep our sex lives private but seeing you walk like a penguin gave me the power to grill you about it." She points out still laughing.

I groan, "Yes you hit the nail right on the head. Nick and I may have went to hard recently. It was the heat of the moment but now that it's over I am literally dying over here." I wince in pain.

No we didn't mean to go that hard but sometimes it happens. I've already texted Nick and told him that we may need to be celibate for the time being. He then quickly called me to make sure I was okay and that he felt horrible that I was in so much pain. I felt loved when he said those things. He promised me that our next date would just be a movie and my favorite snacks and he would keep his touching to a minimum the best he could.

Lacey continues to laugh at my pain. "Relax, Tay. The pain goes away after a few days then you and Nick will back to screwing like bunnies."

My face scrunches up at the colorful way she just described my sex life with Nick. Although she isn't totally wrong.

"I'm sure your and Logan's sex life is very active as well." I point out.

Lacey blushes. "You got me. But we aren't being rough, we are going slow. Most of the time." She confirms.

"Since when did we just talk about our sex lives with our boyfriends?" I ask laughing.

Lacey and I usually have meaningful conversations but now that we are both dating we of course have to give each other info on our dating life. It's what besties do. It's not like we can talk about it with the other girls, they are friends with Nick and Logan. Lacey and I feel weird talking about this side of our relationships with them.

"I know. Let's do something fun. We could go to the spa and just have a besties day. What do you say?" She offers.

"I'm in." I agree.

For the rest of the day Lacey and I go to the spa and enjoy each other's company. We even go to the cemetery to visit Emily where we update her on all of the things happening in our lives. We make sure she's with us at all times but still feel the need
to keep her in the loop. All in all it was a day well spent with my bestie whom I love very much.

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*A/N: this book is coming to an end, although I am still trying to figure out how to end it. Also I know these two are very active now but it's kind of obvious why. I'm also trying my hand at the whole "intimate" writing part so this is me trying it out.

Thanks for reading as always!!

See ya later skaters!!!!