WARNING! Season 2 spoilers! Also, slight Snowbarry. 

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Barry POV

I hated this. 

I hated being confined to chairs. 

Even worse was having to use Dr. Wells' wheel chair. I despised it with everything in me.

I hated the feeling of helplessness that came with being unable to move.

I hated not being able to run.

I hated feeling vulnerable. 

I. Hated. This.

I yelled and threw my mug across the room. It shattered when it hit the wall. I placed my head in my hands and started sobbing. I hated this so much. 

I heard footsteps hurriedly making their way towards the cortex, where I was currently confined. I watched Caitlin run into the cortex and look around.

"Barry! Are you okay? I heard a crash-" Her eyes landed on the shattered mug. "Oh."

"Sorry Cait," I said.

"It's fine," Caitlin said, "But maybe we should invest in a stress ball or something."

I smiled slightly. Then I went back to frowning.

"What's the matter?" Caitlin asked.

I shook my head.

"Barry," Caitlin said softly. She kneeled down next to me and placed a hand on my arm.

"Everything!" I said abruptly. "Being confined, helpless, vulnerable. Not being able to walk let alone run. Having to use Wells' chair is also dragging up old memories. I just hate it all."

Caitlin looked at me sadly. She helped move me to the couch we put in the cortex and sat next to me. But she didn't say anything, which I appreciated. I didn't really want people to tell me it was okay. Cause it really wasn't.

After a few minutes of tears silently running down my face and Caitlin softly rubbing the small of my back, Caitlin stood up.

"I'm going to swing by Jitters for some coffee. Would you like anything?" 

"Sure." I said, wiping my eyes. "I'll take whatever."

Caitlin was gone and I was left alone with my thoughts.

I kept thinking of all the ways I could've stopped Zoom. Hindsight is a bitch. It really is.

I didn't even notice, but I had started to fall asleep. And I finally did, my head lolling to the side. 

I screamed in pain as zoom snapped my spine. It felt like fire and ice at the same time. It hurt so much.

Zoom paraded me through the city, showing everyone how weak and useless their hero was. When he got to the precinct, he ripped my cowl off my face.

"See you hero," Zoom said, "He is nothing. He is no one."

Then he raced back to STAR labs and stabbed me. I hated seeing the fear on my friends' faces. But it was hard to think over the pain.

I felt him stab me again and again.

I was going to die.

"Barry. Barry wake up."

 Someone's voice cut through the dream.

"Barry. Wake up. You're safe now Barry. Wake up please."

My eyes snapped open, startling Caitlin. 

"There you go," she whispered, rubbing my arm. "Just a dream. I brought your coffee."

I smiled and took a sip of the warm beverage. "Thanks."

Caitlin smiled lightly. 

She started to leave, but I reached out and lightly grabbed her arm.

"Please," I whispered, "Stay."

Caitlin smiled and sat down next to me, snuggling close. 

"Of course." 

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A/N- There's that chapter. Hope you liked it. Tomorrow's prompt is Torture. Oh Goody! :)

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