LEXI'S POV

resolving the things with my parents didn't work. Well with my mom they didn't and they did with my dad too until he started drinking.

My mom kept on begging him not to hit me but he just continued too. She tried to stop him but he slapped her so hard across the face and she shut up.

I haven't left the house and it's been over a week. School already started back up but I can't go not how badly bruised and cut I am.

My mom don't do anything now. She just sits in the corner and keeps her head low.

I haven't been to school for the last three days and I hear my phone go off but my dad took it away.

He hits me with anything. Last night he picked up a vase and threw it at me but him being so intoxicated he missed and hit the wall.

That only made him more mad and he started pounding on me, kicking till he couldn't kick anymore.

He's gone right now and I'm going to see if I'll get my phone.

"Mom," I say walking slowly over to my mom on the couch. "I thought he was done with the alcohol."

"He said he was I don't know I can't stand this anymore it isn't right. I can't just leave we barley have enough money together just to get by."

"Do you know where my phone is? I'm going to leave I'm sorry... I think you should leave to but I don't even know where I'm going..." I say.

She gets up and brings back my phone and the charger with it.

"I'm fine trust me he wasn't ever like this before maybe he'll stop. Come back in a week please I'll miss you to much."

"I will. Will you call me in for the rest of the week so on Thursday and Friday?"

"Yes now go before he comes back." she says giving me a hug bye.

I go in my car and drive one of our 18 hour city parking lots.

I shut off my car noticing the fuel level on low and I don't know how much money I have.

I look at my phone and notice four missed calls from Morgan and one from Jake.

Also about thirty texts from Morgan. Most of them saying text me, why aren't you at school, are you mad at me and so on.

I also have a couple texts from Jake. It was just Morgan on his phone wanting to see if I'd reply to his phone.

It's three and school is just getting over and I see kids walking from there bus stops.

I text Morgan.

Me: Honestly just got phone couldn't text. Dad took it. Also haven't been in school because of well take a guess it was my dad again.

She instantly replied not shocking me at all were usually on our phone.

Morgan: Come over I miss you! Don't tell me your still at home with him?

Me: No I'm not going back... i don't know where I'll go now and okay be there in ten.

Morgan: might as well stay at my house & I know you don't like my parents because let's be honest there rude and they won't be here for the next month they went to Paris.

I sigh with relief I at least can stay there for a month.

I put my phone down and put it on the passenger seat so I don't text and drive.

I get to her house and park on the side of her car. Jakes car isn't outside so hopefully he isn't.

I'm still in the same clothes from a week ago and the all bloody and dirty. I need to shower too.

I bring in my phone, charger, and keys in my purse. That's all I need I left my bag of clothes in her room that have all my essentials.

I haven't even looked in the mirror so I don't even know how bad I look.

I walk in and put all the stuff in my purse and Morgan and Jake walk down but jake just gave me a look I couldn't read and goes into the kitchen.

Morgan runs over and hugs me.

"It really was bad this time. He needs to stop."

"Yeah I know. Can I shower?"

"Yeah go use mine! He makes me so mad."

"Thanks and me too."

She's already up the stairs and I'm only half way up it hurts so much just to walk this really hurts.

I finally made it to her room and she already had a towel in her bathroom and my bag in there too.

I start the shower and step in the steaming hot water scrubbing to get the dried blood off.

I see the cuts and bruised on my body but don't see on my face till I look in the mirror.

I have a cut under my eye and the right side of my face is bruised a little not surprising me at all.

I dress in some grey sweatpants and a tanktop with a cheerleading shirt. I put on some ankle socks and throw my hair up into a ponytail.

I don't do makeup seeing I'll be sleeping soon and I brush my teeth.

After that I enter her room from her bathroom and put my bag on the side of her bed.

"Want some food?" she asks as I sit down in her bed.

"Sure what are you thinking?"

"Mario's?" she asks smiling that's our favorite pizza place.

"But they don't deliver."

"I'll go pick it up I already ordered so I'll be back in twenty." she says getting up and going.

As soon as the front door shuts Morgan's door opens. Jake steps in.

"Before you even say anything I want to thank you for not letting me drive last week when I was intoxicated." I say while he sits on the bed next to me.

"Your welcome but I really need to talk to you." He says.

He pull me up so I'm standing next to him.

"Show me," he says.

"What?"

"Show me everything I want to see what happened."

"No you don't. I'm fine." I say.

"Please I just want to know what happened."

"Why does it matter? to you any way?"

"I may be a douche but I have feelings for you and your hopefully carrying my child still and I want to see what happened."

"What do you mean hopefully? I'm still pregnant."

"Show me what happened what if he hurt you so bad that he killed him or her?"

I sigh.

I hold out my arms and he looks at them then I pull up my shirt to the bottom of my bra not showing anything else.

He clenches his fist together and mutters something under his breath.

He takes me by surprise and cups my face kissing me passionately.

He looks at me after that and gives am a questioning look before leaving.

"That didn't help me figure any fucking thing out." I mumble sitting down in the bed.

I call the hospital and make an appointment for Friday so after tomorrow and I go downstairs.

I grab a bottle of water and Jake comes downstairs and stops me.

"We can't go out so stop trying to make it work it's not going to." he says.

"Where the fuck did that come from? you just kissed me up there!"

"Your so difficult you know that." he says walking and hitting his shoulder against mine pushing past me.

"Dammit Jake," I hiss holding my shoulder.

He gives me a disapproving look like I ran into him.

My shoulder stings from the impact on my weak beat up body.

"Stop." I say and he turns around. "You can either be in my life as my boyfriend and be with me and our child or I will move on and find someone else and ill have our child and you can have them on certain days. You pick until then stop showing me all these different sides to you there kinda scary."

"Let me explain." he says while I'm turning away so I turn back around.

"What?" I say standing where I stopped.

"The reason I've been such an ass is I don't get this feeling thing. I don't get them for girls I just screw them and have no feelings so that's why it's so easy to go to a new girl. I have feelings for you. I just have trouble expressing them the the right way. I'm sorry. I want to be with you. I do I'm just going to need some time being a good boyfriend."

"I want to have boyfriend but that didn't work last time you have to prove it to me. Give me a week or less I'll let you know. But please don't bump into me like that my shoulder fucking hurts." I say running my shoulder that still stings.

"Damn see what I mean." He says pointing to my shoulder. "I'm not good with this boyfriend thing."

"You will be." I say walking up and kissing him on the lips quick.

I walk back upstairs and as soon as I sit down I hear Morgan pull up.

I smile as she walks in with a pepperoni with extra cheese pizza and I give her my water and go back downstairs moving faster than earlier and grab another water.

"I have an appointment Friday I tell you how it goes." I say to Jake before I walk back upstairs.

I go in her room and we talk and eat and I tell her how I won't be at school the next couple days and she nods before we fall asleep.

Thursday goes by fast and it's now Friday and I'm on my way to the hospital.

I check in and I'm greeted by my usual doctor and I go into the regular doctor room.

"Lexi how are you?" she asks.

"Great how about you Dr.Kelly?"

She smiles and says great.

"So what is it you need today just a check up?"

"To see if I'm pregnant."

"Well have to go down to the lab so if you'll follow me." she says getting up and I follow.

I wait in the room for her to come back with my results.

"Lexi." she says walking in. "What happened?" Dr.Kelly asks once she shuts the door.

"What do you mean?"

"You have had so much damage well beating to your abdominal area you had a miscarriage."

I try to say something but choke on the words.

"Lexi what happened to cause such damage?"

"Nothing. Nothing I'm fine. Could I get birth control?"

"Yes but Lexi if something's happening you should tell me I could stop it."

"Nothing's happening I'm fine."

"Ok well I'll give you six months worth then you have to come back and get another check up for a new prescription."

"Ok thanks just send it to walmart pharmacy." I say before getting up and leaving.

I have no idea where I'm going to go. I don't want to go back to Morgans because I'll have to face Jake after telling him.

I go home to tell my mom maybe my dad if he's not drinking.

When I walk in I'm shocked to see my mom and dad eating lunch together without my dad being drunk. Or even any alcohol in him.

"What are you doing not in school?" my dad asks like he didn't even abuse me for the last week.

"I'm still kind of sore and i had a doctors appointment today."

"Don't be stupid your fine." My dad says waving me off.

"What do you mean? What do you mean you abused me for over a week and now I has miscarriage! I'm sure that's exactly what you wanted! You killed my child!" I yell infuriated.

"Killed your child your crazy. You should be thanking me! I did not abuse you I was teaching you a lesson!"

"No your crazy! there's a difference. You could've yelled at me but hitting me and kicking me and throwing things at me is abusing me! thank you for what? killing my child?"

"Your such a spoiled brat! I help you out and this is how you repay me?"

"You didn't help me out at all! you killed my child and look at this!" i somewhat shout and lift up my shirt and tanktop to show him the bruises and cuts.

"Don't you dare act like you didn't deserve that!" he yells.

"Your fucking crazy!" I shout back and leave without even talking or looking at my mom.

She don't even care to tell him he's wrong.

It's now three and I know because I have a text from Jake and Morgan.

Both of them wanting to know how the appointment went and Morgan also asking where I am.

I send the same text to both of them.

Me: Not good. To much damage to my abdominal area... miscarriage.

After sending that to both of them I drive to a 18 hour parking lot but this ones on the way out of town so I won't have to look at anyone.

I start crying and I can't stop it. I just cry and cry even though I hear phone go off.

Morgan and Jake replied.

Morgan: Come over we need to talk your dad caused all this did you tell him?

I reply to her.

Me: Yes I confronted him he said I should be thanking him and I deserved it all bull crap.

After that I look at Jake's text finally.

Jake: Tell me your kidding

So I reply to him too.

Me: No.. I have the papers if you want to see them.

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Wanted to stop there so hope you enjoyed!

Also for anyone in school have a good summer! I know I will be enjoying the summer!

Xox.

- crazy_writer_2013