LEXI'S POV

I wake up to Jake staring at me with his arms wrapped around me. As soon as I look at Jake he smiles at me.

"What?" i ask smiling since hes smiling.

"Your so peaceful and beautiful when you sleep." He says leaning his head against me pressing his forehead to mine.

I blush automatically from his compliment and press my lips to his kissing him slowly.

"You deserve an award you know that." I say when we break apart.

"For what?" He asks.

"For dealing with me."

"You are my reward." He says leaning down smiling before he kisses me.

We lay in bed just talking and cuddling, mostly cuddling.

We're interrupted in our peacefulness by my phone going off on the bed side table.

i reach over and grab it and see it's my mom.

I answer it and it's basically my mom angry with me for being gone all night apparently she though when i told her i was coming up here with Jake she thought i was joking.

She wants me home as soon as possible and i just agree before we say goodbye and Jake looks at me with a raised eyebrow.

"Should we leave?" He asks and I'm guessing he heard her.

"Not now its perfect right now." I say leaning into his chest and wrapping my arms around him getting more close if even possible.

"Yes this is perfect." He says kissing my forehead and wrapping his arms around me.

After of what id say is a hour Jake convinces me to get up and get dressed were going back home because he wants my mom to trust him and still like him.

By the time we're done getting ready, eating, and packing everything back up its already five at night so we don't get back into town till six.

"Want me to come in with you?" He asks handing me my bag.

"No I'm fine i need to talk with her and explain some things. I want you to enjoy spring break okay? You don't need to come over every day i want you to be with your friends and family enjoy it! Ill text you or call you alright." I say.

"Lexi i enjoy being with you." He says.

"Well it's not fair of me to just steal you away your usually with your family or friends so go be with them ill be alright." I say giving him a small smile.

"Text me or call me." He says kissing me slowly.

"I will, love you."

"Love you too." He says and lets go of my hand and walks to his car.

I watch him drive away before i take a deep breath and unlock the door walking inside.

I lock it after i come in and set my bag down in the entry way.

I'm surprised the house is clean and back to the way it usually is.

"Lexi is that you?" My mom calls from the kitchen.

"Yeah." I say taking out my phone and going on it sitting at the stool at the bar in the kitchen.

"Your grounded! You skipped three days of school and didn't come home last night! What were you thinking?" She yells at me already.

"I just walked through the door and your already yelling at me?" I somewhat yell back.

"Well i have a good reason to!"

i feel my eyes begin to water and i try to push it back.

"Have you went into my room since I've been gone?" I ask.

"No why?" She asks.

"Just follow me."

She follows me and i go into my room and go into my bathroom. On the floor still are the clothes from that night.

I hold up the shirt and sweatpants showing her the blood on them and i go over to my bed and most my blanket so she can see the blood on it since Jake and me never gt around to washing it. i also lift of my shirt showing her the faint scar on my side and on my arm.

"You see this?" I say. "That bed i will never sleep on that bed again. The blood, the scars, there's a reason i didn't go to school."

My eyes are brimmed with tears.

"What are you talking about? What happened?" She asks.

"Tuesday at four thirty in the morning a guy from the party downstairs walked into my room... and... and..." I get choked up and tears falls from my face.

"And what?" My mom asks quietly as a tear falls down her cheek.

"He raped me and cut me and... and I'm so sorry mom." I say crying now.

She comes to me and wraps her arms around me.

"Baby I'm so sorry i shouldn't have thrown the party and let that happen." She says still hugging me.

"It's not your fault please don't blame yourself it wasn't your fault or my fault or anyone's except his." I say and back away a little. That's something Jake taught me- it isn't my fault.

i sit down on the ground against the wall and tell myself to breath so i don't have to have another panic attack.

"What happened? I mean how?" She asks sitting next to me.

"I just woke up and he was on top of me and i kept trying to get him off and he wouldn't get off so he cut me and then Jake came because he was going to bring me to school and i explained everything to him and i showered and changed and he was still downstairs and Jake beat him up and then Jake eventually left and went to school the next day. I barely slept and i took these pills from someone downstairs to keep me awake and i started smoking weed. I went back to school Friday so i could get the stuff I've missed and do it over break and my ex Dylan he was so awful to me i left school early Friday and i came here and went into my room after getting a handful of pills from someone downstairs and i was going to take them all. I was going to kill myself but Jake came over and saw and had me flush all the pills and that's why i went away with Jake so i could get away from everything." I say explaining everything that's happened the last few days.

I'm no longer crying by myself my mom has tears rolling down her face as well.

"I'm so sorry i shouldn't of yelled at you without knowing what happened your not grounded and not in trouble I'm sorry." She says.

"It's fine mom it's just i don't know i wont be the same person but everything happens for a reason."

After a couple minutes of crying and it being silent we hug and then my door opens and it him. Yes the guy that raped me and caused all of this is standing a mere ten feet or less away from me.

"I'm sorry to interrupt but did you guys want anything to eat?" He asks.

i can tell I'm shaking but my mom doesn't notice she's smiling at him.

"No I'm good what about you?" She asks looking towards me.

I shake my head no and she says no for me.

"Oh i forgot to introduce you guys. Lexi this is my friend Tim, Tim this is my daughter Lexi."

"Nice to meet you." He says and puts out his hand with the tree tattoo making sure i know who he is as he glares at me.

I nod and shake his hand and yank it back it as quick as possible.

"I'm going to make spaghetti, is that alright?" He asks my mom.

"Yeah sure we'll be right down." She says and he walks away.

I shut my door and lock it as soon as i know he downstairs.

"What?" She asks.

"Are you guys serious?" I ask.

"No why? I just met him like a week ago he was at one of my parties we're not even dating i mean we're just friends im still technically married to your dad."

My eyes to start watering and i let the tears drip down my face.

My mom starts shaking her head. "Please tell me it wasn't him." She says.

"It was him." I choke out and start crying. My mom goes into my bathroom but doesn't shut the door and call someone.

She gives our address and says that the guy in her house and tells them that i was attacked and the attackers here and to not use sirens or lights so he don't run off.

"Was that the cops?" I ask.

"Yeah."

"You didn't have to do that mom you like him." I say feeling automatically guilty.

"Baby i don't care how much i like him he needs to rot in prison for what he did to you. I love you so much your my baby girl it don't matter how much i like him. Same thing like what was happening with your dad."

I nod and realize how much horrible luck i have with men. My dad abused me, my ex-boyfriend and his dad basically threatened me, and Tim my moms now ex-boyfriend raped me and made me want to kill myself. But then there's Jake and i know there's still amazing wonderful men out there and I'm lucky enough to have one- Jake.

A couple minutes later and i hear the car door shut outside and i go to the stairs and i see the cops haul him out but he yells out and fights back but ends up getting hand cuffed. They're pushing him out when he yells at me.

"I'll get out and when i do i'll kill you like i would've that night!" He shouts and a lady officer comes to talk to me.

I end up repeating everything about that night up until the part to where Jake found me that's it then she leaves and says they'll be processing it.

I text Jake quick.

Me: All is good I love you

And decide to go to bed and crawl in my moms bed and fall asleep not even waiting for a reply I'm to exhausted.

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Hope you enjoyed and i finally updated i know it's long overdue!

Xox.

- crazy_writer_2013