LEXI'S POV

I felt his eyes on me pouring into me while I slowly drink the mixture of vodka and redbull in the red solo cup.

I looked up and he immediately turned away walking and grabbing some random blonde girl and sucking on her neck.

Hes disgusting. Hes also my best friend Morgan's brother Jake. Lets just say Jake and I don't get along. He has gotten me expelled from school at least four times convincing the teachers I did it with his conniving ways.

Hes a jock and plays football but hes a senior and Morgan and I are juniors and were the only cheerleaders he hasn't slept with. I know that's one of the reasons he likes to torture me.

I was getting the sort of dizzy spinning feeling from the alcohol and I felt a hand slip over my waist.

I instantly turned around and bumped into Jake who had his hand around me spilling my drink over my shirt.

"Fuck. Watch out." I said moving past him heading towards the bathroom but before I could shut the door someone pushed it open.

Jake walked in and shut the door behind him locking it before pressing me up against it.

"Don't deny you don't want to..." He whispered into my hear before pressing his lips over my neck.

"I.. I don't." I stuttered feeling all kinds of tingles over my body. "Stop.."

"You know you want too..." He said pulling off my shirt leaving me in my tanktop with my jeans and boots.

He pulled off his shirt and slid his jeans down. I coudnt stop resisting the urge but I stopped after taking my boots off.

"Oh strip tease huh?" He said leaning in undoing my skinney jeans pulling them down before pulling off my tanktop.

I didn't know if I wanted to continue but I couldn't stop the urge my body was loving from his touch.

"We cant... I cant..." I barley got out.

"Do you want to or not?" He asks putting his arms on either side of me.

"Yes." I say taking off my tanktop.

It was quick and before I knew it he puled his pants on quick and threw his shirt on not even looking at me before walking out of the bathroom leaving me there after he just took my virginity not even caring.

I pulled my clothes back on and grabbed a water before leaving back to my house. I got inside and started going towards the kitchen and bumped into my dad which I instantly knew I would regret if he had been drinking too.

"Where the fuck where you? Huh?" My dad asks he had been drinking and I already knew what was going to happen.

He hit me right under my eye but my mom came down and stopped it like she usually does.

My dad is a good man it's just when he drinking that he gets violent. Other then that hes a nice and caring and always feels bad about what he did the night he was drinking before but never talks about it.

I went back upstairs into my room and passed out on my bed.

The next day I woke up to my phone going off from Morgan saying that she was wondering where I went since I was supposed to sleep over last night. I totally forgot about that after what happened between me and her brother.

I instantly felt bad for forgetting and texted her back that I could come over today and she replied with a yes so I got ready.

I put on black leggings that went above my ankle bone and a white tanktop with a pull over white hoodie. I put on socks and my Ugg boots while putting my hair into a fish tail braid to the side.

I circled my eye with the black eyeliner and applied mascara before looking at the cut that I couldn't cover up no matter how much cover up I applied.

I grabbed my car keys and drove over to the rich side of our town. Morgan and her family are rich and probably the richest if not second richest family in our small town. I am middle class if not below. That's why I don't let Morgan come over that and my dad because ill never know when hes drinking.

I know that her mom and dad don't approve of Morgan and I being friends because of our different status of money. They are a whole lot nicer then when I was first over at there house. They actually will say 'hi' or 'how are you' even though they don't care. But they still act like im worthless.

I drove over to Morgan's house and knocked even though every time I knock I get told to just walk in by Morgan even though I never will.

Jake answered. Awkward. For me at least.

He smirked. "Come back for more?"

I didn't even know what to say to him.

"Hey whose at the door?" Morgan came walking by the door and pushed Jake out of the way and dragged me up to her room after I took off my shoes.

"So wh-" She stopped middle sentence. "Your dad do that?" She asked pointing twords the cut under my eye. Shes the only one who knows about what my dad does beside my mom.

"Yeah, I don't want to talk about it." I said laying down on her big comfy bed.

"You never do. So, what did you do last night? There was so many people here and I couldn't find you."

"I had a couple drinks and didn't want to stay after what I did and I totally forgot about sleeping over and went home. What about you?"

She had a half smirk, "Well things cleared up between me and Adam. What do you mean what did you do?"

"How did that happen exactly? Last time I heard like two hours before the party you guys hated each other. I um... you know lost my v-card"

"Ahh! It's about time! With who? Now I don't feel like such a hoe I slept with Adam last night that's how we made up."

Not even two seconds later Jake came barging in.

"You had sex last night? Your not old enough to be doing that! Im going to kill Adam the fu-"

He got cut off from Morgan. "Are you eavesdropping on our conversation? YOU cant be doing that! This is my personal life I can do what I want! You have sex with basically 40 different girls a week there shouldn't be a difference for me!"

I just sat there while the two of them yelled at each other.

It has honestly been at least ten minutes and there still yelling at each other. I got up and walked out of the room going downstairs grabbing a water glad there parents are not here because I would of been kicked out for the way there acting. I sat down criss-crossed on the couch and went through my phone.

I has been about ten minutes and I could still hear them yelling at each other.

I walked back upstairs and it was just worse they were all up in each others faces yelling about every little thing they don't like about one another.

"Lexi! Tell Jake it is totally ok for me to have sex! It's not as if im doing twenty million girls a week like him!" Morgan yelled as soon as I entered the room.

"Sure I don't know. I mean it is your life." I said not really wanting to get pulled into that conversation.

"Ha! See! Now get out!" She yelled at him while pushing him out of her room.

After he was out she locked her door and sat back down on her bed by me.

"Can't bileive he acted that way it's not as if he doesn't sleep with girls. He was eavesdropping too. Wait, so who did you say took your v-card?"

Awkward...

"Uhh..." Was all I could get out.

"It wasn't Adam was it?" She asked starting to panic.

"NO! I would never do that to you."

"Well then who was it?"

"I really don't want to say. I'll just say he's on the football team. That all im saying."

"Drake?" She asked.

"No."

"Dylan?"

"No."

"Andy?"

"No."

"Josh?"

"No."

"WHO?" She yelled.

"Someone!"

"Your so difficult. Im going to go ask Jake for all the names of people on the football team." She said getting up.

I ran after her but she was already knocking on his bedroom door the 1st one down from her.

"What?" He asked her opening the door right when I got behind her.

"Whats all the football players names?" She asked.

"Why?"

"I'm trying to figure out who slept with Lexi last night." She said.

I cant believe she just said that.

He raised his eyebrows. "Why does that matter?"

"Your supposed to me answering my question not asking me one and because I want to know who took her v-card. Now whos all on the football tem?"

"He raised his eyebrows. "Why don't you just look on facebook?"

"Why didn't I think of that?" She yelled running downstairs to get what im assuming her phone or laptop.

"I seriously didn't take your virginity did I?" He asked smirking leaning against the door frame of his room.

"Yes you did... ok I don't want to talk about it. It was a mistake."

"How come you didn't tell Morgan it was me who slept with you? Why was it such a mistake?" He asked.

"First off I don't want to change anything between her and I because of a mistake. It's a mistake because it was with you. You sleep around with girls and it doesn't mean anything. I just gave up my virginity to a player that couldn't care less. That's why its a mistake."

I could see some guilt and sadness pass through his eyes before it quickly went away.

"You slept with my brother?" She yelled before stomping away.

"Exactly what I mean. I probably just lost my best friend. That's just fucking great." I said going after Morgan.

I tried to open the door but it was locked. Great.

"Morgan if you want me to leave your going to have to give me my keys and phone." I said through the door.

"You can walk home im not getting up to open the door."

"Whatever. Message me on facebook later when you want to talk." I said before going downstairs.

I didn't even notice how late it is. Its nine but since its winter it's really cold and dark out.

I put my boots on and stepped outside but when I went to shut the door Jake stopped me and stepped outside.

"I'll give you a ride home... if you want." He said.

"Thanks..." I said sitting in the passenger side of his car while he got in on the drivers side.

He started driving towards my house.

"Im sorry for having sex with you. I didn't know it would bring this much trouble to you. I'll tell Morgan the truth that you didn't want to."

"Thanks."

"Can you just answer my question?" He asked.

"What?"

"When Morgan said that cut by your eye was from your dad does he like... abuse you?"

"No... well sort of. Only when he's drunk it's either my mom or me but its fine everyone has problems..."

"No its not fine. You shouldn't have to go through that."

"Why does it matter? It's not like you have feelings for me..." I snapped.

"Your right i dont... where here." He said back to his regular cold self.

"Thanks." I said getting up and walking inside going upstairs to bed.

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This is my first book like this so I hope you enjoyed!

Xox.

- crazy_writer_2013