Georges pov
When I say I love him I don't mean a friendly love or a fling. I mean I want to spend the rest of my life with him type of love, marry him type of love, engrave my body into his heart and soul type of love. My emotions are a wreck it took more years to figure out I loved him. I dated both guys and girls during this time, but none of them filled my heart the way Dream does and I don't even have him. I want to go through the stages of grieve after a break-up I want him out of my mind for fucks sake. But he is all I think about.
I learned to hide my emotions and that shit hurt. When I first realized my feelings towards Dream I struggled with that fact. It seemed surreal. Most people don't fall in love with their straight best friends. But for some reason I did. And his friendly flirts didn't help either. Or at least I thought they were friendly. No he doesn't see you that way George. I stopped myself before I continued down that road. I went on to Tiktok to shake my mind from him but it didn't help that I saw him all over my fyp. I put my phone down and forced myself to sleep.
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I woke up the next day feeling a little better about my self. I pulled myself out of bed to see a text from Dream asking if he wanted to do Karl's stream today. I told him I didn't want to but he continued to beg. At one point I gave in from being tired of arguing. But the reality is I just wanted to see him beg. It's somewhat comforting to see him beg it shows he cares, I guess that's just what I need. I spent the day on my phone checking social media replying to tweets. The time had past to around 8 o'clock where I am and Dream asked to call. I took a deep breath and answered.
"Hey, what's up?" I asked.
"Nothing much I just wanted to make sure you slept well last night, you seemed really out of it." He asked caringly. I let out a small playful giggle causing me to become embarrassed and my cheeks to turn bright red like they always do with him.
"Oh, ya I slept really well thanks for asking," I said wanting to tell him everything in this moment for some reason more than ever. 'God your hot.' I thought I said in my mind, but I heard Dream get somewhat flustered from my words. 'Fuck' I thought to myself. How the hell am I supposed to save this.
"Wh-what" Dream said still caught of guard barely able to send the words out of his mouth. What do I do what do I do George thought to himself. Do I confess my love, no no do I tell him I want him to fuck me, eh maybe, no not now we are 'homies' George looks in disgust as the use of those words came out of his mouth, he wanted more.
"My soup. I spilt it its hot." Nice recovery I thought to myself hopefully he plays along.
"Oh uh" He clears his throat. "I thought you said something else." His voice still nervous. Did I fuck us up. I need to know.
" What did you think I said?" I tried saying in a silly tone but it ended up coming out as more of a demand.
Dreams pov
What the fuck just happened. My heart is literally beating so fast it's going to explode. No joke. Did he just say I was hot. Holy shit my dreams come true if he did. God maybe I'm just hearing things. Right I need to respond.
"Never mind, it was stupid I'm just deaf I suppose," I said trying to end the conversation there, I prayed George didn't continue on.
"What did you think I said?" He seemed eager and wanted the answer. I gave into telling him I mean how could I not. I would give him whatever he asked for. God I'm such a simp.
"It's stupid, but I just thought you said I was hot...." I regretted saying it right when the words trickled out of my mouth. But I can't stop to think did he? He whispered it as if saying it was like all he ever wanted but a punishment would come. It's hard to explain. But I just need to put it behind me and behave for Karl's stream not being to awkward but not being over the top either. God I knew this would be hard all I wanted was George and now I had a false hope that pushed my need for him deeper and deeper like a blade to the heart.
George pov
Great my soup trick didn't work and he knows I said it. I don't know what to do. Do I tell him I did? God I'm so stressed out. I love Dream in a way I didn't know was humanly possible, but if it meant risking his friendship was I willing to take it? I didn't think I was.
"Haha no I didn't" I said feeling guilty about lying but I thought it was for the best. Dream didn't respond for a few seconds before saying.
" I got to go get ready for Karl's stream." After saying that he abruptly hung up. I realized the time and there was still 3 hours before Karl's stream. I laid down in my bed sobbing at the thought I just ruined our friendship. Come on George pull yourself together... but as the word trickled out I knew this cry was long-awaited. Maybe I was letting my emotions out. Maybe I would be okay. After letting all my emotions out turned out I was crying all the way up tell Karl's stream. I got a text from Karl asking where I was. I lied and said my computer was being slow. I cleared my eyes and made myself more presentable even though they wouldn't see my face anyway. When I got on the stream had already started. Karl, Quackity, Sapnap, Tommy, and of course Dream where all there to greet me.
"Hey what's up Gogy!" Quackity said. Crouching down his Minecraft character right in front of me. I forced a laugh and put a fake face on for the remainder of the stream. I played along and didn't seem sus until I zoned out for a minute. I was really tired, my eyes still puffy from crying earlier. I sort of zoned back into to Dream saying:
"You there?" I said mhm still slightly zoned out from the rough day I had before. " I love you, Georgie!" Dream said teasingly.
I chuckled responding with only what I felt no thought in mind. "I love you too clay," I said it so straight forward so seriously to the point everyone was shocked. I prayed no one recognized the serious and want in my voice. For a moment before all the stress I felt comfortable like a weight was lifted. But I realized the silence in the air and remembered I just said that in front of 100,000 of people and his best friends. But also to his crush. The guy he truly did love. 'Fuck' I said in my mind. Finally someone breaking the silence.
"Someone clip that CLIP THAT!" Karl yelled. I realized he didn't take it to seriously. Sapnap and Quackity make side comments like "Dreamnotfound confirmed?" But the one who mattered most in this situation didn't speak a single word. He stayed silent for the next minute which felt like decades for George. Dream suddenly spoke.
"Um.. I- I have to go to the bathroom." Dream said sounding embarrassed. I had to get out of this call as soon as I could and talk to him.
Dream POV
What the fuck! Was he being serious? I know when George is being serious he uses my first name. I know when he is not playing and this felt like one of those moments. He gets serious when I go to far or overstep my boundaries. And it's running in my head like a non-stop playlist. He said 'I love you too Clay" He sounded like he meant it. I was freaking out over the fact my best friend said I love you and also the fact that my crush said it too. He slid down the walls of his bathroom floor and stayed there for hours. Missing all the calls from Karl, Sapnap, and George. After realizing that he was sitting there a while he got up to go back to the stream to realize it ended an hour ago. And George had called him 10 times in the past hour. He ignored the messages from Sap and Karl. Only focusing on the cute brown-haired boy's number. Dream was about to call him when George beat him to it.
"The silence at the beginning of the call was louder than them actually speaking to one another.
" Hey are you ok?" George asked worried. "You just kind of left really fast and just never came back.? George's voice calmed Dream as he talked. But when he stopped a rage took over him.
WHAT THE FUCK GEORGE?!" Dream yelled. George somewhat taken back by the yelling he was doing responded in a way that upset Dream more.
"Are you mad at me? George asked really confused and scared by the yelling dream had just done. Dream recognized his scared voice and quieted it for him.
"What the hell where you thinking George. Just springing it on me like that." Dream said completely decided that George meant his I love you romantically and not friendly.
" What do you mean?? you do that all the time to me. Today and last night you say you love me all the time. I thought it was funny to say it back for once." Which is a lie on Georges part. He meant it but he couldn't tell Dream that.
" So you think it would be funny to play with me like that?? George... don't you get it!!" George still confused on what he is talking about. " I like you... like more than friends. But you see right past me. You don't notice me, do you?"
Authors notes:
Hey! Thank you again for reading this! Just wanted to let you know the next chapter has some TW in it. Just wanted to give you guys a heads up, but there are also warnings when it starts and ends. If I miss any at all during this writing please let me know. Thank you!