Dream POV
I just fucked everything up. Why would I do that? I got caught in the moment and he is so upset. I just kissed him and walked out. I didn't even let him speak. He told me how much I meant to him and how he was feeling and my first thought was to kiss him? I'm so stupid. I have hurt him more than I ever did in the past few months. I still believe I'm bad for him, but no matter what I do I hurt him. And all I want is for him to be happy.
"Sapnap? Sapnap please wake up." I shook Sapnap slightly, and he groaned a little before turning to face me.
"Dream? What's wrong?" He was a little groggy but I needed to talk to him.
"Sapnap, I messed things up again."
"What happened."
" I decided to stream like maybe two hours ago and then I woke up George so now people know he is here and he hung out on the stream for a while-"
"Wait people know George is here?" I nodded my head.
"Ya but that's not the worst part. After the stream ended we sat down and talked and he was telling me why he was leaving and about his feelings, and then well I- I kissed him." I ranted on but the last part still didn't seem real yet.
"Well what's wrong with that?"
"Sapnap?! Everything is wrong with that?"
"Like what?" I thought about it. To me everything about it was wrong. I kissed him when I shouldn't of. That just ruined everything.
"I kissed him Sap."
"Well did he pull away, did he get angry at you?"
"No, I ran away. I didn't give him time to respond." I sighed and laid down next to him. A part of me wants to know what he felt. Was he mad? At first he didn't kiss back. But right before I pulled away he did. I just don't understand.
"Dream, you need to talk to him again. You guys got somewhere tonight. You need to keep going before he leaves. You need to convince him not to leave."
"How do I do that? He doesn't even like me anymore."
"God you're so naïve." I didn't respond and just sat for a moment. I was trying to go back to bed, but I couldn't. Sapnap seemed to be up too.
"Why'd you do it? Why did you ghost George?" Sapnap spoke up and I wasn't sure what to say? I knew why, but I didn't really know how to put it into words.
"I let him go because I caused him pain in this world, and I couldn't bare to stay and watch him crumble apart."
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I woke up around 8 AM to Sapnap jumping on top of me. He did this yesterday and if he did it again I told him I would murder him.
"Sapnap, I swear to god get you ass back in here!"
"Language!" I heard Bad call from downstairs. I forgot he was here and decided to go see him.
"Bad, how are you?" I walk downstairs and am greeted by a hug. I gracefully accept and hug him back.
"I'm doing great. I'm making homemade muffins for breakfast which should be ready in about 10 minutes. How are you?"
"I'm ok I suppose" I give him a soft smile and he gives me one too.
"Do you know where George is? We fell asleep last night, but I'm not sure where he is?"
"Ya I think I do. Probably in my office." He most likely went to sleep there. Contemplating weather to book an earlier flight or not.
"Can you go grab him for me? Sapnap over here doesn't understand how to wake someone up nicely." Bad gave Sapnap the eye. Sapnap rolled his eyes before continuing what he was doing.
I didn't really want to see George right now. Not after this morning. Only a few hours ago I kissed him. Now I have to act like it didn't happen.
I take my time heading up the stairs and into the room. He is asleep on the couch with the blanket he brought in last night. He is peaceful and looks happy. No expression on his face other than a small grin. Hopefully he was having a good dream. I just hate having to bring him back to this world. I walk over to him. I really didn't want to wake him. He was peaceful. I knew when he woke up we would go back to being awkward like the day before. But he needed to wake up. I needed time to convince him not to leave. I didn't have a plan for it, just hope he loved me enough to stay.
"George, George it's time to wake up." I say in a low soft voice. I wiggle his shoulder a little and he lets out a small groan.
"Come on George it's time to get up." I raised my voice a little more sitting down by his feet. He groans some more before his eyes flutter open.
"10 more minutes" He says before closing his eyes once again.
"George, Bad is making muffins for us."
"5 more minutes" I find it cute how he is trying to compromise how much longer he gets to sleep.
"Fine 5 more minutes." I started walking out the door.
"No come cuddle with me" His voice was low but I could hear it.
"What? George?" Before he answered I could hear soft snores coming from him again. I walk out of the room. Confused. He wanted to cuddle? So he doesn't absolutely hate me? No, he was half asleep he didn't mean it. I gave him a few more minutes before I went back in there.
"George lets wake up, it's been 5 minutes." My voice was a little stronger than earlier. He groaned again turning on his back to face me.
"I'm tired"
"I know but Bad made muffins and they are ready." He sat up a little.
"Really?"
"Yes come on lets go." I put my hand out for him to grab it but quickly pulled it back. Hopefully he didn't see me do it. He sat up and stretched before I left the room. He walked down the stairs a few seconds after I did. The muffins were still in the oven.
"You lied, there aren't any muffins." He had a pout on his face and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"They will be ready in 5 minutes."
"So I can go back to sleep tell then?" George slowly started creeping towards the stairs.
"No" Me and Sapnap said at the same time. George started running towards the stairs and I went after him. I caught up to him just as he was heading up the stairs and pulled him back down. I had my hands rapped around his waist and his hands laid on my arm. His back was on my chest and his head laid in the crook of my neck. Giggles escaped his mouth and I couldn't help but let some out myself.
"No, stop let me go! Dreammm!" George cried in-between his laughs.
I spun him around as I pulled him closer to the kitchen. I put him down and he turned around to face me giggles still escaping from both of us. His face was inches away from mine and I still held his waist his hand laid on my chest. When we both realized the position we were in I let go of him and both of our cheeks turned bright red. We walked into the kitchen again. Sapnap trying to hold in his laughs and bad just sat in awe of us two. I rolled my eyes.
"Bad I think the muffins are ready." George was sitting down facing the wall away from me. I didn't know what that was or why I did it. But I loved it.
George POV
The butterflies in my stomach were through the roof. Everything that has happened in the last few hours has been driving me crazy. After the kiss I thought about things. The reality is I should still go home. Dream didn't want me here for two months. Now that I'm here why would that change? He kicked me to the curb then, he can't just go back. I shouldn't just forgive him no matter how much I want to it's not right.
But that doesn't mean I couldn't enjoy these moments right? I don't know what the future holds. But I have a feeling it doesn't have Dream.
When the muffins came out I couldn't wait to get my hands on one. I was hungry and always heard good things about Bads muffins.
"George let them cool, you are going to burn your tongue." Bad said trying to take the muffin from me. I didn't allow it. I bit into it and spit it out right away. The roof of my mouth was burnt.
"Did you burn your tongue?" Sapnap asked. He had a hint of babying in his voice. I rolled my eyes and nodded. He chuckled then pulled one out for himself. He bit into it to doing almost the exact same thing I did.
"God, both of you are so stupid." Dream was laughing at us both and I couldn't help but smile. His laugh was so contagious. After a few minutes I started eating the muffin again and Dream and Bad both grabbed one. I let out a delighted moan at the taste.
"Bad this is delicious!" I quickly finished this one and took another one out before anyone else had even finished their first. I didn't care I was hungry and these were delicious.
"Thank you! I can make them again tomorrow if you would like?" Bad realized what he said and the smile on his face dropped. Mine did too. I was sad I didn't get to spend time with them anymore. I was mad at Dream, but not Bad and Sapnap. After that it was silent. I finished my muffin and went upstairs to get ready for the day.
I took a shower and got changed. I brushed my teeth and hair and walked downstairs. Sapnap and Dream were watching some sort of sport I wasn't all that interested into. But I decided to sit down with them anyways. Sapnap was in the corner and Dream was next to him so I didn't really have any other choice other than to sit next to Dream.
I sat a good amount away from him. He smiled at me before turning his attention back to the game.
"What are we watching?" I ask.
"Shhh" Sapnap says to me not even looking at me. I roll my eyes and sit and watch with them. I couldn't help but laugh a few times. I found American football to be funny. What is the point? They just ran for about 3 seconds then got tackled to the ground. Then spent the next 40 seconds getting back into place. They also got so worked up over stupid stuff. Arguing over the calls. Each time I laughed both boys would give me a death stare and I would shut up. They must of been serious about their sports. Finally commercials come around and they actually talk to me.
"When is your flight George?" Sapnap asked me and Dream looked away.
"Um 6 PM" I smile and try to move on.
"George please don't leave. We have Bad here and I really want to hang out with you just please don't go." Sapnap pleaded. I felt bad leaving. I didn't want to lose my friends. I wanted to stay and be in person with them. In London the only person I have is my Mom. But here I have people. People who get me and understand me. People who love me. But I really did need to move on. Seeing him here is taunting me so much. Dream is like putting a drug in front of a drug addict. I want him so bad, but he isn't good for me. I want him so bad, but if I get him how do I know he won't hurt me again? What if he hurts me worse?
"Sapnap, I can't stay here." Dream already knew so I might as well be honest with him. "It hurts me to much. I'm sorry." I felt awful. I could see the hurt in Saps face. I just wanted to be ok. I just wanted to go home. I still had around 8 hours tell my flight. I decided to go find Bad and hang out with him.
He was in the office at the moment. Dream didn't have any other spare bedrooms so this is probably were he would of slept if I stayed.
Knock Knock
"hey Bad" He was on the phone with someone so I was about to walk out.
"Hold on Skeppy. You can stay in here I was almost done talking with him anyways.""Skeppy I need to go. I will talk to you later! Bye muffin!"
"What's up George?"
"I guess I just want to talk about stuff?" I slowly walked over to the bed and Bad patted the seat next to him.
"What is it?"
"Dream again. So last night I woke up to Dream yelling and I went to check on him and he was streaming. And now everyone knows I am here in Florida with him. Then I took over his stream and I kept getting flustered by little comments he was making and I couldn't help it. Then after we streamed we sat and talked and I told him why I was leaving and ranted on about my feelings, then he kissed me. And he just ran out after. He didn't let me respond. Or kiss back. I want him so bad. I need him in my life. I lost my partner and my best friend at the same time. All the years of our friendship went away. I just don't know what to do."
"I know it's hard now, but may I be honest?" I nod my head.
"Running from your emotions doesn't solve them. There always going to be there good or bad. They won't leave until you deal with them. This pain, isn't just going to disappear because you did."
"What do you suggest I do then?"
"It's not up to me George, you have to decide what that means." I put my head in his lap and he ran his fingers through my hair. What did he mean? I'm not running. I'm pushing it aside. I'm letting go. That's right. I'm not running from them. Just distancing myself. Feelings fuck up the brain. I'm just keeping mine safe. I felt comfortable. I slowly felt my eyes get heavy and fall asleep.
Hey!! So this is the last chapter I will probably release by itself. I'm going to prewrite the next few chapters so it comes out all together. They will be shorter than the normal ones. I think I will go with the first option ending, but will extend it a few extra chapters. It depends how much writing I do tonight if it will come out tonight, tomorrow or the next day. But I will probably write another 3-4 chapters and an ending if I end it there or if I do a sequel then I won't. Not sure what I will do yet though still thinking. I'm also writing another story which will probably be my next one I release. It will be a lot shorter than this one is but I need to see if I get motivated to write or not. Have a good night/day!