「♥️」

i clutched my shirt where my heart is as i walked away from youngjae.

my heart hurts.

why did i say those things when i know i didn't mean it?

but he agreed so he must not like me.

i shouldn't like him either.

he obviously really likes girls and i'm not one.

i can't do that. i can't compete with a girl.

i don't think i can compete with anyone really.

i'm obviously not youngjae's type.

i never will be.

i felt my throat starting to close.

it really felt like i couldn't breathe.

"juyeon...you okay?"

i shake my head no.

"why? what's wrong?"

i broke down into tears.

why wouldn't anyone like me back?

— 18:20pm ; 05-27-20