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„So what do you want to know?", I asked Stiles. The past hour we drove around Beacon hills and he showed me every good place to eat. Then we finally decided to get some food at a dinner.

"Well", he began to speak after taking a sip of his coke,"Damon has a brother named Stephan and you didn't like them, but also don't hate him". I nodded.

"Then there is this Klaus, who turned you, and his whole family. Why do you like him so much? I mean he saved your life, but that's not a reason to kill for someone", Stiles continued.

I smiled nostalgically:"Niklaus was the first person, who looked at me like I was worth looking at. Before I had my emotions turned off, he was the only one, who was able to calm me down. I don't know why we have this connection, but it feels like I've already met him in a past life or something like that".

"Worth looking at?", Stiles questioned me,"Jolene you're such a great person. Everyone should look at you like that".

"But not everyone did", I answered with a hint of sadness,"No one actually. Not even my 'best friends'".

"Hey it's fine. You have us now", the human smiled and stroked my shoulder. Then he grabbed a hand full of curly fries and put all of them in his mouth. But it was way too many fries, so some of them fell out again, making me giggle.

"Anyways", he said after swallowing all of these fries,"Klaus has family? What about them?".

"He has a few siblings. Rebekah is a really good friend of mine. I admire Elijah for his honesty and loyalty. They are my favorites of his family, but they could never replace Klaus", I answered smiling and took a bite of my burger.

"Why did you leave them?", Stiles said,"Even though you love them".

"Love?", I laughed,"I don't know what love is. I left so I could start fresh. Live a life without supernatural drama and find something to live for, something different than just the ones, that saved me".

"Sounds like you didn't find what you were looking for", Stiles laughed still eating his fries.

"No", I shook my head,"I found everything I wanted, but didn't know back then".

Stiles didn't answer this time. He just stared at me, making me speak up:"Why are you staring at me like that?".

"You're a Person everyone should admire", Stiles said,"And that's exactly what I'm doing. You went through so much pain in your life and you still get up every day. I don't know if I could do that".

"Thank you", I said shortly and turned away to look in the distance, hoping that Stiles wouldn't see the tears forming in my eyes. No one ever told me something like that.

"Do you love Lydia?", I asked to change the subject.

"What?!", Stiles said pretty loudly,"No". I gave him a 'you're lying look'.

"Okay maybe I have a crush on her since first grade", he chuckled, making me giggle,"But now admit that you like Derek".

"I don't know", I answered,"I have no clue. It's different with him".

"Different?", Stiles asked.

I exhaled, but before I spoke up, I heard something, making me close my mouth again. I gave Stiles a sign to be quiet. I got out of my car quietly. There was a smell in the air. Werewolf, but Someone that I didn't know. Then I smelled blood.

Blood dripped on the floor. I got closer and it dripped on my hand. I quickly looked up to see, what was hanging on the tree.

"Stiles?!", I screamed,"Call Derek right now! And then Scott".

"Oh fuck", Stiles said when he was next to me and saw the corpse.

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"What happened?!", Derek shouted as he was walking towards us. I stepped in front of him, covering what Stiles and I just found.

I put my hands on his shoulders in a comforting way and said, staring him in the eyes:"Please stay calm. I know this will hurt you".

"What is it Jolene?", Derek answered excited, but still calm.

"Boyd is dead", I stepped by side, so the alpha would see the dead body,"I'm so sorry".

"No!", he howled and sank to his knees next to his dead beta. Wolves always had a certain loyalty and family thing in their pack. So when someone died, they felt grief and wanted revenge.

"Who killed him!", Derek screamed and stood in front of Stiles within seconds. He had already turned into a wolf. Stiles stepped back with fear in his face.

"There was a letter", I explained and moved to Derek and Stiles, so I could keep them apart,"It says: we are here. I guess it's from the alpha pack".

"I'll kill them!", Derek screamed and moved even closer to Stiles,"All of them!". He wanted revenge. His whole body was shaking from adrenaline. I could tell, that he wanted to attack someone and Derek was dangerously close to Stiles. I stepped between them and grabbed the alpha at his shoulders.

Then Scott pulled over and ran towards us. I turned to him:"Finally. Get Stiles and drive him home! Just get away from here. I don't know how long I can hold Derek".

"Can you handle him?", Scott asked and pointed to the aggressive alpha in front of me.

"Yeah just go", I answered and they finally left. I looked back to Derek. He was still turned to his werewolf form. The alpha watched the two boys leave, while I held him, so he wouldn't run after them and attack them.

"Derek please", I said calmly,"Calm down. You can let it all out, when we have the alpha pack".

He stared at me for a bit and then spoke up:"I can't".

"Yes you can", I answered. He shook his head.

"No!", Derek hissed, while he was starting to get more aggressive with every second I held him captive,"Move! Get away from me!". Within seconds he pushed me away and I landed on the ground, looking up to him.

"I won't leave you alone you fucking idiot", I spat and stood back up.

"Go!", he screamed and stepped back with every step that I moved closer to him,"I don't know how long I can control it".

"I don't care", I answered and opened my arms.

"You know I can kill you!", Derek threatened loud and finally moved closer to me.

"You wouldn't do that", I screamed and stepped forward.

"Oh I would", the alpha answered showing me his fangs,"I have so much anger in me. I would kill everyone, who's in my way right now".

"But not me", I quickly said and wrapped my arms around his muscular body, that seemed to be so fragile right now. Our bodies touched and my heart stopped beating for a moment, waiting to see if he would bite me.

"I trust you Derek", I whispered with fear in my shaking voice, but still I meant everything I said. My body was tense. Derek was in control, if I would die tonight.