—

"Wait. I'll give you something dry so you can change".

He moved to his wardrobe and pulled out a flannel of his and blushed:"I don't think I have some fitting pants".

"No it's great", I smiled and took the flannel,"Thank you Stiles".

"I'll turn around!", he chuckled and turned his back on me. Stiles even covered his eyes.

Somehow he made me giggle and my heart beat a tiny bit faster. I took all of the wet clothes off, except my underwear and pulled on his warm and cozy flannel, that covered my body easily right to my bottom.

"Done", I smiled and sat down on his bed.

Stiles looked me up and down:"Looking good". We both chuckled.

"Well", I spoke up and looked at him,"It changed because somehow I feel like my feelings are slowly crawling back in and it's annoying. I'm at war with my own head, because these emotions won't shut up".

Stiles smiled:"That's why you're behaving differently, than when you're with the other members of the pack". I nodded.

"Why don't you just turn it on?", he asked,"If it's that annoying".

"Because-", I started, but somehow I didn't know what to say.

"I remember a girl, who used to say feeling is better than feeling nothing at all", Stiles said with a smile on his lips. I thought back. That's what I used to say.

"If I would turn it on, it would destroy me", I shook my head, thinking about that.

"You're not alone", he answered immediately.

"I am alone", I snapped back,"Niklaus doesn't want me anymore and the pack moved on ever since the day that Derek died!".

Stiles didn't say a word, which was awkward. And I wasn't able to read his mind, because of the vervain bracelet I once gave him. If he had to say something he should say it to my face.

I sank onto the mattress and my head rested in the pillows. I was staring at the ceiling. Did I say something wrong?

"You can stay if you want to", Stiles said and laid down too, but he turned his back on me.

I did something wrong. But why was it bothering me? I mean my humanity is turned off. Why are these stupid feelings always crawling back to me?! Is it too much to ask for to just feel nothing?

"I'm sorry", I said after quiet awhile. I didn't know if Stiles was still awake.

He was. I realized, when he turned back to me and glared at me, whispering:"There's nothing to feel sorry about".

Stiles caressed my cheek. Then he pulled his hand back and closed his eyes to sleep. I turned around too and closed my eyes, trying to sleep. But my mind was going crazy. Eventually I feel into a dreamless sleep.

—

"We have a problem!", I heard Stiles voice through the house calling for me. I quickly got downstairs and saw the whole pack. Good thing I had already changed.

"What is she doing here?", Malia hissed.

"It doesn't matter", Scott told her,"We have bigger problems".

"What is it?", I asked and moved to the table. Stiles handed me a paper with names and numbers on them.

Scott McCall 25
Derek Hale 20
Isaac Lahey 11
Liam Dunbar 18
Malia Tate 4
Jolene Diaz 30
Deucalion 25
Lydia Martin 20
(and others Jolene didn't know or remembered)

"What does that mean?", Lydia asked,"Why is my name on there? I'm not even supernatural".

"Where did you get that?", I hissed quickly and took the paper in my hands. I stared at Derek's name for a moment. It was underlined in red, just like Deucalion.

"The underlined one's are already dead", Liam just said without caring,"Scott said that they died".

"Yes they did", I spat and gave him a death stare,"Don't talk about them, when you have no clue, kiddo". He lowered his gaze. I guess Liam understood.

"I found it", Lydia explained and added with an embarrassed look,"When I was ... sleepwalking".

"It's a hit list", I said,"The number is the amount of money you get if they die".

"Four isn't a lot", Malia shrugged.

"It's in millions", I corrected, making everyone stare at me with wide eyes.

"I guess they still owe me 25 million dollars then", I laughed, but no one got the joke.

"You killed Deucalion?!", Liam gasped. I nodded awkwardly.

"Why is my name on there?!", Lydia said again.

"She is human", Allison quickly hissed, before I was able to answer Lydia.

I stepped to Lydia with my hand almost touching her arm:"May I?". She agreed.

I touched her skin. My eyes rolled back and I had visions. She was the one, who freed Peter and she decoded the hit list.

Suddenly Lydia screamed, making me take my hand back. Her scream was so loud, it hurt my ears.

"What just happened?!", Lydia started to freak out after she was back to normal.

"You're a banshee", I explained,"Peter knew. He forced you to get him back from the death and you didn't sleepwalk. You decoded the hit list".

"What?!", she said with a breaking voice. Allison was way to shocked, about the fact that even her best friend wasn't human. Just like everyone else. They forgot about Lydia.

So I had to step in and give her a hug. I mean we even used to be friends didn't we? I whispered in her ear:"It's going to be fine". A calming spell made her feel better again.

"What are we going to do now?", Isaac asked and his gaze wandered between me, Scott and Stiles.

"Find out who set up this list", Stiles said.

"And then?", the beta answered.

"Kill them", I smirked, making Scott stare at me.

"No we will talk to them", he corrected me,"They have to take this list down or there are going to be people after us within a few weeks maybe".

"Or days", Stiles said,"You two are worth over 50 million bucks".

Lydia swallowed hard and Liam looked like he was going to throw up. But Malia just said with a smile on her lips:"So I'm going to be the last one they take. Great".

"What?!", Allison laughed as if she didn't hear correctly. But Malia just repeated her sentence, making us all laugh.

"Don't worry guys", I said finally,"We're going to be fine. No one can take Scott and me down easily".

"And I...", Scott said, but quickly looked at me and continued,"we will keep you safe Lydia".

The redhead smiled back and I gave Scott a short smile too. Looks like not everybody hated me.

Suddenly the doorbell rang and Lydia spoke up:"Oh that must be Aiden. He has to know about the list too".

„Aiden?", I asked and looked over to Scott.

But he wasn't able to answer me, because someone jumped at me and slammed my back into the wall.

My head hurt and I struggled to open my eyes to see, who attacked me. It was Aiden. He was weaker than ever since I killed his brother, not even an alpha. He had to be in Scotts pack. I could feel it.

He was threatening me with his claws against my throat. He also turned to his wolf form. Aiden was going to regret that.

I showed him my hybrid face and he flinched. I could tell he still had Trauma about me killing his twin brother.

"You certainly have a death wish", I hissed,"Just like your brother".

Then I jumped at him with all of my force. I ended up on top of him, freeing myself from his grip at my throat by punching him in the face.

Before I was able to rip him into pieces, someone wrapped his arms around my body from behind and pulled me away from Aiden. By the smell I could tell it was Scott.

Lydia quickly kneeled down to Aiden, who seemed to be her lover, but he got up again, trying to attack me. Scott howled at him, making Aiden tremble backwards and turn to his human form.

"Let me go!", I spat and tried to shrug Scott off, but he was strong.

"Calm down!", he answered, only holding onto me tighter. Stiles stepped in front of me, but I didn't even let him speak.

"I said: Let. Me. Go", I shouted and used my magic powers to get Scott away from me. He flew across the living room.

Then I jumped back at Aiden. He triggered the vampire in me, who's a killer. I wanted him dead.

"Stop!", Lydia screamed. Just when I was about to sink my fangs into the shocked werewolfs skin, Malia and Liam each grabbed one arm of me. Isaac pulled me back at my shoulders. The three pinned me against the wall.

"Why do you want to kill him so bad?", Scott said, still breathless from my spell.

"Because he fucking ruined my life!", I screamed. Before Scott answered, I shrugged his betas away and took a step closer to him.

"No it's alright", he tried to calm me down.

"You have no fucking idea Scotty boy!", I shouted,"The alpha pack is responsible for Derek's death, me losing all of my just made friends and turning off my humanity, which all made me turn into a monster".

All of them stared at me with a shocked face. Did I just say that out loud?