I really love the feeling of being in an English Summer/Winter Camp. The happiness I feel is different. I always have fun with the students and teachers. Though at times there are conflicts but whenever I think I have these people around me for just a month is unforgettable and priceless. It amazed me how they make me laugh. I seem to forget all the problems I have. But when the camp is about to end, I have this feeling that is soo heavy. It's as if someone I dearly love has died. It always hurts me to say goodbye to my students (teachers also). Even if I learned how to avoid getting attached to them but the thought that they are with me for a month; we laugh together; we share various stories; and we learn from each other at the same time. These moments are hard to forget and will stay in my mind and heart for a long time. There are times when I'm alone and all I can do is to reminisce the memories I have with them. I know that it's easy for the kids to forget them and also the teachers. I think what's important is they come into my life and they are part of my teaching life. Nothing could ever stop the painful feeling I have of losing them. It would be hard to see them again. Chances are I won't be able to see them again. They might be out of my sight and far from my reach but they are in my heart and they will never be forgotten. I may forget their names as the years go by but never their faces. They may be grown-ups in the future and there are a wee bit physical changes but the heart will always recognize them. I love all of them! I treasure them so long as I'm breathing.
I've been to a camp for four times. I started with Summer Camp 2014. I can still remember how I cried when my favorite student Sam went back to Korea. I was all smile in front of him but when he really was out of my sight, I burst out crying. I cried so hard! You can't blame me cus it was my first teaching experience and I got attached to him easily. Actually, I got along with my students. However, Sam is special and like a brother to me; the same with Gyung Tae. GT hugged me on his last day and we strolled holding each other's hand. They are my first important students of mine.
The camp is good for a month and not a stable job but the happiness I feel is satisfying. I don't mind how temporary it is. I always want to go back but lately, I have thought a lot about it. I want a stable job now. Even though nothing could ever equal the happiness I feel in the camp. No matter how introverted I am, they make me feel like I belong to them. The stay-in teachers talk to me all the time. (Set aside their teasing and making fun of me. Ahahaha.) I appreciate being with people during the camp. Yunno, how I love to be alone all the time. I love my own company. I never thought that being with people is better than being alone. I will miss my wonderful life in the camp. I will miss the teachers cus I learn to reach out! ^.^ I think I talked to all of them even for a short time. Ahhhh, I always miss the campI'm looking forward to it but I need to give it up! ㅠ.ㅠ
Thank you very mucho and I love you soo mucho guys! :* ♥♥♥
Yuchae Moon
August 28, 2016