dear diary

the first day of school wasnt how i imagined. i expected everyone to be nice, you would have thought i learned my lesson of not to expect everyone to be nice from my experience in the lab. i think peter would have enjoyed it though. he would have played around with his powers. making people see things to scare them especially the teachers. i just wish he was here to see it. but he sadly isnt and never will be.

i had to stop there as tears were starting to well in my eyes. i closed them to make the tears go away but when i opened my eyes i saw the ink on the page running down the page.

what this cant me real?

i rubbed my eyes but it made it worse. the ink was now forming words which read. "it's your fault". i grabbed the diary and launched it across the room.

"i need to clear my head". I always whispered to myself when I was stressed it was like speaking to a friend that could help. i got up, put my small cardigan on and headed downstairs. i checked to see if the coast was clear and headed out after putting my shoes on.

i had been walking for ages now. i was going down a long road which was at least a mile or two long. it absolutely stank of cow shit. i calmly listened to the sound of the leaves crunching beneath my feet and the trees dancing in the wind. suddenly the calmness was interrupted by the sound of tires screeching. i saw the headlight of a van shine into my eyes. they were obviously speeding and kept on almost losing control of the vehicle. "eddie?" i could see his van properly now. he came to a halt next to me.

he leans over to open the door. "Does dustin know you're out this late?" his speach was slightly slurred but what I could point out the most was he had this tone in his voice as if I had just interfered with his plans. i shook my head with a shiver. "get in" was all he said. "no honestly its fine i needed to clear my head any-."

"get in the goddamn van otherwise dustin will be mad knowing that i left you out here".

"fine"

i climbed into the van and sat on the warmish seat. on the way home he was blasting a song which i couldnt lie. it was pretty good. i didn't notice i was slightly nodding to the song. "i didnt take you to be the type of person to like Metallica"

"who" i turned to look at him.

"the people who made this song" he points at the radio and turns the volume up even more almost blowing the speakers. I could feel my sweet slightly vibrate beneath me.

"so why did you need to clear your mind?" he asked making sure to keep his eyes on the road.

"just stupid things. Like nightmares and well it's hard to explain" I let out a sigh. "go ahead I like a challenge"

"have you ever felt like your losing your mind" he chuckled. "you know chrissy asked me the exact same thing the other day. But yeah I know what you mean"

"here i think i might have something that will calm you down" he reaches to his pocket and pulls out something that looks like a cigarette but much thicker. "a cigarette?" he turns to me in shock which tells me its not what i thought it was. "its mary jane baby" he says with excitement. but his mood is soon crushed by my dumbness.

"its a drug" he simplifies.

"oohhh, so what does it do"

he explains everything to me and tells me about a few other things that he had back at his trailer.

he lights it taking the first few drags which seem really unpleasant. then it was soon my turn. i couldnt help but cough when breathing in. but after a while i got used to it. feeling calmed almost instantly. it was an amazing but sickening feeling at the same time.

He takes a turn which I know for a fact didn't lead home and wasn't a shortcut either. "where are you going this isn't the way home"

He looks to me and smirks. "I know but we are taking a little...detour" he says making a sharp left causing me to lean to the right. "where are we going then?" i asked once I had stabalised myself.

He hit the breaks causing me to almost go into the dashboard. "this is Jason's. I sit out here at night until Jason has had enough of my so called terrible music and he comes out here to try and fight. I then drive away with a huge smile on my face"

"why would you do that though?" he scoffs at my question. "he has bullied me since I can remember so this is my payback" I smile at him. "I can't lie that is smart. He can never get close to you because"

"I can drive away" he says proudly finishing my sentence.

He reaches over and turns up the volume and almost instantly a window opens and Jason is shouting out of it. "hey dick face. SHUT UP!!" eddie just laughs at this. Jason then closes his window and before we know it he's running out of the door towards us with a bat. "shit Eddie drive, EDDIE DRIVE"

He pushes the pedal to the ground the force making us both slam our backs on our chairs. The mix of Jason shouting, tires screeching and mine and Eddies laughter brought me a type of happiness I hadn't experienced since I was with Peter.

Oh god Peter. It wasnt like I wanted to forget about him it was just the sadness that came with the memories.

We stopped about 6 meters away from my house so Dustin didn't see Eddies van parked outside. we made our way to the front door the only sound being our giggles and Eddie's feet dragging on the floor. I juggled the handle but it was locked. "shit mom must think im asleep in my room" my words came out more like a mumble than anything. "here look" eddie was around the side of the house. "the kitchen window is open lets climb through there" i went first almost landing on a pile of pots. but before i could warn eddie he climbs through falling straight onto the pots and pans. "fuck" he says causing me to laugh.

suddenly the light was switched on. "Where the fuck have you been 004" my eyes widen at what dustin just said. he then soon notices. "004, d-dustin did you just call y/n, 004?" he laughs. "its a nickname" he tries to lie but there was one thing i learnt about dustin these past 4 weeks was that he was awful at lying. "wait a minute" he pushes himself up from the ground. "does this have something to do with what happened in class today?"

"fuck sake dustin" i take off my cardigan throwing it on to the side. he then facepalmed himself. "what!?"

"you have a tattoo" i turned to eddie who was practically going through the 7 stages of grief. Jumping about in the middle of the kitchen like a headless chicken.

"you know what i might as well show him at this point" i lift eddie into the air and move him around. "y/n i think i smoked a bit too much weed"

"YOU WHAT" dustin throws his hands into the air. i lowered eddie back to the ground. "you are so lucky mom is out with karen" i just let out a sigh and turn back to eddie who was kissing the ground. "he can stay here tonight" i say taking my shoes off and going to lay on the couch. today can just go and fuck itself.

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i kept on running and running from the voice but no matter how far i went it sounded as if it was right next to me. i ran into the rainbow room. "its all your fault y/n". "or should i say 004". i back up towards a wall but trip over a toy and fall into a hole. "shit shit shit" i try to climb out.

i suddenly sit up. i was still laid on the couch. dustin was sat in moms chair. i looked around for eddie. "jesus fucking christ, you almost gave me a heart attack" he was sat in the dark part of the room leant against the wall half asleep. "um are you ok?" he asks. "oh y-yeah" i say wiping away the cold sweat. "sure".

i look at the watch on my wrist. "DUSTIN GET UP WE ARE LATE" i jump up and run upstairs to grab mine and dustins bags. "HURRY" i shout walking back downstairs.

"this is not the impression I want to have at the new school" I sat in the front of the van using the small mirror above me to sort out my hair.

once we arrived at school the hallways were empty. "shit" i hand dustin his sandwich and grab another out of my bag for eddie. "why me?"

"i dont know i was in a rush and accidentally made an extra hope you like it" i run off and head to my class.

It wasn't a surprise that I got told off for being late but the teacher said that all i had to do to make up for it was go and speak to miss Kelly at break so I can explain to her why I was late. I didn't mind it was better than having a detention or a meeting with mom.

ok i hope you guys are liking the story so far. i think i might make a different one well two one with eddie x reader then another one with 001/peter/henry/vecna. so please let me know what you want. anyway, have a nice evening bye.