today was my first test with peter alone. i got up and got dressed into my clothes for today. i picked up peters book which he accidentally left in my room yesterday after giving me a reading lesson. i opened my door and was met by papa and two guards. the hallway looked completely different to the one upstairs. it must be a different floor. as i was walking with papa and the guards memories suddenly flood into my mind. 

1979 Hawkins lab February 8th

"henry come back papa might catch you." suddenly there was a shout. "help Y/N HELP" i ran around the corner to see a boy being lifted into the air by what looked like a slightly younger papa. he was laughing along with the boy who was now being tickled by papa. papa then put the boy down. "ill count again but this will be the last time...1...2" the boy ran up to me and took my hand. "quick follow me"

1986 Hawkins lab

i was snapped out of my trance by papa shaking me. "are you feeling okay 004" i just nod not knowing what just happened. we arrived at the room and when we walked in it was basically empty. the only thing inside was a board and a small sofa. "please take a seat 004" papa says. i sit on the sofa just then peter walks in and sees his book next to me and his face drops. why was he so sad about me bringing his book. "right 004 we have discovered some new powers of yours. the first is mind control and the second one we have never seen before, you can project your feelings into others minds." "all your siblings recalled seeing the same thing when you where using your powers the other day" peter says. "you have two hours" papa and the two guards left the room. 

"how are you feeling 004" peter says walking up to me. i didnt answer i was just confused on why he was so angry about me bringing his book for him. "dont ignore me its rude" he says grabbing my jaw making me face him. oh.my.god. i couldnt help but look down just for a millisecond. when i looked back up he was confused. "what was that?" i tried to play dumb and replied with "what?" obviously i wasnt subtle enough. he let go of my chin and walked over to the whiteboard. as his back was turned i looked around the room. it was so empty. no cameras. no mirrors that papa stood behind and watched us through. it was a private room. i looked back over to the board and saw that peter had written a plan on it. today we where practicing with my mood power whatever that was. 

he walked over and sat on the floor with his legs crossed. "here please sit" i walked over and sat with him. "i want you to think of a core memory whether it be sad, happy or boring just anything" the only thing that came to my mind was when i first met 002 after i lost my memory. when he called me pretty. "got one?" i nodded yes. "good now close your eyes and feel as if you are watching it play through" i put all my concentration into it. i was in the void, a place that papa had only made me go into a few times. "im in the void" i spoke to him. "good now remember that memory and try to imagine watching it". some coloured smoke starts to form a picture around me. i was in the rainbow room with my slightly overgrown buzzcut.

 i was stood there and papa had just let go of my hand to let me explore the rainbow room myself. "ready?" "yes" i barely whisper. "send me this memory, invite me to watch it with you" i didnt really understand what he meant by this but i tried. i looked around and saw peter there with me. he walked over to me and placed his hand on my shoulder. "how are you fee-" something caught his eye. "who is that girl?" he randomly asked. "me" i simply replied. "why?" he turned back to me. "your the girl 002 was talking about when we were experimenting on him the other day. he said he was describing a girl and when they first met even thought she wasnt your typical girl she was still pretty she had a Y/H/C overgrown buzzcut and peirced ears that had no earings in. and when we first met all she talked about was her peircings closing up but he didnt get annoyed because he was mesmerised" i looked at him in shock. "is this the first time you ever met 002" he asked. "yes" he points at the young me. "then watch and see what happens". 

1979 Hawkins lab November 27th

i walked towards a double door gripping onto papas hand. we walked in and i saw a singular boy sat there playing with some pens and a book. papa bent down to my level and whispered "dont be scared he is your friend" he let go of my hand and watched as i shuffled over to the boy. "um hi" i said shyly. the boy looked at me with a twinkle in his eye. "hi im 002 and you are?" i looked over to papa who gave me a reassuring look. "uh im 004" we awkwardly hugged and sat down together. he sat there silently listening to me. "i really like my earrings, papa made me sad because he said it will close and i will never be able to wear them again" we played for a while but sadly we where interrupted by papa. "right 004 you better head to your room its been a tiring day" i said bye to 002 and we hugged each other goodbye. 

1986 Hawkins lab

i looked over to peter. "shall we go back" i nod and then we where back in the testing room. peter grabbed a cloth and wiped the blood off of my nose and upper lip. without a reason i burst into tears. "hey, whats wrong" he moves over to me and rubs my back for support. "its just i was so young and i had to end up in this shitty lab. it isnt fair also how old are you?" i ask wondering if he was a similar age to me. "im 17" i was shocked at how young he was. he must only be a couple months older than me. "wow your pretty young to be an orderly" i confront him. "lets just say i made some wrong choices for a girl i loved" hmm what did he mean by that. i start to cry into his shoulder as he embraces me into a hug. i look back up after a while and apologies to him. "its fine theres nothing to apologise for" he reassures me. "well we still have one hour left so what would you like to do?" i sit and think for a moment and come up with the perfect plan. "we can think of how we are going to escape" he smirks in agreement. it was the perfect place to do it. no cameras or people to over hear just me and peter. 

just as we where getting to the main part of our plan peter checks the clock. "five minutes left" i look at him i was about to say something that i may later regret but i had a lot of care for this person. "i want to bring 011" "what?!" to be honest i wasnt shocked at his response it was a crazy idea but me and 011 had become quite close the last few months and she deserved a normal happy lives. so did all the others but 011 had been through a lot more than them. "please she wont tell papa she wants to get out of this place almost as much as me" i can see he was thinking about it. "fine but make sure she follows you and doesnt cause any distractions" i nod and just then papa walks in. 

"did everything go well?" both me and peter nod. right 004 you may be escorted back to your room as i speak to peter about how well you go on today". i walk over to the guards who were stood at the door. i looked back and waved goodbye to peter and headed back to my room with the guards. i laid down in my bed excited for the day we were going to escape to come. i closed my eyes and rested to recover the energy i had just lost. the only thing i could dream about is climbing out of the pipe and running thought the woods with peter and 011, finding a home with them and being happy, being able to go to school again maybe being in the same classes as peter.