(Y/N) POV:
Who were you kidding, there was no way you were going to get any sleep tonight. It was already 4 am for crying out loud! You weren't tired due to the fact that you were too busy crying and overthinking while listening to the cracking thunderstorm that was going on outside. He had said he was in love with you less than 10 hours ago. Of course you had confessed your feelings to him as well. You looked him right in the eyes and told him how much you were in love with him too. You always seemed to be the blunt type of person, people could always count on you to tell them how it was.
Therefore you told Ricky just how you felt about him. After you confessed to Ricky that you were madly in love with him too, he almost seemed shocked, so instead of making things even more complicated you hopped off the counter and deeply kissed him again. He responded to this by returning the kiss, and you were over the moon happy about this. After you shared the second kiss, Ricky helped you clean up the shop. You both then closed up the shop and drove your cars back to the house. Once you arrived home you both kind of went to your own rooms to get some sleep.
So why were you up crying in your room? Your life seemed like it was going great! But deep down inside you were afraid of what was going to happen between you and Ricky. You were scared that if anything happened between the two of you, like a breakup or a fight, that you would be left out on the street with nothing. Before long, these thoughts that kept invading your mind got to be too much for you to handle. You started to feel your body shaking and nothing you could do could stop it. This just scared you even more. It started to become hard to breathe and you couldn't pull yourself from the deep thoughts running around in your head.
You couldn't take it anymore. This panic attack you were having, was the first one you had experienced in years, and it was bad. You didn't know what else to do, so you pulled yourself up out of your bed with your favorite blanket draped across your shoulders.
The tears are still falling down your face and your chest hurts from breathing so fast. You quickly walked out into the hallway to look for Ricky, he wasn't there. You walked to the living room, and once again there was no one. To your surprise he was nowhere to be seen. The panic attack worsened as you couldn't find Ricky.
You slowly walked over to his bedroom door, your last resort to finding him, and you slowly pushed it open. He was sleeping, his stomach laying flat against the bed. You quickly rushed in and jumped on the bed next to him.
"Ricky wake up!" You shook him a little bit, your voice sounding shaky and uneasy. The tears still hadn't stopped and it was getting even harder to breathe the more you tried.
"W-what?!?" He quickly shot up, sitting straight up. His bare chest was visible as he only had shorts on. You quickly threw yourself at him and hugged him in a death grip. For some reason hugs always helped you get back down to earth, on top of that they made you feel like someone had you and you weren't completely alone. He could tell something was seriously wrong, he had never seen you like this before.
"H-Hey it's okay...." He tightly hugged you back, trying to wake himself up more. He then began to rub your back soothingly. "What's wrong (Y/N)?" You buried your face further into his shoulder, only being able to mumble the words "Panic Attack" out through your choking sobs.
Ricky sat there and held you until you finally calmed back down and stopped shaking. He suggested that you sleep with him in his bed tonight just in case anything else happened to you during the night. You had never felt as safe with anyone as you did with Ricky in this moment. He was your safe place now and you intended on keeping it that way. The way he held you, the way he smelled of his cologne, and just the overall way of how he talked you threw the whole thing. He was your idea of a perfect guy. Sure he had his flaws, just like how he had too many guitars, but you had your flaws too and that's what made you guys human. So you cuddled right up next to him and he continued to hold you throughout the night, even when you would steal his blanket, or accidently kick him in your sleep. Sure, you guys weren't officially a couple yet, but did that really matter? This was clearly something that you both wanted anyway.....
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Ricky's POV:
I had let (Y/N) sleep late this morning, I knew she had a rough night and she could use the sleep anyway. Plus on top of it, I had band practice today. I had gotten up and got dressed without waking (Y/N) up. I couldn't believe she was in love with me....why me?
She was such a pretty girl and she could really get whatever guy she wanted to......but she chose me. Why? This came as a total shock to me....especially when she got up and kissed me a second time. God she was such a good kisser and her lips were so soft.
My mind couldn't stop thinking about her. Yeah, I mean we really aren't dating yet but I wanted to call her mine so bad. I pulled myself from my thoughts only to realize that the cereal I was eating was now soggy. It was almost time to get going for band practice anyway. I had to be there today because we were apparently recording for the new album. My feet picked me up from my seat at the table and dragged me over to the front door, I grabbed my guitar and walked quietly out of the house trying not to make too much noise.
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It had been a few hours since I had first arrived at the recording studio. I hadn't really recorded anything yet since Chris wasn't happy with how he was signing today and kept scratching most of the vocals. For the most part I just sat on one of the couches playing around with one of my guitars. I was also waiting for (Y/N) to text me back but she must still be sleeping, I don't blame her though, I would be tired too if I had to work and then not be able to get any sleep on top of that.
"So Rick how's that new roommate of yours?" I looked over at Vinny who was banging his drumsticks on the table. Shortly after I heard Ryan chime in as well.
"Yeah! Is she nice? I saw that photo of the two of you that you posted, she's really a pretty man." I laughed at the sudden interrogation I was faced with. These questions were no shock to me, I had been planning on what to say to them all night last night.
"Yes Ryan yes she is, and yeah I mean she's super nice, she keeps the place clean and is a good roommate." I didn't want to tell them that we had already fallen, and fallen hard for one another. She had just moved in like a month ago! That didn't matter to me tho, we had gotten to know each other and I knew it was right to be with her. Plus me and (Y/N) haven't talked about what we actually are yet so I didn't want to put out any false labels.
"OOOO DOES RICK HAVE A GIRLFRIEND?!?" The drummer yelled and waved his sticks in the air. Ryan just shot you a questioning look.
"Vinny get your ass in the damn recording booth." Chris walked out clearly not happy with his vocals still. Chris liked everything a little to perfect, so if that meant singing the same verse 10,000 times, he would do it.
"Hold up just a minute I wanna hear Rick's response cause I think he's dating his new roommate chick." Vinny leaned his elbows on the table completely intrigued by what you were going to say.
"Oh shit that girl that works in that shop downtown?" Chris joined Vinny by leaning his elbows on the table as well. All I could do was laugh, this was all too funny to me that they were so invested in this.
"No she's not my girlfriend and we are not dating." Saying these words hurt me more and more as I replayed what I said in my head over and over again. However it was pretty funny to see all the hope in their eyes leave as I broke the news to them. Vinny just groaned and made his way into the studio so he could start tracking drums.
"Okay but you like her don't you?" You heard Ryan chime in from his seat next to you on the couch. My mind was torn on what I should answer here....My heart was telling them how I truly felt about (Y/N), but my head was saying that I should wait to figure everything out first...... I was so torn on what to do. Luckily just as I was about to answer the question, my phone rang.....
I looked down at it and saw that it was (Y/N), talk about perfect timing.
"Hey I have to take this really fast." The guys all understood and nodded their heads. I got up from and excused myself from the room, walking outside for some privacy.
(Y/N) POV:
"Hello?" You heard the voice of your new boyfriend, or at least you were considering him to be your boyfriend, come from your phone. You had woken up in Ricky's room, remembering everything that had happened last night.
It was already 3 pm and you had just now gotten up. You felt terrible about everything, Ricky didn't deserve to be woken up like that in the middle of the night just so you could calm down. All this thinking threw you back down your spiral of over thinking and you really just needed to hear his voice again. You just needed to hear that you were going to be okay.
He had said something at the shop yesterday about how he had band practice today but you couldn't remember, so you called him anyway.
"Hey....." You trailed off not really knowing how to start.
"Is everything okay? I can tell you're awake now so that's good." Ricky smiled as he said this. He started to get worried that you weren't going to wake up at all.
"Yeah" You laughed into your phone, if Ricky saw you right now he would realize that even though you were awake, you haven't done much more. You were wearing a pair of his sweatpants that you found on the floor of his room, You had also managed to steal one of his zip up hoodies that was now draped over your tank top. Your hair was still in the messy bun it had been in since last night, and you had no motivation to even try and put makeup on. "I just called to say sorry......"
"For what Hun?" His voice sounded concerned.
"I just feel really bad about last night.....You didn't deserve to be woken up like that and it probably wasn't the best having to share your bed with me....." The guilt you felt was still filling your mind with toxins. "Babe, it's just really stressing me out and I'm overthinking about everything again..."
Did you just call him babe? Oh great good job (Y/N), once again probably creeping him out. Even though you considered him to be your boyfriend, that didn't mean he was actually your boyfriend. After all, you both haven't talked about it yet and that was definitely first priority to you when Ricky gets back from practice.
"Hey it's okay, it'll be okay and i'll be back soon. It's not like i'm doing much here anyway so i'm sure I could talk the guys into letting me leave early." You sighed and nodded, the thoughts started to ease a bit as you knew he was going to be home soon.
"I'll start making us dinner then, thanks for answering and talking me through it." You smiled as he laughed back into the phone.
"Alright your welcome, I'll see you in a bit, Love you" You could hear another voice screaming in the background. You couldn't exactly make out what the voice had said but it sounded a lot like someone saying, "OH SHIT HE SAID I LOVE YOU!!" You laughed at this before hearing Ricky groan.
"I love you too." You spoke softly into the phone before hanging up. God Ricky just made you feel some type of way. You had never felt these emotions all at once before, not even with past relationships that you had been in. You pulled yourself up off the couch and made your way into the kitchen where you were going to attempt to make dinner for you and the love of your life.
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"FINALLY YOUR HOME!" You laughed running over to the front door and jumping into Ricky's arms. He laughed and caught you as you wrapped your legs around his waist.
"There's the girl I've been dying to see!" He smiled and gave you a quick peck on the lips before setting you back down.
"That's something we need to talk about mister." You smiled walking back into the kitchen to finish the dinner you had started making. Ricky followed you and sat on the counter, as you continued to cook.
"Yeah I was thinking the same thing.....so like what are we?" You thought for a minute. What if Ricky didn't want to be with you? What if you guys did end up breaking up later down the road? You quickly pushed those thoughts out of head and without another thought you turned around to where he was sitting and replied.
"I want us to be together....." You stood there ready to have your heart broken again by another boy, However to your surprise his answer definitely had the opposite effect.
"FINALLY!" he smiled, looking over at you. Ricky hid most of his emotions well, but he couldn't hide how excited he was to finally call you his.
"Now that that is out of the way." You laughed, relieved you finally got that figured out. "Who was that in the background of the call earlier?"
"Oh that was Vinny......He was really hopeful at the beginning of practice that you and I would be together already, and so when I told him we weren't, he got kind of upset. Then when I went to take the phone call apparently the guys had him spy on me and yeah you get the point...."
"So how'd you cover that one up?" You raised your eyebrow at him.
"Oh I didn't. I gave up and just told them we were dating, hoping you would say yes to being my girlfriend.
You both laughed as the food you were cooking finally finished. It was your mom's recipe for a type of lasagna that you hadn't had in years, so you thought it would be fun to try and make it. Ricky hopped down off of the counter to help you get the table set for the two of you to eat at. You brought the lasagna over and both you and Ricky dove right into it.
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Ricky's POV:
It was getting late, (Y/N) was falling asleep on my chest as we tried to stay awake for the rest of the movie we started, but we were failing and miserably too. I nodded off for the final time and decided that was enough and we both needed to get to bed.
"Hey.....We should sleep. Do you want to be in your room or mine?" I looked down at (Y/N), her eyes were closed but I could tell she was definitely still awake.
"I better get to sleep in your room now....after all I am your girlfriend." She looked up at me with big puppy eyes and I just couldn't say no to her. I picked her up bridal style and carried her to what was now our room. I laid her on the bed and threw her a pair of my shorts, figuring she would get too hot in the sweats. She smiled and quickly changed as I did the same. I got into my normal sleepwear, a t-shirt and a pair of shorts before I crawled into bed next to her.
She was already cuddled into the blankets by the time I got in bed. As soon as I did get into bed though, her attention was focused on me and not the blankets. She wrapped her arms around my torso burying her face into my neck.
"I love you (Y/N)" I whispered softly as I left a kiss on her forehead.
"I love you too Ricky." She barely finished her sentence before she was passed out. God she was so perfect to me. Yeah i've had other girlfriends in the past, but something about her seems so different compared to them. Whatever was different about her, I absolutely loved it. My head drifted to thinking about (Y/N) as I was slowly met with a deep, deep sleep.