(Y/N) POV:

"D-Do you really have to go?" you slowly looked up at Ricky as he held you in a hug. Today was the day, Ricky was leaving for his 3 day promotional tour with the guys. As much as you wanted him to have fun playing the shows, Your selfish side came out a bit wanting him to stay and be with you. This would be the first time that you and Ricky had ever spent any time away from one another, and you definitely weren't ready.

"Yeah i'm sorry, it'll only be 3 days tho..." He looked down and slowly moved a piece of your hair behind your ear. You sighed and nodded trying not to cry. This was going to be harder than you expected. Ricky didn't want to leave you like this, but what other choice did he have? This was his job and how he paid the bills at the end of the day.

"Please be safe and call when you can..." You hugged him even tighter giving him a small kiss. What if he didn't have time to call? Were you even going to be able to hear from him while he was on tour?

"I promise I will." he pulled away from the kiss and smiled looking down at you. "Alright I have to get going, I'll text you when we get to the place."

They were playing 3 shows in California so it was a ways away from your small town in Pennsylvania. What if something happened and Ricky wasn't here for it? You took a deep breath and gave him one last kiss.

"I love you Ricky."

"I love you too (Y/N)" and with that he walked out of the house with his suitcases behind him. You quickly wiped a tear from your cheek and started to walk towards the living room.The house already seemed so empty without Ricky and you didn't like it at all. You had not lived alone in years so this was definitely a change for you. You laid on the couch with one of Ricky's blankets, It smelled like him which just ended up making you miss him even more. The thoughts in your head began to creep up causing you to overthink about everything. The TV screen began to look blurry as tears filled your eyes. He hasn't even been gone for 25 minutes and you're already sobbing on the couch...great. You buried your face deeper into the blanket hoping Ricky would just come back already. The noise of the TV filled the silent room, there was no one to talk to now that Ricky was gone.

You really hoped everything went well with his flight over there, after all plane crashes are a thing and you and Ricky had definitely seen enough documentaries on them. What if Ricky died? That was something you never thought about until now. You didn't have any other friends other than Ricky and you were definitely not ready to find out that he died!

You sat up on the couch starting to panic, your body started shaking and your mind wouldn't stop racing. You looked around quickly wondering what to do, obviously Ricky wasn't here to help you like the few other times this happened. The tears started to burn your eyes as they threatened to fall down your cheeks. You let out a shaky sigh and laid back down on the couch closing your eyes. Before you could even realize it you were out cold. You hadn't cried yourself to sleep like that in years! If only Ricky knew what was going on...

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You woke up at 2 am on the couch. Your body was screaming at you for falling asleep in the awkward position that you did. You carefully picked yourself up from the couch and walked over to the bedroom. At least the bed would be more comfortable, or at least you thought. As you pulled the covers over your body you could tell the bed was different from what the normal was. Of course it was! Ricky wasn't here to sleep on the other side. You sniffled and tried to stop thinking about it, but the memory of your boyfriend sleeping in the same space as you kept flooding in. However you really needed to get sleep, you had work in the morning after all.

How were you going to be able to do this when you were married to him some day and he would have to be away for months at a time? Yeah you thought about getting married to Ricky a few times here and there, you never asked him about it though. You both had only been together for like a month and a half anyway, this to you didn't matter tho. You had already decided that you wanted to be with Ricky for the rest of your life. But you didn't want to scare Ricky with the idea of you wanting to get married right now. It was early anyway and as long as you two were happy, that was all that mattered.

Your mind wandered to thinking about what Ricky was doing right now. He had left at 8 pm so he was more than likely already in California but you didn't think to check your phone before coming into the bedroom. Did he miss you as much as you missed him? Was he safe with the guys? Did he get into a plane crash like you thought? You drifted back to sleep as your mind kept filling with different unanswered questions.

Ricky's POV:

It was early in the morning, I had never been a morning person myself but we had sound check and stuff to do so I really didn't have a choice. Today was day one of the tour and I was already missing (Y/N) like crazy! I knew she was probably missing me a lot as well. After all it was pretty hard to have to leave her almost in tears like that. If I could have taken her on tour with me I would have, But this was a small tour and we were all stuck in a van again so we really didn't have much extra room. This did give me an opportunity to think some things out about our relationship though.

I was hoping that (Y/N) was just sleeping considering she still didn't text me back from last night. I had sent her a message explaining how I landed in California safe and that I already missed her so much. This was definitely something that the two of us were going to have to get used to considering this is my job. I was broken from my thoughts as I heard my phone going off.

"Hello?" I picked up without looking at the caller ID.

"Hey...." I could tell just from the sniffly voice that it was (Y/N). How much had she been crying?

"Are you holding up okay over there?" Maybe I was just hearing things, I didn't get the best night's sleep so maybe the sniffling was all in my head.

"Not really...." I heard her sniffle and this just confirmed that it wasn't all in my head.

"Well what's wrong baby?" I frowned, I expected this to be hard on her but not this hard!

"The house is just really lonely and I miss you.....I'll be okay though....Oh yeah I got your text too. Sorry I didn't reply last night, I fell asleep on the couch and forgot to bring my phone when I moved into the bedroom." She sighed and I could hear her yawn lightly.

"Hey it's okay, I'm just glad I could hear your voice.'' I laughed and I could hear her small little laugh along with mine. "So how's the shop today?"

"About that.....I didn't go in today...." Why wouldn't she go to work? She loved her job and it was the weekend too, she normally got a bunch of people to come in on the weekends.

"What? Why not?" I was honestly shocked by this. What would make her not want to go into work?

"I-I just didn't feel like it...." I could hear her sigh softly into the phone. It honestly kind of broke my heart a bit knowing she was missing me this much.

"RICK SOUNDCHECK LET'S GO!" I heard Chris scream from outside the van.

"Sorry babe but I gotta go.....please text me tho..." I sighed and waited for her reply.

"Alright.....Love you." She sounded sad and knowing there was nothing I could do to fix it was killing me inside.

"I love you too." I hung up the phone and pushed it back into my pocket, crawling my way out of the van.

What if she really wasn't okay being all alone. From what I knew she had never lived on her own before. How were we going to do this when I would have to go on big long tours? If there was one thing i knew damn well, it was that no matter what I would make sure this all worked out for us. 

"Was that (Y/N/)?" Chris's voice broke me from my thoughts.

"Oh um yeah, sorry she's just having a really hard time without me being there." Who was I kidding I was having just as hard of a time as she was. I missed the way she would cuddle onto me, I missed the hugs and kisses we shared and I especially missed the movie nights we had every night. I quickly glanced down at the new tattoo on my arm, the one (Y/N) had drawn for me. I became even more grateful that I decided to get the tattoo as it made me think about my beautiful girlfriend that I had waiting for me back at home.

"Hey no need to be sorry man, she's new to dating a guy in a band, and someday when you two get married it'll just become normal.....and she is of course always welcome on tour you know that." Chris placed a hand on my shoulder. Hearing these things honestly helped ease my thoughts a bit.

"Yeah thanks.....I was actually thinking about that..." I laughed and grabbed my guitar from the case as Chris gave me a questioning eyebrow look.

"What? Taking her on tour?" I had thought about that, especially all the cool places I could show her, but that wasn't what I was mainly talking about.

"No you dumb ass, getting married." Chris's face dropped and I couldn't do anything but laugh at his reaction. I really had been considering the idea of marriage, after all I had the ring. I just needed to figure out the right way to propose. Just because we have only been together for a short time, this didn't mean that we couldn't get married right? I had a lot of thinking to do on this mini tour and maybe the guys could help me come up with something romantic. "Come on we're going to be late for soundcheck."

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(Y/N) POV:

It was 7 pm and you still haven't gotten out of bed. You didn't feel like it at all. There was no reason for you to get up. You didn't feel like going into work today, so you didn't, what's the big deal right? Sure you might be a little depressed that Ricky wasn't with you right now, but you were happy that he was out doing what made him happy.

Ricky had texted you before going on stage. You had wished him good luck and sent him a kissy face emoji too. You wondered what tour life was like, Was it super glamorous like they all made it seem? Maybe Ricky would take you on tour with him some day. You smiled thinking about all the fun things you could do on tour with him, but in all honesty you were just missing being able to do anything with him.

You slowly sat up in bed. Maybe taking a shower would help you get out of this depression hole you were stuck in at the moment. Your body pulled you off the bed and dragged you over to the bathroom that was connected to the bedroom. You took your pajamas off and started the shower before getting in. The hot water fell down your body as you just stood there letting the steam fill the room.

You stayed like this just letting the hot water cascade down your body for at least an hour. After your fingers began to wrinkle, you got out and wrapped a towel around your body. The shower was definitely a nice refreshing break, but it still didn't pull you out of the funk you seemed to be stuck in. You walked to the bedroom and put on a sports bra and a pair of shorts. The shorts showed off the amazing artwork you now had on your leg. You smiled remembering how much fun that day was when you got your very first tattoo and Ricky got another to add to his collection. You sat down on the bed and almost right on cue, your phone lit up with a video chat request from Ricky. Of course you gladly accepted and laid down on the bed.

"Hey!" You could tell that he had just gotten off stage from how sweaty he was. The black paint that he normally wore on stage was now peeling and smeared everywhere.

"Hey! How'd the show go?" You couldn't wait to hear how the show had gone. You knew this was something that Ricky was so passionate about and you wanted to do nothing other than support him.

"It went really well actually! I messed up a part in one of the songs though and Chris thought it would be funny to call me out about it on stage." You could hear Chris in the background yelling at Ricky and you couldn't help but laugh as you watched them biker back and forth. You may be Ricky's girlfriend but him and Chris always fought and bickered like an old married couple.

"Well i'm glad it was a good show." Ricky smiled at you through the phone and your stomach filled with butterflies. It was so good to finally see him again, but it just wasn't the same through video chat.

You and Ricky talked for hours into the night until you finally fell asleep on the call. Ricky kissed his phone and then hung up to let you get the rest you clearly needed. Since you didn't go into work yesterday, you really needed to go tomorrow, after all there was a huge event going on downtown and it was definitely going to bring you more business. Your best option was to just get some rest and hope this new depression that had come upon you was gone in the morning. It was only 2 more days until Ricky would be home.....You could do this right?