*Tajwar Pov*

"Look..." I started saying finally, when she successfully ignored me for the whole day while I left for the office and even after returning from it.

"Look, look, look! I shouldn't use hey, but he can use anything he wants to." She started cutting me off mumbling to herself while arranging the bed as we already had our food separately with her having it in the dining area and me in the room.

"Are you trying to talk in your head?" I asked, folding my hands while standing behind her.

"How does he know about that?" I again heard her voice, and then she shook her head before continuing to do her work.

"Because you are talking outside." I replied and she immediately turned around only to see me behind her because of which she took a step back.

However, with that she began to fall on the bed, but held my hand in support. In the end, we both fell on the bed together as I didn't expect her to hold me and missed my step.

"What the hell!" I shouted while she held onto me tightly and released me when I pushed her hands away before moving away from her.

"I took a bath already." she mumbled breaking the silence, and I frowned before turning to look at her and saw her staring at the ceiling.

"So?" I asked not understanding her words.

"You moved away with a speed like I am smelling bad or something, so I am telling you." she replied, and I shook my head before moving my head to stare at the ceiling.

"It is not your fault! After that day, I am kind of staying away from anyone's touch." I said sighing.

"But... you... I mean we..." She stuttered, but didn't finish her words.

"Yeah! We kissed, and I didn't push you away. That is still a mystery to me why I didn't feel the suffocation, but I got it now." I said, lying in the last part because I didn't get that much suffocated like with all others but just moved away knowing well, she will get suffocated with my weight.

"Oh!" she whispered before the silence surrounded us.

"So, what is it with the leakage of mind thoughts to outside?" I asked when we continued to lay like that staring at the ceiling with an arm's length distance between us but not a single word sharing.

"I am tired of talking to myself. No one is there and then even Aunty stopped from teaching me the ways to behave by a royal member. So, the thoughts too must have got bored with the closed wall and got themselves outside." She just continued to babble making my lips twitch, but I put it down.

"Not everyone can be a royal except for the ones who have ancestors connected to the blood as Royals. You do not need to try to be one, Mridula. Because you couldn't be and not even any other person except one of the lineages. So, it is not a bad thing that my mom stopped her unnecessary classes." I said and felt her stiffen even with the space.

"Don't take my words in a wrong way. I am saying that you should be like yourself and not try something that will never happen." I added, but she didn't release her stiffness.

"Is the lineage only thing that makes someone royal?" she asked and I nodded.

"Then even I am one because if you forgot my mom was once a Vishwanth and the sister of your Dad." she said, and I closed my eyes feeling embarrassed for forgetting it.

"I forgot! Then I don't have a solution for it, but it is good to stay away from her for me. And I shouldn't have said those words yesterday." I said sighing.

"Why did you even think like that?" she asked slowly turned towards me while I stayed in the same stance repeating her question because I too don't know the clear answer.

"We three brothers used to be very close like a tight one. But then we got separated one after the other with the studies and dreams, and some just locked themselves. I was busy with studies and Aahil with his dream while Dileep was just to something else." I started saying before turning to stare at her, and she held my hand slowly.

"However, we were still close whenever we used to meet. But these two years were different. I feel like I don't know them anymore like they are different people and then feeling guilty for staying away." I added, frowning and all she did was tightening her hold on my hand.

"To top of that I got to know how my little brother thinks about me. I got hurt and anger, and they just got fell over themselves before I burst them over you." I ended closing my eyes and then felt her hug for two seconds before she moved away making me open my eyes in confusion.

"I didn't want to suffocate you." she explained and I just shook my head.

"But you are not like that." She added assuring me.

"You are not like them too. You don't know how I was before, so you wouldn't say anything about the changes in me, but they will be able to clearly see them which I don't want. So, I just want to say don't be distant while being before me." I said and she slowly nodded and sighed.

"What?" I asked her, but she shook her head before pecking my lips.

"I don't want to suffocate you." she said before getting up to lay on her side properly while I have a single question for myself.

Why did I lie to her? I thought because I was ok in the before instances and then remember myself thinking of not giving too much power to her over myself in her mind.

What am I even thinking now? So, what we didn't kiss? It is not that important to me! I thought before following her suit and drifted off into sleep.

*Mridula Pov*

I waved after him and closed the door before sighing remembering his words. I felt sad for him, but also for myself knowing that my husband feels suffocated by his own wife.

He misses his family and needs to return to them, and I need to do it, but with a little selfish motive. Maybe then he may not feel suffocated with the contact with me, and we will have a decent life.

After everyone had their breakfast, I started seeing to the clearing near the plants which I planted along with Aunty when I was a kid.

I moved back near to the kitchen when I forgot the set of gloves and heard Dileep telling Aunty about his new relation and even lied about Uncle telling him about her plans but not me making me sigh in relief.

I returned and started taking care of small plants after finishing the big ones and heard the footsteps nearing me.

"Thanks for telling me about my mom's plan." He said kneeling beside me.

"You were there to play with me, unlike others when I was a kid. I have to pay back right?" I asked with a small smile and looked at him.

"How is Tajwar Bhai?" he asked and I immediately remembered Tajwar's words regarding his bond he missed which he had with his brothers and his suffocation problem.

"He will be fine soon." I replied, assuring him while promising to myself to change everything, which will help my husband and best friend, I had too.

"Who is the new girl? Why don't you just say that you don't want to get married?" I asked and he immediately frowned.

"I think I did a mistake." he mumbled frowning.

"Why?" I asked, frowning.

"I thought her as something else, but it seems like she may not be that." He replied sighing.

"You can always correct your mistake." I offered to which he shook his head, but left as he came in the middle of his day.

"I have a plan." Those are the words, I uttered that day when he returned from the office and entered the room.

"What plan?" he asked, but didn't stop his daily moments to move near to the cupboards and take out the clothes.

"You were ok with me for two times right without getting suffocation? Why don't we try to increase it-like practice until you get that problem stopped and meet your brothers slowly with which everything will return normal." I explained and he just stared at me with a blank expression.

"And I would do this because?" He asked raising his eyebrow.

"You miss your brothers and they miss you." I replied, but he just walked inside the washroom while I sighed before sitting down thinking about other serious reasons.

"Do you really think you can live like this forever? I mean five to ten at the office? You will get mad one day, and you need your family with you on that day." I said when we finished our food, and he calmly laid on the bed and didn't take his tablets like yesterday for which I am glad.

"And I hope you are not serious about living inside this room forever." I added while lying on the bed.

"We will see." he finally said, turning towards me and kissed me while I stayed still in my place with the sudden happening.

When he moved back, I slowly thought about his answer. We will see? I think not even the person who found them uses that sentence like this person.

For carriage, we will see and for stopping the tablets we will see and now for this plan too we will see. I am just sick of hearing these words.

"You are again thinking outside, and by the way, I don't use that sentence that much." he commented making me stop my train of thoughts.

Dammit! I thought, shaking my head and smiled, remembering how he kissed me again.

"You are doing it again." I groaned hearing his words, but drifted off into sleep along with him.

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