Natsu's P.O.V

It's been a month and thirteen days since Lucy left, and everyday I feel worse and worse without her around. I think everyone in the guild feels a little out of it. I know that Lucy will be coming back, but the question that is always on my mind and probably everyone else's is 'when'.

But right now we can't really do anything.

I haven't been on a mission since Lucy left. I've been getting by alright though, because happy is still going on missions with Wendy and Carla and sometimes Erza and Gray, so he's the one that is always buying food and giving it to me. My time is usually spent at home and sometimes in the Guild. Lisanna checks up on me at least three times a week, asking if I've been eating, if I'm sleeping alright and if I'm feeling okay. I say yes to everything but its not really the truth. Yes I eat regularly, but its not as much as I used to, yes I sleep, but it's only when I can which is about three to four hours every couple of nights, and yes I feel okay, if you exclude the feeling of a broken heart, the feeling of loneliness, the feeling of worry and the feeling of doubt.

But besides all of that, I'm fine.

Today is Thursday, its six in the morning and all I'm doing is laying in my hammock thinking about what to do. I haven't been to the guild in a week, so I should probably go in today. I lazily get out of my hammock and decide to take a shower and put some new cloths on since its been a while since I've actually had a shower. I quickly stripped and stepped into the shower, turning the hot water on full blast and putting a small amount of cold water on. I wash myself properly for once, then I just stand in the shower leaning back against the cold tiles. I must have been there a while because I was snapped back to reality when I heard someone banging on the bathroom door.

"Natsu!" I heard Lisanna yell.

I turn the shower off with a sigh. I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my waist. I make my way to the bathroom door. I unlock the door then open it and a bunch of steam comes out.

"What?" I say irritated.

"You didn't answer the door so I was worried, so I let myself in and I've been banging on your bathroom door for like five minutes. I was almost going to ram the door down." Lisanna said, also slightly irritated.

"Why do you have to be so dramatic." I say pushing past her to get some fresh cloths.

"I'm not dramatic Natsu... I'm just worried about you..." She said.

"Well stop." I say.

"Stop what?" She asked.

I sigh and shake my head. I grab out a dark grey shirt with a light grey silhouette of a dragon rearing on its back legs breathing  fire. I then grab some white pants and a red belt. 

"Just stop worrying about me." I said to Lisanna, as I walked past her and into the bathroom, closing the door to get changed.

"I'm allowed to be worried about you Natsu..." Lisanna said, through the door.

"Yeah, but you worry to much." I reply.

"I worry just as much as everyone else Natsu." She said a little sternly.

I open the bathroom door, with only my pants on and my shirt and scarf in my hands.

"No Lisanna you worry a lot more then everyone else." I say as I put on the skin tight shirt. "You come over here at least every second day to make sure I'm eating, sleeping and feeling okay. Everyone else just talks to me when they see me at the guild and if they want to know all the things you constantly ask me, they just go to Happy. Its like you forgot Happy is even around. I have him to look after me if I need it, I don't need someone else." I say, putting my scarf on, barging past her and walking to the front door.

"Natsu I'm your friend and I'm worried, so I'm gonna come and check up on you." She said annoyed.

"Well I don't won't you to!" I yell at her.

"Well I do!" She yells back.

I just stare at her then turn and walk out the door.

"Where are you going?" She called out.

"None of your business!" I call back.

"NATSU! JUST WAIT!" She yelled out.

"LISANNA STOP!" I turn around and yell, making her stop running to catch up with me.

"Stop pestering me Lisanna! I've had enough! You're acting like it's your responsibility to look after me. Well it's not! You're not my mum, you're not my sister and you're sure as hell not my girlfriend! So just leave me alone!" I say angrily to her.

As soon as I said all that, I kind of regretted it. I could see the hurt in her eyes. I sighed and grabbed the bridge of my nose, frustrated at myself.

"Look... Lisanna I'm sorry... I didn't mean it..." I said walking closer to her.

Lisanna had bent her head down and was looking at the ground. She didn't say anything and I just felt worse.

"Lis?..." I said questionably, as I lifted my arm up to put my hand on her shoulder.

All of a sudden she grabbed my hand and pulled my face down to hers. We were at least two inches apart and I could feel her breath on my face. She looked at me in the eyes  and then said.

"I shouldn't do this, but I need to make sure..." She trailed off.

"Um... Li-" I was cut off by her pushing her lips against mine. 

I was so shocked. Her eye's were closed but mine were wide open. This felt so wrong, so, so wrong. I snapped out of my thoughts and pushed her off me.

"What the hell Lisanna!" I yell at her wiping my mouth.

She didn't say anything.

"Lisanna, why'd you do that?" I asked.

"I... I just had to make sure..." She said.

"Make sure what? That I didn't have feelings for you or you didn't have feelings for me?" I said annoyed.

"You're a lot smarter then people give you credit for Natsu." Lisanna said.

"Just answer my question." I said.

"Well I'm very aware of your feelings towards me Natsu." She replied.

"So it was for your own reassurance?" I asked.

"Yep, I had to make sure I still didn't love you." She said.

"Why?" I pushed.

"Because, to an extent, everything you said earlier is kind of right. I do worry a lot more then everyone else, so I just wanted to figure out  if it was because I still had feelings for you, even though I knew the way you felt about Lucy and they way Lucy felt about you." Lisanna explained.

"And... did you figure it out?" I asked, a little hesitant.

"Natsu, deep down I will always love you. No matter what, but it's not the same as it used to be... I used to love you romantically, but now its unconditional..." She replied.

"Why's that?" I pondered.

"Because now I know you can't return my feelings, I think I've known that for a long time. Also I've had a thing for someone else." She said.

"Oh okay." I say, not wanting to push on any further.

"Anyway's, I'm sorry I annoy you so much, but until you start acting a little more like you used to, I'm going to be coming around and checking up on you." She said, with her hands behind her back as she walked past me. "And even though I'm not a sister to you, to me, you'll  always be like my brother." 

"Hey Lis." I say to her.

"Yes?" She asked turning her head to look at me.

"You are a sister to me." I say with a small smile on my face.

She retuned the smile.

"I'm glad." She said then turned around and started to run. "I'll see you at the guild later." She yelled out.

"Okay see you later!" I call out after her, just before I start making my way to the guild slowly.

~End of Chapter~

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