Not Okay

Hanbin third person POV

Hanbin sat down next to Zhang hao on the small empty single bed, his computer in his lap as he pulled up Netflix, thinking of what they could watch. He felt Zhang hao's eyes on him, as he chewed on his lip in thought.

"Hao hyung, do you want to watch Harry Potter, that way we can watch it over the week?"

Hanbin asked, glancing at Zhang hao and while meeting the others eyes, he couldn't help but to admire the way the older's hair fell over his cheeks, trying to resist the urge to pull it back and reveal the others rounded cheeks.

"Huh? I don't know Hanbin, I've never watched it before"

Hanbin's eyes widened in shock, gawking at the other before he turned away and immediately typed it into the search engine.

"Ok we need to watch it then"

He said sternly as he heard a small giggle escape Zhang hao's lips, his heart melting at the sound but he still attempted to stay focused on searching for the show, he didn't want Zhang hao to catch on to any of his weird behaviour. Once he had found it, Hanbin walked over to the light switch turning it off and creeping back onto the bed, pressing the space bar for it to begin.

As the opening credits began he slowly moved closer to Zhang Hao, carefully placing his head on the others shoulder in an attempt to test his boundaries. Once Hanbin felt the other lean back into the touch slightly, he felt his body relax, returning his attention back to the show.

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It wasn't until half way through the second movie when Hanbin heard a soft snore escape the others mouth. Hanbin pulled his head off of Zhang hao's shoulder to see the others eyes closed and mouth ajar. He couldn't help but to admire the older, his long dark lashes being even more apparent when his eyes were shut.

Hanbin picked up his computer once more, pausing the movie and exiting Netflix before closing the screen. He then quietly crept to the bench where he could plug his computer in for the night. Once done he crouched down besides the bed, poking the others cheek. No response. He tried the others bicep and then his side but still there was still no reaction. Hanbin sighed before leaning in closer.

"Hyung wake up"

He whispered in Zhang hao's ear as he shook him gently, feeling the other turn under his touch, he pulled away, Zhang hao's eyes slowly fluttering open to meet Hanbin's.

"H-hanbin?"

Zhang hao mumbled, as Hanbin watched the other tiredly rub his eyes causing him to chuckle.

"You need to go to bed hyung"

Zhang hao nodded and essentially rolled off of the bed, stumbling onto his feet and sneaking under the covers of his bed. Hanbin watched the site adoringly, about to return to his bed when he heard Zhang hao speak.

"You're not even going to tuck me in?"

He teased, voice rough and sleep deprivation evident. Hanbin felt his cheeks redden at the sudden confidence of the older but silently treaded up to Zhang hao's bed, gently pulling the blanket over the others chest before he lent down placing a small peck on Zhang hao's nose, his face hovering as he found himself looking at an already asleep Zhang hao. Hanbin rolled his eyes and smiled before mumbling a quiet good night, returning to his bed with older on his mind.

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Zhang hao and Hanbin had only grown closer in the following days and although Zhang hao was never willing to initiate skinship, in Hanbin's mind he believed the older had loosened up to having him around. The Chinese trainee had remained calm and even complemented him when Hanbin received the killing part in tomboy and further allowed Hanbin to sit pushed up against himo, tease him and even drag him places.

Though that development reversed after their evaluation by the other trainees in which Zhang Hao was regarded the worst in their team. Hanbin painfully watched as the other slowly withdrew from him, spending time alone late at night in the training rooms, so that they no longer watched movies together and going off alone during practice to improve his singing or hide out in the bathrooms. Hanbin felt bad but he wasn't sure what to do to help.

Today was no different, Hanbin had sat in his bed, scrolling through his social media accounts, it was past 1am and he was exhausted but he refused to sleep until Zhang hao was back. That was when he heard the door click, revealing a pouting Zhang hao, unaware of Hanbin being awake. Hanbin eyed Zhang hao out of the corner of his eye as the boy placed his stuff on the floor, heading into the bathroom with a change of clothes.

Only a few minutes later Hanbin's attention was redirected to his roommate once more, when he heard a small whimper come from the bathroom. Hanbin hastly stood up and heading to the bathroom door, his head leaning against it as he listened to Zhang hao's choked cries, the other not realising Hanbin was there.

"Hao hyung, are you ok?"

Hanbin spoke gently, clear concern evident in his voice.

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