A/N: i apologize for not updating for so long. It's been pretty tough for me these days that i start to doubt whether or not this story is even worth sharing to the world. Plus, my laptop sucks so my long chaps won't be up until my laptop gets better. Anyhow, im really happy some of you have added this story to their reading list. I legit cried while seeing my notifs  T_T i wish i could hug each of you, but i can only hope that somehow this story reaches you and hugs you in a way. The next chapter will be up very soon! If you want to talk about anything under the stars, or just about ANYTHING, you can talk to me on twitter (@mon_brain) ! Meanwhile, here is a little something for all of you :)

What is love? I began to ask myself this. I know it's a force, an emotion? A cup of coffee perhaps? A long walk at the park? Or it could be your eyes,

Or your smile.

Damn. That smile.

I wish i could keep it. I wish I could keep it to myself.

How long has it been since I've felt this way? I can hardly remember the last time I gasped, the last time my heart behaved like a wild animal lost in a city, the last time I held my breath because what I felt was just too much to contain, the last time I wished time slowed down..

Until I met you..

I wonder..

If I sipped my coffee a little too slower..
If I stayed on that bench a little too longer..
If I took my time to process the beauty that you are..

Would it change anything? Would the stars align for me and tell me you are mine to hold?

I'm not even an astronomer to understand these goddamn stars and yet, when I look at your eyes, I see a galaxy.. a milky way? a constellation? a soul. Your soul.

I wish I knew you existed. I wish you existed sooner than the day we met..

Are you here to stay?

- Namjoonie's journal, written under a ghost lamp. (Damn. I should really stop drinking too much coffee.)