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- Mia x

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We haven't talked in a week. A long and agonizingly dreadful week.

It was clearly a week wasted from my summer because all I did was lay in bed and watch Netflix. The only times I'd get up was to get some food and lock myself back up again.

There were times I'd even call the house phone just to lazily tell my mom to get me more food. And of course when I showered I'd usually just sit down and cry because of all the thoughts I was having. I didn't want it to end this way. Not like this. Not through a fucking text message.

And this one time when my mom came in, she gave me the talk. Yes, that talk.. No, not that talk. But the talk, if that made any sense at all.

Dean and Sam were quietly arguing from my tv, as my mom sat down beside me.

"Yes?" I asked.

I felt bad for my mom, seeing I hadn't really told her everything going on. Not like I had to anyway, this was my private life I guess.

"Alex is so worried about you." She sighed. "How long has it been since you last saw her?"

''I don't know." I lied yet spoke bluntly.

"Okay, what's wrong?" She frowned. "I hate seeing you like this. Is it stress? Is it college? Because if it is, I--"

"It's this boy. I know it's utterly stupid of me to be moping around like this because he isn't even here but.. God, he ruined my life." My voice shook as I paused the episode playing. "He ruined my life in the best way anyone could, and now he ruined my life further and.. Mom.'' I whined as she just takes me into a hug, even though what I was saying probably made zero sense.

"Boys." Mom sighed knowingly as she stroked my hair gently.

"Yeah I just.. He's all the way across the world, mom. I can't do this. I'm not made for pretending everything is okay when it isn't."

"Do you have feelings for him? Like, real feelings." She motioned as soon as we pulled away from the hug.

"I..I guess I do." I thought over it. "I know I haven't officially met him, but there's something about him that keeps me from leaving." I groaned.

I was the one who told him to keep his distance from me, drunk or not but it's been a week. Maybe he decided the same.

"If it's meant to happen then he'll be the one coming back. And if he really does care about you, I promise he'll come back." She tells me, her slight accent showing making me smile weakly.

"Okay." I sighed, but I was honestly just losing all the hope I had by now.

Mom left shortly after but what I noticed was that she didn't even bother getting me any food.

I gasped, jumping a little as I held a hand to my heart once my phone dinged twice.

Oh god. I take it, fully unphased already knowing by now that of course it wouldn't be Harry.

Nialler : natalie yo

Me : heyoo

Nialler : i just landed! I cant believe im home ahhh

Me : omg that must be so exciting

Nialler : it is ugh, i swear im gonna cry

Me : oml haha

thats nice

Nialler : is everything ok

Me : yeah

Me : um not really

Nialler : gasps

You're always happy

Is this the end of the world?!

Me : kinda. Well, the end of mine I guess

SIIIIIGH

Nialler : whats wrong?

Me : do you miss harry?

Nialler : styles? Damn of course he was my best friend!

Me : :'(

Nialler : im so lost

Me : me too niall

Nialler : oh god no way

Me : what?

Nialler : is harry crushing on you?

Me : idk

Nialler : oh im confused bc he's back in cheshire isnt he?

Me : bye

I groaned loudly, I didn't want to talk about it. I didn't want to talk about him.

I know I clearly said I'd move on from this, but hell it isn't going the way I planned.

I was a mess over a boy I never even met.. Yet.

Well I don't know if I can count on it anymore.

I spent another few hours after that watching reruns from season five of Supernatural.

I was starting to fall asleep as I hugged my pillow towards me.

My phone dings again. Dammit Niall. I was second

I unlock it and suddenly, I have lost the ability to even. What the..

.

Harry : i really like the song medicine

by the 1975

thanks for telling me about them

Me : harry

Harry : yeah

Me : wyd

Harry : well im texting you, a girl named natalie that i know she's gr8

Me : no no no no

you arent just going to pretend like this past week didnt happen what

Harry : im sorry

Natalie i got drunk and im being completely honest it wasnt me talking it was my bad side talking

But tbh, i remembered everything i said and just.. Idk. I was breaking you, i didnt like that.

And i read the message, the one where you told me to 'stay a stranger' and i agreed with you there, maybe we do have to move on so i kept my distance and i would wait til you talked first

And that's exactly why i havent spoken to you these past seven days

Me : oh

Harry : do you want me to stay out of your life?

I was overreacting mostly bc of this alcohol in my system but idk im sorry i cant explain myself as well love

Me : im stupid for saying this and i hate you so much rn for what you put me through this past week but i never wanted you to leave in the first place

i was only saying it bc idk, i lost all hope

im probably never going to get to meet you

Harry : im going to just say this right now, but im in tears

Me : me too

Harry : i was actually listening to the 1975 and i listened to medicine

The band overall reminded me of you bc you said they were your favourite

Me : harry aw

Harry : and i cried listening to the song bc its the perfect description of what i see in you, in us idk

Me : you want to marry me?

Harry : what

Me : the lyrics talk about wanting to marry that one person

Harry : I'd imagine you walking down the aisle actually

Me : stop right there *hand emoji*

Harry : im so so so so so so so so sorrrrrrrrrry

Me : why so many so's why so many r's

Harry : idk its my way of saying im sorry for being a dick and im sorry for probably ruining our non-existent relationship further

I'm SOOOOOORRRRRRRYYYYY NATALIE

Me : i dont want to seem like that one girl who just runs back to you after an apology

Harry : ill give you space? Do you need time? Bc if you need time to think about it I'll give you all the time in the world

Me : fuck

Harry : what did i just say something wrong or are u still niagra falls asf or

Me : YOU'RE JUST MESSING WITH MY FEELINGS IM JUST A GIRL A GIRL WHO LOVES TO EAT BAGEL BITES AND WATCH SUPERNATURAL MARATHONS AND CUDDLE WITH MY STUFFED ANIMALS

I SING TO WEIRD SONGS AND TWERK TO UMA THURMAN FULL BLAST AND I SLEEP AT 1AM AND THINK IM SUCH A BAD ASS BC OF IT SO WHY ME

Harry : to answer your question, that's exactly why i absolutely adore you lol

bc of all the little cute things you do

Me : me twerking to uma thurman is not cute

iTS CRINGETASTIC

Harry : oh god i love you

Me : NO SHUT UP NO NO NO

Harry : i lurve youuuu

Me : damn you

I dont understand you

Harry : someday you will love :)

Me : fine

Harry : ??

Me : well i forgive you for being senseless and drunk as you completely shattered my heart

Harry : be honest, was this week as long and dreadful for you as it was for me?

Me : yeah it was. I've been kinda bed ridden listening to sad songs and that playlist you made me

Harry : that sounds depressing

Me : IT WAS

Harry : but anyways, the point of my first text was to find an excuse to apologize but tbh i rlly like the 1975

Me : you and me both edwardo

Harry : you and me both.

Harry : i love how that sounds

Me : really? Me too.

Harry : and natalie?

Me : mhm

Harry : im not going to leave you. I mean, i wont stop bothering you for awhile so just saying, you're kinda stuck with me for the rest of your life.. through this tiny phone screen

Me : and well, i guess you're stuck with my potato self too

Congrats you win a potato how great does that feel

Harry : ._____.

Me : so we're okay?

Harry : we'll be alright.

Me : if you say so

Harry : through this torturing yet fun text swap, maybe someday in the future I'll finally get to see you

Me : please do bc idk if i can actually fly myself over there anytime soon. My mom paid off my tuition for uni, and she's probably had enough of paying for me

Harry : well natalie you clearly cant fly over here bc you dont have wings

Me : THESE WINGS ARE MADE TO FLYYYY

Harry : oh god

Me : come on *pokes cheek* you know you wanna do it

Harry : you're srsly making me do this nat i swear

Me : DONT FIGHT IT HAROLD

Harry : ...

Harry : WE DONT LET NOBODY BRING US DOOOOWN

Me : NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY IT WONT HURT MeEeEee nO MATTER IF I FALL FROM THE SKYYYYY

Harry : these wiNGS ARE MADE TO FLLLLYYY

Me : atta boy

Harry : im not a dog

Me : ya ur a puppy

Harry : *cuddles you*

Me : i wish bro

Harry : we're good then? :"(

Me : well i tried to move on and it didnt work so

Harry : it didnt work very well with me either

Me : so what do we do

Harry : well, since its pretty clear we cant move on no matter what we do (i watched Friends everyday and every hour and ate practically everything in my fridge)

we're just going to have to keep talking

Me : harry

Harry : ??

Me : you make me rlly happy

Harry : i never thought I'd hear you ever say that, well in this case see you say that but

You make me the best version.. of myself.

Me : and the night you got completely wasted, did you.. idk, did you try things out with other girls?

Harry : no actually i passed out after our convo

Me : what would have happened if you didnt pass out?

Harry : i wouldnt. I wouldnt do that to you no matter how drunk i was baby

Me : but its inevitable, it would have happened if you were still in that state

Harry : but you have no idea how much i would have regretted it

Me : well at least they actually get to kiss you I'd be happy for you

Harry : no

Right now, i dont want anyone else okay? I want you to understand that nat

Me : so what are we then?

Harry : im not sure, what do you want us to be?

Me : well.. no matter how much i despise the thought of texting or long distance relationships, idk what this is

Harry : we can be whatever we want to be nat

Me : can we just be astronauts

Harry : yeah

We could go to the moon :)

Me : yay and we can like trace our names into a crater or something

Harry : i dont think that's possible babe lol

Me : WELL OKAY GENIUS I JUST WANTED TO BE ROMANTIC

Harry : omf

Me : what can we even do on the moon

Forget the moon lets be scuba divers

Harry : ooh yeah thats a good one

Me : we can swim with all the little fishies!

Harry : and then get eaten by a shark

Me : THERE YOU GO AGAIN RUINING MY ROMANTIC STATEMENT

Harry : here i think I've got something

Me : ugh

Harry : what if you be my girlfriend and I'll be the boyfriend

we can say the cheesiest things and be comfortable

We can be relationship goals

Me : omfg is this real life

I'm blushing my cheeks are hEATING THE FUCK UP

HARRY YES

Harry : OMFG WHAT WHAT IS THIS

ITS HAPPENING THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING

NOT AS I IMAGINED IT BUT HERE IT IS OH MY GOD NATALIE

Me : YOU'RE MY FIRST REAL BOYFRIEND OH MY

Harry : real?

Me : yeah I've had many imaginary boyfriends like zac efron and nick jonas

Oh and ALEX GASKARTH he was my fave imaginary boyfriend of all

Harry : wow im jealous

Me : BUT YOU SHOULDNT BE BC YOU TOP ALL OF THEM BC YOURE ACTUALLY REAL

AND YOU KNOW I EXIST

Harry : now can i say that i really love you?

Me : i guess i can make that exception

Harry : i love you

Me : i..

I love pizza too

Harry : NATALIE

Me : ily garry

DAMMIT **HARRY

Harry : wHY ARE WE LIKE THIS

WE ARENT SERIOUS PEOPLE

HOW WILL THIS RELATIONSHIP WORK OUT I THINK IM BREAKING UP WITH YOU

Me : WRONG ANSWER

I BREAK UP WITH YOU

Harry : wait a second

Me : well this is the first relationship that lasted about five minutes for me wow

Harry : natalie i just

Me : IM KIDDING HARRY

Harry : oH GOD I THOUGHT YOU WERE BEING SERIOUS

Me : okay lets try this again:

i love you harry

Harry : i loathe you

Me : WHAT THE FUCKKCK

Harry : AUTO CORRECT NO NO NO

IM KMS

Me : im laughing I CANYT BREADTHE