<Kirishima>

I heard something I know I shouldn't have heard.
And... I've done... something... I know I shouldn't have done.

I almost walked in on a conversation Bakugo was having with... Todoroki...?
They sounded so angry with one another... They sounded ruthless...
I... I don't know why I stayed behind that wall and listened...

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"You ran into Sero, I heard what happened last night."
"You tryna fuckin' get in my business too? Stick your fucking curiosity up your ass, you bastard."
"Not when you're trying to mess with them. Not when you're trying to mess with him-"
"I'M NOT 'MESSING' WITH HIM. I'M GENUINELY--"
"'GENUINELY' MY ASS. YOU'RE AN EMOTIONLESS BASTARD, AND I KNOW IT. I SAW IT MYSELF-"
"Here you fucking go again to the past-- FORGET ABOUT IT, WON'T YOU-!?"
"How can I forget about it when I see it threatening to replay with someone else-- He doesn't deserve to go through what I had to go through-"
"'HAD'?! Please, fucking SPARE ME. IT WAS YOUR POOR DECISION OF STAYING AROUND FOR THAT FUCKING LONG-!"
"I would have left SO much sooner once I realized how sick you were-- Now I actually pity you, Katsuki. How's that mental illness going for ya?! You think he's gonna give you a chance when he finds out?! Or you want me to tell him now so that your black heart gets spared?!" 
"DON'T--"
"Oh wait. You don't spare lost causes."
"IF YOU FUCKIN' FILL HIS HEAD WITH BULLSHIT I SWEAR TO FUCKIN' GOD-- I'M NOT FUCKING MENTALLY ILL, YOU INSENSITIVE BASTARD--"
"THAT'S NOT WHAT YOUR RECORDS FUCKING SHOWED-"

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I've heard enough.
I ran away from that hallway and looked for a private place, one where I knew I would be left alone. 

I'm seeing who the bad guy is here now.

Todoroki.
I'm not about to let this happen.
But first... I need to hear both sides of the situation.

Sure... I could be biased for Bakugo...
But I won't. 

This... is sounding a lot more serious than I thought it was...

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He's alone... finally. 
He's looking...--
Oh my god. He's...

"Hey... Bakugo...-!"

He jumped... did I really startle him that badly?
He immediately started wiping his eyes and got up to his feet.

"H-Hey-"
"What's wrong...? Are you cryin--?"
"NO!" He snaps loudly. "I- TH-THE FUCK DO YOU THINK  I AM?!"
"A-... A human being? Dude, you're allowed to cry..."
"T-TCH-! WH-WHATEVER-"
"No... it's not 'whatever'..."

I approach him slowly. 
But I'm also being cautious.

I know he can get violent. 
And I'm not stupid.

"Can I... talk to you-?"
"W-WHAT DO YOU WANT-!?"
"Well,- First I want you to breathe deeply... and to calm down."
"I AM-"
"No... you're not. It's okay."

I have a few 'guesses', or 'assumptions' of what I could be getting myself into here.
My strongest guess here is that he has a disorder.
I don't think... it's mental illness...

It took me an entire ten minutes just to get him to sit down.
And another ten to convince him to come to a more private setting for us to talk.
He felt 'safer' in his dorm room, and I easily agreed.

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"I... feel terrible keeping this from you, so I've decided to tell you as soon as possible..." I begin quietly. "I... overheard... some of your conversation with Todoroki..."

His eyes go completely horrified. 
His eyebrows furrow,-
And I'm suddenly fearing for my safety--

"Y-..You... did what...-" he growled through gritted teeth. "WHAT PART DID YOU HEAR- HOW MUCH DID YOU HEAR-"
"It's okay-! Don't yell again!" 

I know that keeping confidence in these types of situations is good. 
Eye contact, however... I'm not so sure.
I really didn't do my research... this isn't the best time to really do this, not when I'm so uneducated like this-

"I didn't hear anything personal-!"
"THE ENTIRE. FUCKING. CONVERSATION WAS PERSONAL."

His eyes are getting red again, is he gonna cry-?!

"WH- WHY DID YOU LISTEN- Y-YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO LISTEN, NO ONE WAS SUPPOSED TO LISTEN--"
"I know! That's--... That's why I'm telling you I heard it- I don't want you to think I'd hide something like that from you,- I-... I'm sorry...! I really didn't mean to, I was looking for someone and stumbled upon you two..."
"H-He was lying- He doesn't know what he was fucking talking about-"
"W-..Woah woah woah,- slow down, dude... calm down, it's alright...-" 
"HE'S A FUCKING LIAR-!"
"I didn't say anything-!"

What... am I getting myself into...
I don't regret it, I don't regret it at all...
I feel like I'm doing something important. I'm gonna try my hardest to help him.

"H-He's wrong-!"
"Calm down..." my voice falls softer. "Explain to me, what are you so freaked out about me thinking he's right-"

He almost began to spill it all out.
But he caught himself.

"Wh-What do you know..." he chokes out in a growl. "I-I'm not about to give you information you don't need...-"

I sigh quietly. I adjust my position to a more comfortable one and begins, "I heard... something... about you running into Sero last night... and something about 'you messing with 'him''... and something 'replaying'? And... Mental... illness...--?"
"NOT TRUE-!"
"What's not true-?!"
"I'm not mentally ill! I- I'm not!" His voice is getting shakier and shakier... "I'M NOT...!-"
"Okay, okay-! I believe you..." I claim. "I believe you..."

He's breathing heavily now. He's extremely agitated. 

"You and Todoroki really don't get along, don't you--?"
"HE'S A BASTARD! HE'S A FUCKING MONSTER--"
"Woah, alright-! Alright, here... here here,-- It's fine! Calm down Bakugo..."

He grabs the sides of his head and arches his back, as a loud growl rips through him. His eyes are shut tightly and his teeth are gritted so hardly.
He then retches forward and begins to breathe heavily again. 

"I wanna kill him... I- I'm gonna kill him... I swear-"

I stare at him in... concern.

I approach him slowly. 

"B-Bakugo... You don't mean that... you're not thinking right, are you...?"
"I- I SAID I-I'M NOT-!"
"I never brought it back up-?!"

I let silence surround us.
And surely, he begins to wind back down.
He's crying quietly now... he never left that retched over position. 
Three minutes roll by.

"Y-...You don't-... You don't th-think... I- I'm mentally ill... d-do you...?"

That... that broke my heart...
Oh my god...  he's really suffering, isn't he...? Everyone... what are they doing to him...?

"Wh-What-?! No...! N-No, Bakugo-!"
"E-..Everyone else says I am..."
"They're rude! They're just rude... They're disrespectful-"

But now... I'm confused.

"I was... diagnosed... w-with something..."

So is he, or is he not...
God, I don't think I'm ready to do something like this...
I'm just a teenager. I'm... not a therapist...

...

But I'm willing to give it my all.

"What were you diagnosed with?"

He begins to shake his head lightly. "I-It's not a mental illness..."

"What's not a mental illness, Bakugo?"

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"C'mon, dude... tell me. I'm actually begging--" 
"No." 

When I saw I wasn't getting anywhere with Bakugo, I moved on to Todoroki.
And the same luck was given...

"It's not of your business, Kirishima. You shouldn't be speaking with him in the first place-"
"LISTEN. WHO I TALK TO, AND WHO I HANG OUT WITH IS NO ONE'S BUSINESS. I'M MY OWN FUCKING PERSON, AND IF I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH HIM, GOD DAMN IT I'M GONNA DO IT."

I want to THROW something... I'm that pissed off about that topic.
And he seems to realize that.

"PTSD." He simply states. "Both of us. Are diagnosed with PTSD.--"

Now my anger is directed towards him too.

"Aren't you... an asshole..."
"Excuse me-?"
"You dared stand up to his face and call him all those things-- When YOU'RE DIAGNOSED WITH IT TOO?!"
"Do not. Raise your voice at me-"
"AND INSTEAD OF YOU TWO SEEKING HELP, YOU DECIDE TO POUR THE SHIT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH ON HIM?!"
"LISTEN. YOU'RE GETTING YOURSELF INTO SOMETHING YOU SHOULDN'T. I'M TRYING TO SAVE YOU FROM POSSIBLE TRAUMA AND YOU'RE BEING A STUBBORN LITTLE SHIT-"
"AND I'M TRYING TO SAVE YOU TWO FROM THAT TRAUMA, BUT YOU'RE THE ONE BEING A STUCK-UP LITTLE SHIT! YOU DON'T SAY STUFF LIKE THAT TO ANYONE-!"
"Leave. RIGHT NOW. Before I do something we'll both regret-"

"Yo, what's the shouting for-- Break it up, the both of you." A familiar voice walks in.

The both of us turn towards the voice to see Sero looking at us angrily.

"Step away from each other."
"Sero get out of here," I growl lowly.
"Don't try to be the bigger guy here, Kiri. Listen to me, stop being stubborn."
"Sero I said. Get out. Of here. And don't get yourself into something you shouldn't--"
"What, you two spilling blood?! I can't allow you to get yourself into something so STUPID. Kirishima, what's going on with you!?"

Kaminari jogs down the stairs and passes behind Sero. He quickly moves up to us, and in between Todoroki and I. Midoriya, and a few girls appeared shortly after as well.

"No no-- All of you, go back upstairs. They don't need an audience right now. Please, c'mon--" Sero claims.

"Todoroki, bro, let's go outside, alright-?" Kaminari begins.
"None of you should be entering this conversation-"
"It wasn't a conversation, it was winding up to a fight. C'mon bro, I'm not asking. Let's go outside, you gotta get away from him."

What... is... happening to us?

"Why the hell are you all here... Go away! This isn't for you guys-!" I snap.
Kaminari is leading Todoroki out the door, Todoroki is grumbling things under his breath and Kaminari is continuously telling him to calm down.

"It as well might have been! You guys were shouting! The entire first floor could hear you-!"
"Didn't mean you were all invited!"
"Kirishima, be quiet," Sero grumbles. "Pay attention to what you're acting like. Remind you of someone-?"
"DON'T. YOU FUCKING DARE--"

Now I'm catching myself. 
I need fresh air... I really am acting unlike myself.

I storm out, not realizing how loudly I'm growling. 

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