Inside my blanket... 4:25 am

Asalamualaikum
My dear time capsule...

Another nightmare. This time I feel so terrified as if something untoward will happen, everything is beginning to get to me, I don't think I can handle this inner fear of being trapped in my mind anymore. I feel so alone, so cold and so trapped in this fear of mine, I don't even know whether I make sense anymore.

All those beautiful dreams, the colourful rainbows, the sunshine seem to have disappeared, and bleakness has engulfed me. I wish to be rescued and taken to safety. I want to breathe again, feel normal. I want to be hugged and held in strong arms. I want to feel safe again. I want to break this fear and end this prison of solitude. Please help me.....

💔 I'm sorry for feeling so weak. I need to be strong. I wish for a better tomorrow. The smell of fear, should disappear from my head, my heart needs to feel safe and calm. Let's try tomorrow.

Yours Nash
Wasalamualaikum