Song for this chapter: Not a love song / Two punks in love - Bulow 

I could lie and say that I wasn't over reacting or maybe even that I wasn't behaving idiotically. But, the thought of Nate and Maddy literally drove me to an extreme point of insanity. I wish I never met Nate Jacobs. Life made sense before him you know? But now here I was walking down the side of the road still wishing he would command my every movement. I wanted him to chase after me, as foolish as that seemed. I wanted him to touch me in front of everyone. I wanted to be his so desperately that I was willing to take it to any length. And if that even mean't getting Maddy out of the picture. Then so be it.
"Hey," I spoke, catching the attention of the cute guy at the gas station, "Fezco right?"
"Sup?" Fez spoke nonchalantly, nodding his head up at me.
"Are you busy?" I blurted out, running my fingers through my hair. 
"No, why?" Fez asked, a look of confusion spread on his face.
"I could really use a friend," I admit, "And well I've never done this friend thing before. Maybe do you want to get some breakfast or something?"
"That'd be cool. There is a diner about a block over," Fezco spoke, the stubble on his chin now a visible carrot orange. Even with the now growing beard he was still completely fuckable. From the way he spoke to the innocent look in his eyes. I wouldn't mind staring at his face between my thighs. The thought made a tickling sensation rush through my core. If I wasn't so fucking infatuated with Nate I wouldn't be standing her wondering what he would feel like, I would already know. 
"That would be lovely," I cooed, biting down on my lip. 

The walk to the diner was filled with small talk in an attempt to get to know each other. So far Fezco was just an absolute sweetheart. We talked about Rue and I was genuinely shocked to find out about her long history with drug abuse. Personally she was just so sweet and kind every time we had an encounter, it was shocking how the ones with the brightest smiles always had something hidden. 

"So how come you look so sad?" Fez questioned, while we waited for drinks. 

I looked sad... and someone noticed. My emotions were written across my face in a way that another person could see them. What was Nate doing to me. 

"Just guy issues," I forced a smile, shrugging off his question. 

"Figured. A pretty girl like you is bound to have guy issues," Fez chuckled. 

"Honestly this is my first time dealing with boy troubles," I admitted, pulling at the sleeves of my shirt to bunch them up in my fists. "But man he can be an assholes."

Which wasn't a lie. Nate was an asshole. He was the biggest asshole I had ever met in my life, yet he was also the sweetest asshole. I felt so warm in his embrace, and even when I was being the ultimate brat he was still on the other end smiling. I just wish I could be better for him. I wish I didn't always have these urges to be on top, or just get angry at the slightest inconvenience. 

"You'll know if it's mean't to be," Fez shrugged, holding up the menu. 

I have a feeling it isn't going to be that easy. 

What I thought would only be breakfast turned into nearly an entire day of just talking and laughing, after breakfast we had went back to Fezco's place and sat on his couch talking for hours. It ended up being everything I needed and more. I had never really had a friend before, I never really cared for creating an attachment to people I suppose. But let me tell you, it felt like a literal weight had been lifted off my chest opening up to someone. Fez had dropped me off a couple minutes before school ended in hopes that I would catch Nate in time to apologize for how I had reacted this morning. 

"Hey!" Jared greeted, stopping me in the empty hallway. 

"I thought I told you to stay away from me," I muttered looking up at the wide eyed boy, how can he always look so happy. 

"I just wanted to see if you were doing any better, I seen you walk away from Nate this morning," Jared spoke with still a smile on his face. 

This kid was really starting to get annoying. I didn't need a play by play about all the shit that was happening in my life. Also why the hell does he always happen to be watching. I guess in his defense we weren't exactly secretive about our fights, or our transgressions on the sidewalks. 

"I'm fine. Just didn't feel like school today," I spoke scrunching up my nose. 

The school bell went off loudly, and doors began to open around us. 

"I gotta go," I smiled in an attempt to be nice. 

"Are you free tomorrow?" Jared questioned quickly, stopping me from walking away. 

"Depends."

"I just thought we could go to a movie or something? You know I am a better choice then Nate any day," Jared spoke confidently. 

"Then I'm busy," I replied quickly, laughing loudly at the blonde boy comment. Better then Nate. That's gotta be the funniest thing I've heard all day. 

Jared looked up at me wide eyed, as I stood in front of him laughing my fool head off. A pair of arms wrapped around my waist causing me to jump in place. My heart began racing. 

"There you are babe," Nate's familiar gruff tone spoke in my ear. 

"You can't scare me like that," I squealed stomping my foot like a child having a fit. 

"You're cute," Nate purred, "We still on for movies after practice?" 

My eyes widened at his response. So he had changed his mind. What a relief.

"Sure," I stuttered, smiling widely. 

Poor Jared. Not only was he rejected harshly but he was stuck standing in front of us watching this display of affection. 

"Want to come watch my practice? I'd love to have my princess front row cheering me on," Nate spoke, causing a few head turns from the passing classmates. 

My heart swooned at his soft and genuine words. I don't know what made him have a change of heart, but it really made me feel guilty now for how I was acting this morning. God, the things I felt for this boy were so unreal and terrifying.

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I decided I love Fez too much to not put him in the story, I think I am even going to have Abigail be in a couple chapters and make the two euphoria stories go together somewhat. I love the idea of Abigail and Lily being friends. More updates coming soon. Also thank you so much everyone for 30k reads. My heart is so full xoxox Caylen.