You guys get a little more of Leon and Rue so enjoy because shit is gonna get more messy.

'03 Bonnie and Clyde'

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"Fuck...The one good thing that came out of all of this is now I shouldn't
Easily open up and fuck up again."

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Leon sat in his car with a cigarette in his mouth as he inhales the smoke before releasing some. He wished he could cry which was definitely something he wouldn't say out loud but there were no more tears to shed and the damage was done. He couldn't hate Maddy he really couldn't but maybe he couldn't forgive her either, he must have done something wrong for her to cheat. He looked up at the sky and pictured himself being far away from this piece of shit town. Maybe in the city living a good life finally happy.

But for right now suffering would have to do. He wanted to get high he was clean for way longer than probably anyone expected but he didn't want Maddy to be the reason why he relapsed that is a major dick move. So cigarettes would have to do, yeah they were really bad for you but it's not like he cared anyways.

Flashback

"You Don't have to say anything Maddy." Leon strokes her hair as Maddy cries.

"I really fuckin wish i don't find love like theirs Leon it's literally exhausting having to watch them and hear them." Maddy wipes some tears.

"You know my parents were happy being married to each other because they both had the same amount of hatred for me." Leon reveals making Maddy look at him.

"Lee." She wipes her tears feeling terrible for even bringing up her parents ignoring each other. "I'm so sorry." She chuckles sadly. "Here I am complaining about a minor problem when there are people who have it worse."

Leon shakes his head and kisses her hands. "Maddy your problems matter to me, I would do anything to make them go away. I want you to be happy."

Maddy kisses his hands looks at him sadly. "If it's not too personal to ask, how did your parents treat you?"

and he continues. " my childhood was shit, we were poor, my parents hated my guts, i was abused for years till i was 15 and when i moved here with my cousin. I don't really know what love is because instead of hugs and words of encouragement it was kicked in the ribs and no food for who knows how long. And it wasn't always because we were poor it was because they enjoyed seeing me so skinny and helpless."

"Leo im so sorry you had to go through that." Maddy says. How could people be so cruel to do that to their kid, much less Leon.

"Its fine i dont live like that anymore and yeah it still hurts thinking about all the shit they did to me but im here and now that i have you i feel nothing but happiness. And it kills me to see you sad Maddy it really does." He says hugging Maddy tightly and kissing her cheek repeatedly making Maddy break out into a smile and laughs. "Theres that smile."

"Shut up...but thank you for being here and for being you..."

Leon smiles sadly at the memory.

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"Lee?"

"Can i come in?"

"Yeah." Rue moves aside as Leon comes through the window and sits on the bed looking at his shoes. "Are you okay?"

"No...i dont think so...but..." he stops himself and looks at his hands. "Do you love Jules?"

"What?" Rue asks caught off guard.

"Are you in love with Jules?" Leon asks.

Rue bites her lip before she speaks. "Yeah..."

"Do you think getting clean, and sacrificing the one thing that made you happy for someone is worth it?"

"I mean for Jules...yeah i do think so why?" Rue sits on the bed.

"Rue i miss my old life i was so carefree and i did the shit i wanted to do and then it all changed, i thought it was good that i was finally getting my act together but getting clean for someone doesn't benefit you at all because they're happy so you expect yourself to be happy, but you sit in the shower and contemplate weather you actually are or your putting on this facade." He rants getting up from the bed and pacing.

"Lee what are you talking about-"

"God! Rue open your eyes, no one can love an addict like me or You! Because then they would think about when a curtain moment will be their last with each other, if you relapse your a failure, when you feel like shit they "support" you when In reality they have no hope for you! I never had that and when i did i thought shit was gonna get better but it never did all that happened was i got my hopes way to high and now im literally questioning if i was the problem!" Leon's head was moving in circles why cant he just blame Maddy and move on his head was starting to hurt and his heart felt like it was gonna break.

"Is this about Maddy?" Rue asks.

I was a bit taken back to say the least Lee was never quite open with me when it came to questioning what was good and what was bad. And maybe it was true maybe addicts like us don't deserve to be loved but I really fucking hope he's wrong.

"Leon what did she do?" Rue asks standing in front of Leon. His face said it all and she felt her hands make it to her mouth as her eyes widen. "Are you joking? Lee you better be joking right now?"

"Im not Rue, I really wish i was but im not...and maybe just maybe its not true." Leon hopes.

"Well are you okay, did you guys fight? Should i beat her ass?" Rue asks. Leon laughs dryly like if Maddy cheating on him took a real toll on him.

"No beating her ass will just make me feel worse and im not gonna gain shit from it." He sighs before smiling. "Maybe its for the best maybe i just need some independence."

"Lee your not okay, you seemed like you were head over heels for her, if your not feeling good just say that and i wo-"

"What! You wont judge thats what they all say but if i open up then you'll just think im pathetic and yeah maybe i am but i dont want my best friend to say that to me."

"I would never say that to you, i care about you just know that. I dont show it leon but I genuinely care about you and you visited me in Rehab, provided me drugs which to others it might be a real asshole move but..." she wipes a tear. "I don't want you to be like this im here, Maddy just wasn't the girl and thats okay. The world isn't gonna end-"

"But Rue im in love with her." His voice cracks as he holds in his tears like his life depended on it. "And crying over her is much worse then the time my parents- never mind. It was mistake coming here, im a burden and it is what is i think im just gonna-"

Rue hugs him tightly as they sob in each other's arms. "No don't say that Lee, your my best friend. Please talk to me, I'll listen. I love you Leon but please don't ever say this kinda shit again."