I've Been So Many Places In My Life In Time




'And Salt The Earth Behind You.'

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Leon found out why Maddy cheated well not really but he believed it. He depend way to much on her, like he was all into drugs and always high as fuck...then he meets Maddy and all of a sudden he feels like he instantly falls in love and shit and when he 'loses' her he admits she's the best thing that's happened to him. Maybe Maddy couldn't handle that and just wanted to feel free so she did what she did there for Leon was the problem and Maddy stays perfect.

"Lee thats literally the fucking dumbest thing you've ever said." Lexi says making a face at her friend smoking a cigarette.

"True but sometimes-"

"Lee Listen to me im not dumb if you miss her just say it."

"I miss Maddy."


































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Leon laid softly on his bed, the withdrawals were hurting like a bitch but after he heard what happened with Rue he couldn't help but feel like he was the cause of the overdose.

He curled up as he cried before he gently rolls off the bed, he walks towards his desks and looks for some crushed up pills in a baggy he gets a book and a dollar bill. Leon makes a couple of lines before he looks out into space he wipes a tear before he snorts the powder.

The rush of the drugs hits his system quickly as if all the sadness and tiredness had left him and now he was slowly drifting towards a light.

Leon hears soft whimpers he quickly gets up as he moves closer to the sound, he comes across a familiar door. His childhood bedroom door. Leon puts his shaky hand on it before opening it, he lets out a sob at the sight. 12 year old Leon nearly beaten to death curled up in a ball brawling his eyes out.

Young Leon hears the door Creek and uses as much strength as he can to get away. All while weekly holding his hand up. "Please dont hurt me im sorry! Please....Please...."

Leon sobs once again before walking towards the young boy. Instead of talking he hugs him tightly, something he never got as a kid. They sob loudly as they felt completely heartbroken. "Why do they hate me so much, im just a kid I didn't ask to be born." The young boys cries as his tears soak the older boys shirt. "What did i ever do, am I really that much of a burden to the point where they nearly beat me to death! Its Not Fair! Its Not Fuckin Fair!"

Leon pulls away to take a look at the boy. He had a noticeable black eye with a busted lip and a bleeding head. He had bruises cover most of his skinny arms and who knew what was lying underneath the shirt and his legs. "Im sorry...im so sorry no one was there for us. Im sorry..." Leon Cries as he feels himself collapsing to the floor.

There were 2 words Leon always wanted to hear his entire life and even if they weren't true he just wanted to hear then. "Its Okay." he repeated as they hug and cry.

What made this so much more painful was that Leon wasn't hugging anything but his knees. No one was there and maybe it was for the best.






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Leon Anzora he was more than a friend he was like my brother."

"Hello im Leon Anzora." Leon introduces himself to the people of the church, Rue softly smiles at him.

"Hello Leon." Some people respond.

"Ali asked if i could say a few word so im for that." He pulls out a paper and clears his throat.

"I met Rue a couple months after i moved here to live with my cousin, and so far i would call it my best decision. Rue to me was more than a friend or a sister i felt like i had to protect her in anyway possible, i was a mess up as well im a dropout and i am an addict but I've been clean for 3 months." The people clap and he shakes his head. "But this isn't about me, I didn't like Rue using because weather she saw it or not i saw potential in her. She was an old soul I haven't known her for her whole life but i known her long enough to know that she struggled a lot. She lost her dad, has OCD, anxiety, Bipolar depression and on top of that is an addict." he holds in a breath. "Her overdose was my lowest because i thought i was gonna loose Rue, I thought I wasn't gonna be able to take bike rides with her in the middle of the night, There wasn't gonna be anymore sleep overs, I wouldn't be able to eat more Mexican food with her and watch old movies like we always did." Rue smiles sadly.

Im Sorry.

"I never be able to dance with her, and when she would hug me tightly when i would dip her..." he chuckles softly. "I thought i was gonna loose my best friend forever.... seeing her in that hospital in a coma i walked out of the room and just kept thinking one thing 'Don't Leave Me Bennett I Really Need You...' she woke up eventually but kept using and i was feeding into her addiction. And people are gonna hate me for that but i was in panic thats no excuse as well but owning up to something was difficult being blamed was always somewhat happened to me since i was a kid." Leon looks at Rue while putting the paper away.

"The day you went to the hospital for the kidney infection your mom talked to me in the waiting room."

Flashback

"Thank You Leon." Leslie says hugging the slim boy.

"It was nothing Leslie really i would do it for you and Gia." Leon shrugs. They sat in silence before Leslie grabbed his hand.

"Im proud of you." She smiles.

"Why?"

"Cause your clean." Leon's eyes slightly widen and before he can say anything she continues. "Im not gonna ask why or how im just here to say you're a good influence on Rue i dont care about your past or your record and clearly neither does Rue. She really cares about you.... I remember when she first met you she said that..." she smiles sadly. "...she said that you smelled just like her father and the curly hair she said it reminded her of his...im sorry does that make you uncomfortable?"

"No, no not at all i love Rue and would do anything to keep her safe." He looks away and looks down at his bracelets. "When i was 16 I overdosed."

"You did." Leslie gasps.

"Yeah and I didn't..I didn't have anyone, my parents aren't good people and I remember feeling like absolute shit because i was so lonely." He laughs sadly. "And I was thinking the entire time why didn't i just die you know, all i ever wanted was to feel loved and safe but no one did make me feel safe and when i found that person, Maybe I pressured her to much and she couldn't take it. Im glad that Rue has people who care and support her....she needs it....she's fragile." Leon says looking down.

Leslie felt bad she didn't know how Leon really was and maybe nobody else did either.

"Leon im glad your in my babies life for real, i mean i never really liked you in the beginning but i can see that you really care about her so i just wanna say if you need anything we're here." Leslie smiles at the young teen who instantly smiles back.

Flashback

"Leslie is an amazing women Rue. And I wouldn't have ever done drugs if she was my mom. Im not guilt tripping you in anyway but just know when you hurt someone who really cares about you...later on you realize how much they truly gave up for you." Leon smiles at Rue and sits back down.




























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"Lexi this isn't like fucking cancer i put myself through this! Im tired, I haven't smoked or drank in so fuckin long its eating me alive. I know... i know it can kill me, you act as if I didn't know that but when you make the same mistakes over! And over again you can't help but think 'maybe this is whats helping' maybe my life is supposed to be like this, being a human is about making mistakes and maybe im the mistake. Did you ever think about that?" He yells at Lexi who looked at him with tears in her eyes. "Every time i feel like things are finally going good, people fuck me over and the only thing that helps..." He points at the desk with drugs on it. "Is that! Because it hasn't left me i feel alone and abandoned what makes you think i wanna be okay with that!"

Leon takes a good look at Lexi and sees she looks scared, he instantly regrets yelling at her, his tears from frustration and anger were now with regret and sadness.

"Im sorry. Im so sorry....I'll go im sorry Lexi, im sorry..." his voice cracks as he steps back and looks at her. He bits his lip to hold back more tears. "Im sorry."

Lexi instantly hugs him as she cries on her shoulder.

"Why do i have to be so fucking horrible Lex?"

"Its Gonna Be Okay." Lexi mumbles. Leon's eyes widen at the sentence. He hug her tightly and began to cry with happy tears. He had finally heard those words.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you." He whispers over an over as he sobs.


























































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Leon sat in a bathroom Floor he was struggling a lot. He had been for the past few month. But he was at an all time low. Leon had hid it very well because drugs helped him cope and being clean was making him suffer way more then the drugs ever did. Maybe getting clean wasn't a good idea, but it is what it is.

Leon opened the box to see the crystal meth in view along with a needle and a little thin oxygen tube. He calm takes them out and lifts up his sleeve he looks at the healed scars. Pulling out a spoon he began to prepare his long awaited moment. Letting the now liquid flow in the needle syringe he places his arm around the little oxygen tube he puts the end in his mouth and injects the drug in him it stung a bit but after he calmed down a bit he removed the needle and leaned his head on the wall.

For the first time in almost 4 months he felt like himself again. God did he miss this. He had heard from Ali that relapse was a step closer to getting clean and He didn't want to seem mean but he thought it wasn't true, when you relapse you gain the pleasure, the comfort, the reason for your living back. Drugs are bad and will kill you if you keep taking that but maybe dying doesn't seem like a bad thing. Depressing yes but the truth can sometimes make it seem like it is.

He laid on the ground as the feeling of Euphoria came rushing through his veins. He smiled in content before looking at the ceiling. The stall felt like it was getting bigger and he suddenly felt small but he didn't care he waited to long for this moment sleep sounded like the next best option considering he hadn't sleep in a while. Neither has he eaten, he also hadn't seen Lexi or Rue since last week.

Being alone seemed like the best option at the moment.

Leon Anzora had offically relapsed.

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