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"I Don't Think Harassing
This Girl Proves Shit Jacobs."

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"Rue don't do stupid shit." Leon says. "I'm fuckin serious." Leon warns walking in the house.

"Don't worry about me I'm fine have fun Lee I'll text you when I wanna go home." Rue walks away without another word and Leon heads inside. One of the worst things about having a car and being with Rue was that he couldn't drink, well he was able to but then it was a possibility that he would crash.

So he would have avoid any drink as possible. He walked outside and began to sell the drugs. Being form this shit town many of these little shits bought and used drugs so he got a real kick when scamming some at times, and there was always those kids that didn't want to seem like losers so they would maybe buy drugs for them and their friends.

"Sup Leo!" Fez greets smoking a blunt as Leon sits next to him. "How's business."

"Good actually selling a lot and making enough." Leon takes the blunt and proceeds to smoke it. "You?"

"I'm doing fine just sold everything." Fez looks at the pool before asking Leon. "Why you still offering Rue drugs Leon the whole point in rehab is to get clean and that ain't happening if you just keep offering her drugs."

"I know Fez, I was fucking worried when I found out Rue's od but what can I do, I'm a hypocrite if I don't give her the drugs, but I'm an asshole and a killer if I keep feeding into her addiction." He looks at the people dancing and remembers one moment that happened when he first started using. "Back in Colorado when I first started using I had this friend a complete nerd and shit had parents who were homophobic and conservative. He told me he was gay and I promised him I wouldn't say anything, I didn't have any money at the time and was going through really bad withdrawals and I needed money. He was rich and I asked him if he could lend me, I begged and cried because it the pain and he wouldn't budge." Leon paused as Fez took in every word he was saying. "I got really angry and I went up to his parents and told the That their son was gay, they were shocked and my friend hated me since then. Something you should know about an Addict is they can be ruthless and when stuff gets said, it can fuck a lot of shit up."

Fez looks at Leon who looked upset at himself. Fez Cares about Leon and he didn't actually know how bad his addiction was but he also saw the best in Leon and wanted Leon to not live this life anymore.

"Leon your a good kid and I think you should know that there's always a way out even when you don't see it."

"Honestly Fez I think I'm better off like this, and I'm okay with that." Leon gets up without another word as Fezco's eyes softened at his friend walking away.

"Hey man." Rue said walking towards Fez.

"Hey Rue wassup?"

"Just chilling and shit." For the next couple of minutes they talked about her addiction and why she can't leave it behind her till the topic of Leon came.

"Aye do you know anything about Leo's like past and shit, how'd he like become an addict?"

"He started when he was 15 because his uncle had ADHD and he took some adderall form there he did a bunch of shit, his addiction actually really bad Fez. Really fuckin bad." Rue admits.

"How bad?" Fez ask looking at Rue.

"He takes shit so it makes him feel like he's dead, I do drugs cause it makes me feel good, but he thats way different Fez he does them because he wants to die and when he feels that when he's high it makes him abuse it more." Rue wipes a tear that slips. "Don't tell him I told you this but I get scared he has a high tolerance I've never seen before and that shit scares me because I care about him and I don't want him to like die because I feel like he's the only one who understands me." Rue wipes her tears as she smiles sadly.

I never actually admit this but I care about Leon, nobody really made him feel loved and his mindset on being better off dead makes me think that I'm gonna find him dead or something and picturing that just makes me feel like I'm gonna cause it. And maybe I will I just hope god forbids it.

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Slow Dancing In The Dark - Joji

Leon was up in the bathroom splashing his face with water.

He digs in his pockets to find the pills he got earlier. He quickly crushes two of them up before he looks at them and takes a deep breath. He covers one of his nostrils and began to let the powder enter his system.

I don't want a friend (just me) I want my life in two (my life in two) Just one more night

Leon leans back as he feels the effects starts to take in. He felt the room began to shrink as he pushed himself up straight,

Waiting to get there Waiting for you (all night) I'm done fighting all night (waiting for you) When I'm around slow dancing in the dark

Leon looks at himself in the mirror and sees his pupils begin to dilate. He bagan to feel like he was floating.

Don't follow me, you'll end up in my arms You have made up your mind I don't need no more signs

His body began to swiftly moves out of the bathroom and into the hallway.

Can you? Can you? Give me reasons we should be complete You should be with him, I can't compete You looked at me like I was someone else, oh well

The motion began to slow down and his heartbeat began to pick up as he listened to his breathing starting to pick up. He looks at his hands to see glitter on the and he began to shed tears.

Can't you see? (Can't you see?) I don't wanna slow dance (I don't want to slow dance)
In the dark Dark

He had never been so lonely before. No one ever made him feel good and he truly believed there was no good in him but why did it feel so horrible now, why couldn't this happen in his last moments?

When you gotta run Just hear my voice in you (my voice in you) Shutting me out of you (shutting me out of you)

As he took a step near the stairs he bagan to feel the room spin, Leon quickly saw the rotation and walked around the walls nearly falling as he began to hyperventilate.

Doing so great (so great, so great) You Used to be the one (used to be the one)
To hold you when you fall

A small push made him fall once he made it to the ceiling, as he fell so did his breathing. It began to worry him and after a huge breeze pushed past him he was in his room.

Yeah, yeah, yeah (when you fall, when you fall) I don't fuck with your tone (I don't fuck with your tone)

He lied there as he was surrounded by Drugs and alcohol before he felt pain shoot up from his legs to his abdomen. When he pulled his shirt up he was met with horrible bruises like when he was a kid.

I don't wanna go home (I don't wanna go home) Can it be one night?
Can you? Can you?

He got up quickly when he heard footsteps to see his mother and father walking in with smug smiles. He looked at the mirror and saw his younger self shirtless and covered in bruises and extremely skinny.

Give me reasons we should be complete You should be with him, I can't compete
You looked at me like I was someone else, oh well
Can't you see?

"You no good piece of shit!" His mother began to slap his face over and over till it was completely numb. "You wanna tell that bitch that we beat you then show her this and explain with your words you rat!" Leon felt himself fall to the ground as he curled up in a ball. His father beating him with the belt and calling him every name in the book.

"You should be lucky we didn't abort you! So take the hits like a man and learn your lesson!" He continue to take the beating as tears began to fall from his face and sobs and whimpers were heard throughout the room.

I don't wanna slow dance (I don't want to slow dance)
In the dark
Dark
In the dark
Dark

He felt a kick and his abdomen before he had taken his last breath both from relief and from pain. His vision began to blur as he saw Rue, Fez, Ashtray and his parents look down on him and do nothing. He really was alone in this Cruel world.

This psychedelic trip was a real reality check.

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Leon made his way downstairs and sat on the couch as he pulls out a blunt and began to smoke. He probably shouldn't be consuming so many drugs but at this point he really didn't and couldn't give a fuck.

Everything was going all going smooth before Leon heard a loud noise. He chose to ignore it and continue to smoke but the yelling kept on coming.

Nate continues to yell at Jules who looked terrified as Leon started to get a headache from all the yelling. He got up from the couch he was sitting on and out out his blunt as he threw it on the floor. He walks through the people and pushes them as he gets in front.

"Can you shut the fuck up." Leon asks groaning running his hand through his hair.

"What did you say?" Nate asks glaring at Leon.

"I said can you shut the fuck up, your literally ruined people's nights." Leon bluntly states grabbing a soda from the fridge as people watch. Jules looks at him with completely wide eyes as he sips on the soda.

"Listen Anzora I'm not sure why any of this is your business-"

"Okay." Leon shrugs

"I was just asking her a question." Nate shrugs.

"I don't think harassing a poor girl is asking a question Nate." Leon says taking one last sip of his soda before pouring the rest of it on Nate's head.

"Your gonna regret that." Nate says with anger as he harshly glares at Leon, who stands there with a smug smirk.

"Am I?" Leon taunts. Nate lunges toward him before a group a guys pull him back. Leon stands there unfazed as Nate cusses him out and people record. Leon turns towards Jules and sticks his hand out.

Jules looks at him hesitant and Leon looks at her. "Don't worry I want anything, you look like you've had a rough night." Jules takes his hand with the arm that doesn't have a cut. Leon slowly takes her through the crowd of people and makes there way outside. "You okay?"

"Um yeah." She whispers

"Listen Jules? Is it? I'm not gonna ask for anything his yelling was giving me a headache and you seemed like you needed help."

"Well thank you..."

"Leon. Leon Anzora." Leon sticks his hand out which Jules shakes.

"Thanks Leon really nice of you." Jules picks up her bike and before she gets on it Rue comes out.

"Hey Leo." Rue says clearly high. She looks at Jules and smiles. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine." Jules says with a smile.

"I'm Rue."

"I'm Jules." Jules looks at her bike, "I'm gonna go."

"You guys need a ride?" Leon asks breaking There little small talk.

"Aren't you drunk and I have my bike so-"

"We can put the bike in my trunk and I didn't drink because I have to take Rue home somehow." Leon explains.

"Okay fine let's go." Jules says. The put her bike in his trunk and get inside. The whole way to Jules house Rue and Jules talked once in a while Leon would join in. The drugs were still affecting him but he had driven high before so this wasn't a problem.