"Do you think you're finally getting it?" I asked, the room was slowly getting lighter. I let out a long yawn, barely able to hold my head up anymore. We had stayed up all night long trying to get Draco to learn the spell, not sleeping once. Who knew it'd be this difficult?

"I don't know." He huffed. He was definitely frustrated. He stood up from the chair by my desk and made his way over to the deep window sill. He sat down on it and put his back against one side, putting his feet up on it, his legs bent, and looked out the window.

I looked out the giant windows and saw that the stars were still in the sky, but barely. They were slowly starting to go away. Disappearing as the day light was taking it's place.

"Just give me a break for a couple of minutes. Then we'll try again." He sighed. He turned and looked at me, a lazy smile on his lips.

His eyes looked so tired and worn out. He had dark circles under them. I could only imagine what I looked like. I felt myself give him a soft smile back.

My eyes were burning. I was ready to curl up in a ball and sleep all day. Draco tapped the windowsill between his legs with his hand, and motioned for me to come over to him with the other. I walked over, dragging my feet across the floor. When I finally reached him, he pulled me down into his lap.

I sat between his legs, my back against his chest. I felt like I could fall asleep right this very second if I shut my eyes to blink for long enough. He reached over and grabbed a stray throw blanket off of my piano bench, wrapping it around both of us to warm us.

I leaned into him as much as I could, my head falling back on to his chest as I was getting comfortable. He wrapped his arms around my torso slowly, placing a soft kiss on the top of my head. Neither of us said anything, we just sat in the comfortable silence.

I turned my gaze out the window, seeing the sky start to change color. The sun was finally rising. I wasn't sure when Draco should leave my room to go to his own. Surely, our parents would be up sooner or later.

Draco took a deep breath. He sat for another minute or two before he finally spoke up. "This might be Heaven." He chuckled, his gaze also out the window, watching the gorgeous sunrise.

I laughed at him. This was anything but that. "The way we are both going to be tortured when this all has to finally end this morning, it's definitely Hell."

He didn't say anything after that. Just squeezed me a little tighter. I guess he didn't like thinking about it as much as I didn't. The thought of pushing each other away.

"Are you guys leaving today?" I whispered, breaking the slight silence that filled the room. I barely had any energy left at this point, my body felt like it was running on autopilot. I felt him nod his head in response to my question. "Okay." I said quietly. We were running out of time.

"Can we try the spell one last time?" I asked, my eyes almost forcing themselves closed, not being able to fight the battle of consciousness much longer. My head felt like it was going to explode without sleep if I didn't go soon.

"Mmmhm" I heard him mumble against the top of my head. He slowly moved his face down to the crook of my neck and buried his face there. He left a small kiss on the soft skin right below my earlobe. I'd miss this. I held my wand up, trying to hear what Draco was thinking.

I couldn't hear anything. He probably fell asleep at this rate. I couldn't blame him for it either.

"Draco, wake up. I'm trying the spell." I sighed, my own eyes fluttering shut.

"I am up." He mumbled against my neck, leaving goosebumps on my arms. My eyes slowly widened in realization. I can't hear him.

"I can't hear you." I mumbled in disbelief, too tired to make a big fuss about it. I couldn't believe he had finally done it. Thank you, Merlin. Draco lightly chuckled, I could feel his warm smile against my skin.

"Well, this is the most relaxed I've felt in days." He whispered, planting another soft kiss on my neck. "I'd say that it probably did the trick." I chuckled lightly at him. I closed my eyes and let my body relax completely. He nuzzled me into him, making me as comfortable as possible as he cradled me.

"You do realize you need to be able to do the spell at any time. Especially without me around after today. Not when I'm in your arms, alone, and in my bedroom." I laughed quietly.

"I'll just remember the feeling. It's gonna be hard to forget this, trust me." He sighed. The sun was gently shining into the window now. Lighting the room and the sky alike.

I knew I wouldn't stay awake much longer. I let my body take control of itself. I fell asleep almost instantly, Draco still holding me tightly against his chest.

•

I slowly became conscious and noticed I was way too comfortable compared to how I fell asleep this morning. I shot up and looked around the room in urgency. I was laying on my soft bed, and Draco was no where to be found.

I looked out the large windows and saw that the sun was shining brightly. It just have been about midday. I realized then that Draco had said that the Malfoy's were leaving, and I hoped I hadn't missed their departure already.

I frantically shot up out of my bed, throwing on some slippers that sat on the floor. I sprinted into my bathroom and quickly brushed my hair, washed my face, and brushed my teeth. I didn't want to look like a crazy person when I saw all of them.

I ran back out to my dresser to grab some clothes to change into, and saw that a note was placed on top. My heart dropped almost instantly. It can't be a good thing that it was my name on the front in Draco's perfect handwriting.

I missed him.

I knew he was gone. I never even got the chance to say goodbye properly. The next time I'd be seeing him would be at school, and I didn't want a relationship with him this year if I could help it. We would go back to how things were years ago. Not really speaking. Passing in the halls. Draco's remarks every once in a while. Subtle nods or hellos.

I picked the piece of paper up in my hand, delicately. My hands were shaking slightly, knowing what the note had meant. My breathing felt like it was stuck in my throat.

I flipped it over slowly, not wanting to read what was written on the other side. The entire sheet was filled with a note. My heart was beating out of my chest. I was ready to throw up. I took a deep breath and started at the top.

Even when you're the worst friend I've probably ever had (and that's saying something compared to the likes of Crabbe, Goyle, and Pansy), you're the best one I could've ever possibly asked for.

He quoted his words from the beginning of the week, a weak smile pulling at my lips thinking about it. I continued reading.

I don't understand how I got so lucky to even get the time you did give to me. I know I don't deserve any of it. You're too good to me. Even when you hate me, you are there for whatever I need. I just hope it doesn't come back and bite you in the ass one day.

Thoughts of you will never leave my mind, the good, bad, and ugly ones. However, at least they can be kept there safely now. It makes me feel better. You have been my world and more for what feels like so long, but in reality, it was only a few short months.

The prettiest girl I could've ever asked for. Hoped for. Or dreamed for. I'll never forget that. I don't think anyone will ever compare to you. I will try my best to move on so you can find happiness without me, but I don't think I'll ever feel like this for anyone else again.

I wanted to leave off on a good note, for now. No speaking about what needed to be done between the two of us, nothing awkward to ruin the last night we had. I wanted this morning to be what we both remember moving forward, until even it doesn't bring us happiness.

I'm sorry for what we're about to endure this year at Hogwarts. It'll be Hell. I'd say don't hate me, but I already know you will. You've developed my attitude problems recently, and it's only a matter of time before we are butting-heads with one another.

Really Juliet, I'm truly sorry.

Thank you for everything, my love.

I hate you, more.

Yours always,
D.M. <3

A laugh escaped my lips at the poorly drawn heart by his initials. Genius? Sure. One of the best wizards I know? Sure. Handsome? Sure. An artist? Definitely not.

A drop of water fell onto the page, making my hand move up to wipe my face instantly. I hadn't even realized tears were falling down my face. I folded the paper up and stuck it in my jewelry box where I knew it would be kept safe from here on out.

I was sad. I hated to see him go. His words were so sweet. He always knew what to say to me. His words on the paper were nicer than anything I could've hoped for him to say about me. But, the tears felt like they were almost out of relief, too.

Relief that we ended like this. Relief that he could keep his thoughts about me to himself now and I wouldn't have to worry about our secrets getting out. Relief that we were safe from harm at the moment. I didn't have to be the one to rip the bandaid off after all. He did it.

I could never thank him enough for that.