So I found out that another girl who is in the game ahead of me is also reading my fanfiction.........interesting. hey Shelby whata going on boi I dint know what I'm doing I need to finish this chapter kill.me.

9:55 p.m.

I can't sleep not until Josh gets here. I can't sleep till he gets here. I have a bunch of starbucks double energy thingys so I stay awake. All I've been doing is looking at twitter, Facebook, pintrest, and Instagram. I've been drawing lately nothing special. I keep it to myself. Once I start researching more I work longer at the coffee shop I could quit and become a dance teacher. I miss dancing. And I think I could totally start dancing again.

11:00 p.m.

Nothing. Zero Josh. No josh in site. He hasn't texted or called in a few hours. Which I'm pretty sure is because he had a show then was coming home. I miss him so much. I've already used up all my paper drawing. Watched 3 Harry Potter movies and drank 4 starbucks drinks. And I have listened to blurry face album and vessel album each 4 times. I ate a cake. I'm not so proud of that one..........

4:02 a.m.

I'm trying not to fall asleep. I was laying on the floor poking at the carpet. I could hear the rain pouring down. I've always liked a rain. And thunder. Some peopleare scared of it but I love it. Then the door opened a I heard a bag hit the floor and the door smack the wall. I looked up. Josh was soaking wet form the rain. I ran up to him and jumped I wrapped my legs around his waist and sat there. He was cold and dripping with water. I lifted my head from his chest. Looked into his eyes. Beautiful brown eyes. "I missed you so much." I didn't realize I was crying. "I missed you too beautiful." He kissed me.

I've never loved someone this much. So early into our relationship. He's done with tour now. No need in missing him anymore. Until he goes back on tour. But who knows when that is exactly. "We should uh get you dry and warm clothes." I said. He wiped my tears. We walked up stairs to my bedroom. I had some of Josh's  clothes here from what I took when I left tour. Be said I could wear them and when he can to visit he would wear them.

Once Josh was dry and he was still happy. We walked into my bedroom I flopped on my bed and he laid next to me. "You wanna watch a movie?" I turned and looked at Josh. He so sweet. "A movie sound good right now." He laid his head on my chest. But a few seconds later he shot back up.

"CAN WE MAKE SNACKS!" I laughed and nodded. "Wooooooohooooooo." He jumped off the bed and ran to the kitchen. I laughed even more. He's so crazy and I love it.

JISH POV BECAUSE IT'S BEEN A WHILE ..........I THINK

I missed her. I've liked her since the day I helped her move in. I ran into her kitchen and grabbed anything that looked like good food. Chips, pop, oreos, "Ooh, popcorn." I grabbed it and threw it into the microwave don't worry I took off the plastic. I think. "CRAP, I should call tyler." I pulled out my phone unlocked it and called tyler. (He's on my speed dial) "JISH!" I heard him yell I shook my head and laughed. "Hey what's your sister favorite food? Also I made it home save and lastly I kissed your sister don't kill me." I smiled

That girl. I tell you. I would do anything for her. Whatever she needed. I'd be there for her. "Uh she like chocolate stuff all I know and second of all glad your alive." He didn't seem to care about the kissing thing until......."and third YOU KISS MY SISTER! REALLY!" I couldn't tell if he was yelling happy, angry or I don't know sad? "Uh is that a bad thing?" I was worried he'd be mad. It was quite for a while. "Nah it's all good don't do anything stupid I'll see you tomorrow love you jish." I laughed "Love you too tyjo." I hung up the phone and grabbed anything chocolate around the house.

To be completely honest I can't wait to move in with her. To see her every morning. I grabbed all the food and drinking my arms were full of food. I then realized I couldn't open the door. "Uh, Bella, I need help, I can't open the door." I heard her laugh. She opened the door her eyes were wide. "Das a lota food." Her mouth was open wide. I laughed "Why don't we start eating and watch the movie?" I raised an eyebrow. She nodded and I followed her in to her room. I was happy to be home. To be with Bella. Made me smile everytime I thought of anything to do with her.

Next day the joseph residents
BELLA'S POINT OF VIEW
(This is about to get reallllll)

Josh and I walked hand and hand into Tyler's house.  We went through the back door it was easier and Josh needed his extra drum sticks. As we walked in the chair was still there that I and Jenna were tied up in. They blood had stained the concrete and carpet floor. Tears streamed down my eyes. Broken wood was on the floor from when they knocked me out. Josh saw that I was crying and told me to go upstairs.

I nodded my head and walked up the stairs. Tyler was on the couch drinking red bull. He really didn't need to drink that he had so much energy already. "Hey sis, how you doing." I looked up a tears still fell down my face. "Oh no, I forgot to clean the basement didn't I?" I nodded  I didn't want to speak. My throat hurt. My eyes stung with tears. "Okay, uh is josh down there?" I nodded again. "Okay Jenna is in our bedroom go talk to her. And I'll go clean up thee uh you know." I nodded and walked towards the hall way.

I walked in and I couldn't see Jenna. "Jenna? We're are you." I walked towards her bed. "In my closet I'll be out in a bit."

Jenna's point of view SHITS ABOUT TO GET REALLLLLL HOMIES

I had to tell her the truth. I'm evil to the core. I'm sinister. I've just hurt my sister in law. I told Debby where she was. I'm so stupid for thinking she wasn't going to bring Damian into this. I'm dumb for thinking they weren't going to hurt me or her.

I know have a bruise, but I can cover it up. She has a hurt hip she got concussion. And bruises, cuts, fractures. Everything else and it's all my fault.

I walked out of the closet and sat at the bed with Bella. I sighed. "What?" She looked at me. "Um Bella theres something I have to tell you." I twisted to face her. "I'm the one who told Debbie where you were. And I knew she was dating Damian. I'm sorry Bella I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't know they were going to hurt you."

She was mad I could see it. "I almost died because of you Jenna! I thought I could trust you! Your the wife of my brother for bloody God's hell! I was wrong about you! I can't ever see you the same ever again! Never!" She ran out.

Bella's pov  (sorry not sorry for all the pov changes :))

I told tyler everything. He was so mad he came home with me. "I can't believe she did that. She could have killed you or herself or. You know what either one of us." I made us food
I still haven't talked much since my blow up. I trusted Jenna with my whole life. How did she not think any of this through.

She knew Damian was an abuser. She knew that Debbie has hated me ever since her and Josh broke up. Her thinks it's my fault. I never tried to do anything. I didn't even know they were still dating. I started crying as I ate my food. "Bella are you okay?" I shook my head no. I didn't even know which one of them said it but I they both stood up and hugged me. I cried into both of their chests. "I'm sorry I wasn't there to help you." I looked up tyler and Josh were crying also. "Me too sis I don't want you to get hurt again." He looked at Josh mouthed some words and let go of me.

Josh picked me up and brought me to our room. He laid me on the bed and rapped his arms around me. He was still crying. "I'm sorry....Bella....I should have been there for you....I-I can't let anything bad happen to you again. I can't lose you" I felt his tears in my cheeks. I stared into his eyes. "I love you Josh." I smiled and I kissed him.

I loved him holding me. I've missed him so much. Even though I have all these bruises, cuts, scars from self harm, fractured bones, and stiches, he still loves me. I eventually fell asleep.

In her dream :p (WARNING!!!) (sexual abuse) (Just letting ya know)

I was tied to a pole in the extra room of my apartment. Damian had a whip in his hand. I don't even know where or how we gotten one. I was I'm close to nothing of clothing. He walked around me holding the whip in to hands. He put it down and I was relieved. He then came close to me I smelled alcohol on his breath. He started to take off what was left of my clothing. I was scared to death. I tried screaming. But the duct type and the sound proofing room made it no use.

He rubbed up and down my hips and then to my thighs. "You disobeyed me again, Bella, you shouldn't have left the closet where I left you." He grunted. He was rubbing everywhere on my body. I started to cry nothing I could do. He touched my thigh the went closer. I screamed whe-

(Out of dream)

"AAAAAAAAG AAH NOO" I shot up. I was sweating I had tears running down my face. Josh sat up as soon as I did. "WHAT IS WRONG!" Tyler flung open the door and jumped for the bed. Josh pulled my close to him and I was then sitting in his lap. He took a blanket and wrapped it around me. "Are you okay." I shook my head no. "Did you have a bad dream?" I tyler asked sitting in front of me. I nodded yes. "I-it was about Damian wa-when he raped me years ago."

Tyler's eyes were huge. I then realized. This relationship I'm in. Might have went too fast. I've only known him for 6 months. Almost 7 and I'm dating him already. I couldn't stop crying. They gave me a glass of water and I drank it all. Once tyler went back to bed I decided to walk around for a bit.

I couldn't sleep. I was too scared to sleep. I was scared that the dreams would get worse. I looked at the clock 3:33 A.M. I couldn't stay up this whole time.

I went back to bed and Josh was sitting up. Watching TV and was on his phone as the commercials were on. "Are you doing okay." I nodded I crawled into bed laid next to him. He laid now and rapped his arms around me. He shut off the TV and I was slowly falling asleep. "I won't let anything happen to you again. I promise." Josh kissed my forehead and I was asleep.

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I "respect" Josh more than both my dads. Did anyone see that interview or nah I had djavu writing this it was weird. It's friday whoop and it looks like SHITTTT it's saint. Patrick's day and it's cold as fuck it's windy and snow is still on the ground and my step dad wants us 4 kids to go to a parade in this shit. He crazy. My sister is 2 and my brothers are 4 and 11 how the fuck do you think that's going to work out. I'd rather go to my boyfriends house kill me anyways. I will be updating again on hopefully by Wednesday or Tuesday we arw shooting for Tuesday and I'll upload again on Friday

Stay alive
Stay spooky
Love you guys
-spooky brenn :p