It was only my second day of camping out in the forest and I was already home sick. I was beginning to think that even hiding out at the Cullens place would be better than this.

I was crazy bored. For the first time in my life I didn't need to sleep. During the day I hid in the trees and searched for wildlife. At night I roamed the dead streets of forks with a strange feeling of sadness and...nostalgia?

It's seemed like I hated this small dump only yesterday but now that I'm "dead" everything's changed. I can only glance at my father through a window. Tonight he's sleeping with dried tears on his face.

It's seems like the only people who understand me and want to see me are the Cullens.

I walked aimlessly in the woods for hours until I entered a clearing.

A huge modern house stood before me. My feet had lead me back to the Cullens.

I guess I've made my decision.

•••

1 week later...

Facing the ceiling, I lay comfortably on Edwards bed. I mindlessly tossed a tennis ball up towards the exposed wood beams. Time always stalled when the teens went to school and Carlisle and Esme go to work.

I still think of my dad and Jacob everyday. I can't believe they're not in my life anymore.

I could still see Jacob's look of disappointment and disgust from that night at my dads. "Don't talk to me...ever!" His words echoed in my mind.

I should go talk to him. Just one last time.

Stay home Bella. He doesn't want to see you.
I bite my lip hard.
But this could be my last chance! He's the only one I can truly say goodbye to since I can't go to my parents...he's all I have left

Lost in thought my feet magically bring me downstairs. It seems like my body has made up its mind before my mind has made up its mind. Before I fully come to a decision I'm already out the front door.