i'm staring at the ceiling

laying on my bed

alone

without you

and i wonder

what if i didn't make that decision

would you be laying next to me

would you still want me

if i could go back to the past and change my actions

would i

or am i happy the way things turned out

i guess i'll never know

because i can't change the past

i can't change my actions

and you won't be laying next to me

and we won't be us again