here i am

staring at my computer screen

not moving at all

not being able to start my tasks

because my mind is working overdrive

i'm thinking about so many stupid things

i'm thinking about past mistakes

about things i said

about things that don't matter anymore

but i can't seem to stop

and focus on what really matters

i can't seem to focus on my future

because i'm still stuck in the past

and i need to get out

because if i don't

I won't have a future to think about