friendship

what is friendship

to me it is when you love someone with every ounce of your being and genuinely want them to be happy

that's the closest thing i can find to describe how i felt about you

that even after you broke me

i would still do anything for you

you are the person i would jump off a bridge for

you are the person i would take a bullet for

you are the person i would die for

and i thought you would do the same thing for me

but i was wrong

because you were the person that pushed me off the bridge

you were the person that pulled the trigger

you were the person that killed me

and you don't even know

you don't know how much you hurt me

i never wanted to admit it

because if i admitted it

that would mean it was real

that would mean that you never loved me the same way i loved you

and i don't want to believe that

i can't believe that

because if i do

i will hate you

and i will hate me more

for letting you do that to me

for letting you do that to us