friendship
what is friendship
to me it is when you love someone with every ounce of your being and genuinely want them to be happy
that's the closest thing i can find to describe how i felt about you
that even after you broke me
i would still do anything for you
you are the person i would jump off a bridge for
you are the person i would take a bullet for
you are the person i would die for
and i thought you would do the same thing for me
but i was wrong
because you were the person that pushed me off the bridge
you were the person that pulled the trigger
you were the person that killed me
and you don't even know
you don't know how much you hurt me
i never wanted to admit it
because if i admitted it
that would mean it was real
that would mean that you never loved me the same way i loved you
and i don't want to believe that
i can't believe that
because if i do
i will hate you
and i will hate me more
for letting you do that to me
for letting you do that to us