Sarah POV:

It's my first time really taking care of Ava not like 'your coming over to my house for a few hours or I'm going to take you somewhere and buy you a bunch of stuff'. This is just me and her alone in a house with no one to help. It's going to be 24/7 for the next two weeks and I'm kinda nervous. This is like real parenting. It's Monday and I have nothing to do today.

At 8 she comes in and jumps on the bed. I was already up. She jumps on the side where Peyton normally sleeps.

"Where's daddy? I wanted to jump on him" She says.

"He went to go film a movie remember?" I ask.

"Oh yeah" She says and smiles.

"What do you want to do today?" I ask.

"I have school" She says. Shit, I forgot about that.

"I forgot. Ok let's get you ready" I say.

"I can just stay home" She says.

"No you can't. You have missed too much school because of me. You can only miss school if you sick" I say.

"I am sick" She says and fake coughs.

"No your not. Let's go get you ready" I say and we go into her room.

She picks out her outfit. She wanted a sweatshirt and black leggings. When she came on tour with us back in August she got a mini Detour sweatshirt. It was ones of the pink ones. We had to get it custom because they only make adult sizes of them. So she wore that, it was really cute. So I got a picture of that and sent it too Sabrina. Sabrina later on posted it on Instagram. Then we went downstairs and I made her breakfast. I still barley know how to cook (my mothers lessons did not work) so she just ate a bowl of cereal. I made her lunch. That wasn't hard. It was just a peanut butter and jelly with some goldfish and a juice box. Then she brushed her teeth and I brushed her hair. We went out to wait for the bus and about five minutes later it came.

"Bye mommy. I'll see you later" She says and hugs me.

"Bye" I say and hug her back then she runs on to the bus. She sat with Auggie and Ocean. I waved to them and they waved back.

I go back inside and look around. I've never actually been here alone before even though I'm not really alone, Goodwin and Teddy are still here.

So what should I do? I could sit and do nothing for six hours until Ava comes home or go snooping through Peyton's stuff. The second option sounds more fun but I shouldn't.

I go upstairs to Peyton's bedroom. He calls it our bedroom but I'm just so used to calling it his that's just what I call it.

I go into his closet and get the pictures he has of Ava when she was a baby like after I left. I've wanted to see those again.

I take the regular box of pictures out. He still has the ones of me and Ava in a smaller box in the back.

I take Ava's baby pictures out and I skip through all the stuff I was here for. Then looked through the other pictures for after that. That took about a half an hour.

Then I go further back into the closet and get the pictures of me and Ava. That was a really small box. There was only about 15 pictures in there. Those are the only 15 pictures of us that exist from when she was a baby. That was real quick. It only took like two minutes.

I went to go put both the boxes back but then I saw another box far back in his closet. I had to know what was in it. I get the box and sit back down. It was the same size as the regular Ava baby box. It was a black and white designed photo box. I really liked the box, it was pretty.

I open it up and there was a piece of paper in it with a bunch of dates written down. It was a log of all the times he looked in this box. It started at November 2010, that's when we started dating. To December 2013 that's when we broke up. Then from 2013 it skipped to 2015. October 10th 2015 to be exact, that is my birthday. Then there were three dates in 2017. The night of the concert, the day we started dating and the day me and Ava did the family tree project. I understood why he would have looked in the boxes on the first two dates but not the last one.

I open it up and start looking through, it was every single picture of us on the face of the earth. It started in October 2010 when we first started dating. It was cute to see how little we were. I had just turned 16 and he was 19. Back then it felt like such a big age gap probably because I was a minor and he was considered an adult. Now it feels like we are the same exact age but he's just a little more mature.

Then was everything in between. There was at least one picture of every time we were together. Then fast forward to Christmas 2012. We hung out with my family almost all day. At like seven o'clock we left there and went to his apartment and well that was the night Ava was made. I was 18 and he was 21 so it was legal. Then January 2013 we found out about her. There were a lot of pictures from that. For some reason I don't have those. I'm going to have go get copies once he shows me this box. I can't let him know I was going through his stuff.

So then all the pictures kept going for another year. There were some of us then some of us with Ava. Then all those pictures stopped in December 2014 when we broke up. After that we barely talked. We knew our set days with Ava and that was that. It was a quick "Hi" and "Bye" and maybe a "She needs to eat" and that was that. Three months later I let our issues get in the way and I was gone. Touring was a big way to get out of seeing him. That wasn't the right thing to do though. I should have stayed for Ava.

The pictures resumed at September 2017 when we had our second first date. There was only one picture from that night. We didn't even take it. A fan that was at the same restaurant as us took it. There was one of the two of us and Ava at her birthday party. There are a surprisingly good amount of pictures of us from September to now (January 2018) I feel like we haven't taken too many but we have.

Once I was done going through them. I put the piece of paper on top and put it back in the closet.

I go downstairs. Goodwin and Teddy were asleep on the couch . They get there naps in while Ava as at school because when she comes home she is constantly playing with them. Goodwin has gotten used to her the past couple of months. Before she was really hyper and crazy and he just wasn't used to that. She still has a lot of energy but he's more used to it. Teddy's a puppy and has just as much energy as her so he likes it.

The house is pretty lonely with no one here. I like it better when Peyton and/or Ava are here.

A couple hours later Ava came home and saved me from my boredom.

"How was school?" I ask as we were walking up the driveway back to the house.

"Good." She says.

"Do you have homework?" I ask.

"Yeah. I have one math sheet and one spelling sheet and I need to read for 15 minutes" She says.

We go inside and I get her a snack. She sits at the counter and does her math homework. They are working on basic subtraction right now. She eats and does her homework. She likes doing it because she gets to do it in crayon.

So the rest of the day was pretty normal. The only not normal thing about it was Peyton not being here.