So my mom just finished doing my hair a few minutes ago, and when she first started earlier in the evening as well as earlier when she finished the second half, we talked about stuff kinda I guess

Which is nice

And, when we were talking earlier, she started talking about my grandma(her mom) and then shared memories of her grandparents(my great grandparents).

And while she was doing that,

She brought up that my Great Grandma(her Grandmother) was bISEXUAL. And she had a gIRLFRIEND. I INTERNALLY SCREAMED

I DID NOT KNOW I HAD A FAMILY MEMBER THAT WAS SOMETHING OTHER THEN STRAIGHT???? KEYWORD ON HAD CUZ MY GREAT GRANDMA'S BEEN DEAD OOPS

And, even tho I dont know mY sexuality yet exactly, I've been lowkey guessing that I'm possibly gonna be bi, since I gave a mix of both male and female(more female ones showing up recently---) fictional crushes 'n junk.

sO AFTER LEARNING THAT MY FIRST THOUGHT WAS LIKE:

"OH THANK GOD—MOM DOES KNOW WHAT BISEXUALITY IS" CUZ TBH IF I DID END UP BEING THAT THEN I THOUGHT I'D HAVE TO EXPLAIN IT OR SOMETHING AND UH

I'M BAD AT SPEAKING AND FORMING PROPER SENTENCES WITH OUT REPLICATING A YOUTUBE VIDEO WHEN IT'S BUFFERING

F U C K I NEED SOME LIKE,,,,, SPEECH CLASSES OR SOMETHING

CAN I JUST BE MUTE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND JUST SAY EVERYTHING THROUGH TEXT/WRITTEN WORDS??? I'M BETTER AT THAT

Uh

I think I went off topic,,,,

Was there even a topic to begin with????

I dont know anymore

I'm gonna go back to lining a redraw of a Melrus thing now

And probably Lowkey die over Todoroki from BNHA and scream about how pRETTY??? AND CUTE??? Plastic from 'Mirrors Edge: Catalyst' is imo cuz oOF theorists speculate that I'm prolly Biromantic pffft

Also in the mist of talking about grandparents mom also talked about how both of hers are dead(since the way that conversation started was her asking me if I'd be sad if my grandmother ever died) to which I was just mentally like 'uM PLZ I LIKE JOKING ABOUT ME DYING FROM A SMALL DUMB THING TO MYSELF BUT I DON'T LIKE ACTUAL DEATH CAN WE NOT' so uh

Ri and her mother have very random conversations that at some point I learned more about Astrology

Like, how people with a lot of Mars/Aries energy in there chart all have a small scary on their face. Like, I have a scary under my lip, and my Mars is ruled by Taurus, which is half of the Gemini/Taurus cusp of my rising sign, and then mom has a small scar(that for a visual idea, looks like a boomerang but just one small line) under her eye from when she was like 3, and she has alot of Aries in her chart

mind bLOWN.

and also when I say conversation I mean mom talked about stuff and I just went "mhm" and/or said a few words

Cuz that's how all our conversations go

Cuz I'm bad at speaking and I dont know how to respond most of the time

I'm gonna stop before I continue rambling about nothing oof

Til next time,

Ja nē~!

~Ri/SaltyMemeDweeb